Gut-less loser but....

that gut-less loser is ME.

FINALLY, some news of him.

now, i have the means, the opportunity and the whole 5 days for me to turn things around.

it's simple as ABC.

...howcome it seems so hard as hell to me?

maybe it's because i've already guessed the outcome from the start.

at best, friends. period.

someone needs to shake the senses out of me. literally.

if i'm not going to do anything, then don't feel excited!!!! why am i so elated one second and yet so loss the next???

honestly, what am i anticipating???

i should just silently wish him well and subtly waive goodbye, from the heart...

Canada is not far away....you are.

my AP and I

i haven't been reflecting much these days. as you can, i've been ranting about nothing most of the time.

AP stands for attitude problem [if you're still struggling to catch].

actually, i think most people don't see my AP-side. only some does. and that precious some are really magnanimous with me. that, i really appreciate.

of cus, it's not an excuse for me to take that for granted. but sometimes i do, like yesterday. but like i said, i do reflect.

just yesterday, i was chatting with my bestest bestest bestie. and she could just sense how AP i was in an instant. in fact, she saw through me as an AP person since secondary school....i was kinda rude to her. my threshold for annoyance isn't usually low and it wasn't PMS. so i don't know what came over me.

i don't know why but i think i stepped into my semester on a wrong foot. it's just not right for me. and i'm like losing heart in everything. a lot of supposed 'worries' and 'problems' surfaced and it felt like my system's gonna crumble. damn it. it must be the school-reopening blues.....

as usual, a problem is never a problem to her. so i got a bit annoyed. and she say i got AP. and i got even more annoyed cus i don't like to hear stuff like that when i'm annoyed. but true friends...like she always said, stabs you in the front.

they'll tell you all the things you hate to hear, but are also at the same time, truths about yourself which you've been struggling to admit.

so i didn't wana talk abymore and went offline. it's times like this, where i really hate myself. cus i know for a fact that i've been an asshole to someone i care about.

and after reading one of her posts, it only made me think how immature i was cus nothing's really a problem and there's nothing to worry about actually. it's just the way you see things. sadly, the way i saw things for the past week, is all topsy-turvey and SKEWED.

OKAY, so i must learn to be rational and stop brooding over nothing.

By the way, i don't just display AP before everyone. if you haven't seen the AP side of me yet, there's a reason. cus we're not that close. lol. anyway, it's not like i'll deliberately hide my true self it's just that it's too easy to be an asshole and make enemies, so i'd rather make more friends...i like the sound of it more.
;)

True genuine friends...one or two enough already. cus honestly, not everyone can take my shit and still appreciate me for what i am.

so for that, thanks LCB. for stabbing me so hard. haha.

不能说的秘密

Dear friends,

umm...this random title has nothing to with the overrated movie you've watched.

i haven't watch so i say it's overrated. lol. that's probably cus i already know the secret....much as those annoying people try so hard to hide. bleah! okayokay, before start firing at me, i know i'll have to watch it for myself first.

but hell, shall i spoil everything further by telling the secret here [for those who haven't watch it too]? well, i'm not exactly dumb, so i'll do this discreetly since i have quite a lot of jay-fan-friends here....lol.

*pls call 1900-119-reveal the secret [if you're itching for it]

as for me, l'll watch it.....someday...on crunchyroll...muahahaha~~~

anyways, yeah, now for MY secret. oooooooo.....do you wana know MY secret???? lol. i know you don't cus they'll just keep your eyes rolling forever. and do i need to remind you of what a boring person i am? the next most interesting piece of news you'll wana hear about me is something like me getting caught for jay-walking or doing corrective-work-order for littering.

get a grip friend, that'll NEVER happen to me cus if you know me, you know how 'ham-ji' i am....haha.

ain't i annoying??? no secrets to tell but you've already read so much crap. thanks for being my faithful supporter. lol.

but before you click me away, laugh at how moronic you are first....haha, for reading so much of NOTHING. so much for my first week of school yeah? you can already guess how it went for me from the way this post turned out.

CRAPPY.

forgive me, and please continue to show interest in my unflattering, monotonous posts.

yours,
whatever.

如果你也听说

有没有想过我

想普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落

要怎么附和

舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说

会不会相信我

对流言会附和

还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

懂我的人就你一个

想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

如果你想起我

你会想到什么

Low LOW LOW

i'm feeling O-SO LOW.......

my whole face reads SIANICISM.

whatever.

well, my day started off well.....actually my mood's already not all great ever since the day i realized i've got so many projects this semester.

PROJECTS! I F-ing hate them. that's not the worst, the worse is when you have to do OP! OP SUCKS! and i can sense some irritants poking at me "the world is not perfect you know...what you expect?? this is varsity education for you...." like HELL i know. i just want to whine. neh neh neh neh neh~

and how wonderful is it to kick start a 'smashing' semester with a 6-8pm lecture.

i see no daylight on my first day in school. as my lecturer puy it "it's really inhuman"

anyways.....was talking about my day....

had 2 lectures. content-average. lecturers-i'm sorry to say, quite boring. what's new what's new?? and some other irritants will go "but lecturers aren't entertainers what......what you expect what you expect???" I DON'T CARE! i just want to whine!!!

nothing's contributing to my already soiled-mood.

tsk~

still, was quite looking forward to hang-out with ah lim...aka the time-bomb, a newfound nick for her.

only with her, my conversational skills hit all-time low. at the end of each conversation, i don't see where we're getting at except for rounds and rounds of laughter over pretty much nothing. but that's also what's so amazing about us.

but still, i felt damn low after that.

are the impending projects bothering me so much??

is exercising self-restrain in shopping that frustrating for me???

or is it cus after a round of reminisence of that particular someone that made me feel a sudden sense of loss and regret?

....maybe it's just cus i didn't get that supposed free ride home after meeting my parents in Novena Square.

i'm such a loser.

=(

"Gold" digging Expedition

Today, Glynis and I embarked on a "GOLD" diggin' expedition.
NO we didn't climb mountains and cross seas [ummm...s'pore don't really have such magnificent features to begin with].

we went to an ulu place to shop....guess where??

CITY PLAZA!!!

so rumour has it that there are lotsa 'GOLD' [as in nice cheap stuff] there.

well, nice, i'm not so sure since the stuff there didn't instigate enough interest in us to even stick our fingers into the racks. SO neh....not as nice. and they're kinda This Fashion...if you know what i mean.

if you're talking about CHEAP....then you're in for some rude-awakening cus they are not at all CHEAP. no. no. no.....the jeans they sell there are of the exact same price as those found in Bugis St. and the latters definitely a more chic place to shop at. so nothing's really THAT cheap there and they kinda don't do bargaining unlike Bugis St. sadddd...

so you get the picture: Not very nice stuff plus not very cheap price pretty much equates OVERRATED- your better option: stay home and stuff yourself with potato chips.

let's just not start on the location part.

something interesting though, we saw some chickens shopping...CHICKENS. don't get it?? don't act innocent leh. wahahahaa... it's like their CHICKY-"haven". lol.

and Glyn said she ever saw some "lao bing" [old man in a taiwanese slang] bringing their mistresses to shop there. it's like i can imagine them saying "kuai dian la, kuai dian la...Lion City Hotel zai dui mian er yi..."
muahahaahahaha....~~ how convenient. =D

actually we didn't simply PLAN to get there today. i have other plans in my agenda. heehee~~~ what is it what is it??? JIAYI should be really curious.

and i wana declare something!

I'M GONNA SPEND A BOMB FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!!

who ever said friendship cannot be measured with material stuff? that person is clearly deluded. ha. EVERYTHING under the sun needs MONEY. and not just every "ah mao ah gou" will part with that much cash unless that friend means a lot...OR unless that person's cash stacks right up to the moon. get the picture?????

oh, anyways, i'm being whinny cus the expedition failed.

BOO BOO!!!

Dissing mode

something just triggered my dissing mode.

actually not something, it's a particular band.

man, they can't sing or perform live for nuts. the one thing that irritates me most is how their voices just do not come through mic. the music just completely smothered their vocals can....and my gosh....OFFTUNE. not once, not twice.... and worse of worse... cannot even remember lyrics. aiyooo......

which part of a responsible or competent artiste do they fit into???

the only good thing about them is maybe they have some talent in music making. that's about all...and it's not like every song is a radio-hit.

i'd reckon they'll be better off behind the scenes. and i honestly don't think it'll be a huge loss for the music scene if they didn't exist in the first place.

i'm so mean, i'm sorry.. =)

anyways....side track a lil...

Suju is damn funny. they're HILARIOUS. tsk... haven't been laughing out that loudly for sometime. can't wait for their movie to be out. they and their randomness.....

LimLim's bdae is coming... what do i have in-stalled for her??? she's gonna have sleepless nights from now on cus

JIAYI, IT'S GONNA BE A HUGE SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Interesting!!!

DBSK has been earnestly taking up Chinese lessons and they're made to speak mandarin since Feb. and you know what??!! for every Korean word they say they'll be fined $10,000 KRW. so far, they've already paid SM around a million KRW which is like S$1600+++

oh how i love hardworking chaps...

CORRECTION: Hard working KOREAN chaps with killer-good-looks and god-given voices...... waaaahhhh.....

but what the hell... they are gonna start their world tour soon:

1st stop TAIWAN.

when are they ever gonna drop by our lil red dot???? hai~~

Preeese leh.

what? not very interesting? go kill yourself.

*Credits to: Baidu.com [i don't plagiarize =)]