Musings...

Hello friends...

Went for Ettusais' birthday "party" on Saturday (20th June) with JM Cher where they thought us how to put on summer make-up. i don't really care about the summer part cus first off, the eye color for the summer range is grostique to me...i'm more of a matt-tone person so yeah... but besides that i did pick up some make-up tips which i'll probably forget the next time i put on make-up. HAHA. but i was still quite inspired to try once i got home...since i'm so free and all..... lalalalaa... so here you go, my hideous half-made-up face for you:

(with flash)

(without flash)

(One for hiao-ness)

Camera, ACTION!

I've been snapping away but didn't have the mood to upload the pics! Now i have! so ENJOY yah???

***Disclaimer: Just in case you are featured and look a bit unglam, if you wana mosaic off your face i give you friendship discount. One photo 10bucks. AHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

I'm jobless okay, this is how i earn money!!

Cam Whoring in XiaoBai:

very Hiao right, my sister.

it's okay, I'm HIAOer. =D

ok last.

Can't remember the date but Jiayi and i were at Marina Square

@Dome

Dome has the NICEST Caesar Salad lah! I LOOOOOVVVE salads man. but i hate thousand island dressing. Register that if you are my true friend. :)))))

A very contented me.

And then cus we were so spontaneous and bored we ended up driving back to sing at Safra Yishun.

Ther service SUCKS lor. At first the waiter say got 2 drinks then it became one. what the hell!? big difference can. They charge so much money but can't even get their facts right??? still wana argue somemore. Luckily we are not the kind that take things lying down. haha.... two anal women can be super lethal. heh heh.

But anyways, i won't be singing elsewhere for a thousand years i guess. CUS I HAVE A K-BOX/PARTY WORLD equivalent KTV system at home. (Rolls around in triumphant laughter)

Look at Ah lim's intense posture and facial expression!

tsk tsk tsk. Totally into it can...

oooo... my throne is threatened.

@ the Airport

trying very hard for a Cherine-impersonation

@NM3225's LAST & FINAL tutroial (thank goodness)

From left: Cindy, Poh Si, Huili & ME

@ The Deck aka Arts Canteen

"Our Last Meal Together in FASS"

Look at the bright and cheery canteen now. It used to be dark and scary.... but that's not the point. Though we always, ALWAYS complain about how sian and undelicious the food is here, we'll still miss the times we used to hang out...the dao huey that occasionally taste good, the very popular papaya milk that tastes so yucky but we still insist on drinking for good reasons, the Yong Tau foo that serves lesser and lesser soup each time, the bar chor mee that takes half and hour to cook even if you're 3rd on the queue and the most popular average tasting waffles.

like they always say, it's never about the food. It's the PEOPLE.

..and these will always be the most dearest people i'll have fond memories of after graduation.

From left: Poh Si (aka DA NAI), Me (aka Xiao Nai), JM Cher (aka Er Nai), HuiLi ( aka Nai Zun) and Merissa, the dear sister (at the back)

All the Nais UNITE!

YAY!!! we're graduating TOGETHER!!!!! i hope

I think we're a more subdued and controlled buncha people compared to others. and our version of a little lunatic act is to pose outside the office of our major dept.

at long bloody last, cherine willingly posed for the camera, with arms wide opened (literally)

but i'm hoping she won't flip when she sees this. :))))) jm, i give you sister price, 5bucks i mosaic for you. LOL!

uh, running outta ideas here... and if you realise, one of the lecturers is trying to get out.

Mer should be awarded MOST CANDID pose for this! No worries, next year nobody will compete with her already.... she can win hands down. cus our dear smarty-pants girl here is doing honours!!

One last shot!

Goodbye CNM!!! I love my MAJOR!!!!

but i hate

Nm3225

Nm3204

Nm3217

Nm2216

Nm2102

New Home, New Chapter

It's been a long break.

Just closed a chapter.

Actually, quite a few chapters: NUS, Yishun Ave 4 and unworthy relatives.

Nevertheless life is happy now, no doubt MY personal life is pretty uncertain. For example, i haven't have the slightest idea of what i'm gonna do for the time being. Don't even know i can safely graduate....might be the post examinations anxiety. Thankfully, i'm keeping myself busy with HOUSEWORK. Might not seem a big deal to you but you will know why if you ever visit me. it's quite an apalling responsibility, haha.

I love my room, it is AWESOME.

By the way, i gotta apologise to some friends that i've been neglecting or hostile towards for the past week. I've been pms-sy as usual.... didn't mean to be so anal and all.... i'm reflecting. i have issues with showing affections, if this makes it any better.... LOL. So don't abandon me and continue dating me please. ((((((:



I have TONNES of pictures to upload from last last last weeks until now but i'm kinda lazy. I'll work on it! And since it's like a new beginning for me i wana try to live more purposefully from now on. HAHA....i'll work on that too.

I'll be inviting you guys over bit by bit cus i'm not gonna hold any housewarming... be patient yah!

xoxoxo

Today, i have a realisation.

In bad times, true friends come around. But it is also times like this people take you for a ride.

I don't need sympathy and i'm tired of telling people how it is now. It's not good. I'm not fine. I'm very affected.

Everytime i see my dad i wana cry. Now as i'm typing...i am crying. I don't know how much more tears is enough to get over this but somehow i don't want to get over.

I will forever remember what i learnt today -

"Trust" is just a word. It means nothing. It can might as well mean fuck to me now.

"Relatives" are relative. unimportant whatsoever.

Everyone is SELFISH. fucking selfish.

LAST OF IT

you how they always say in Tv shows that Jealousy and power can kill a person. And you and me, in all naiveness, think that these are only drama. Now i'm telling you, we have finally become a TV show, thanks to someone's impulsive STUPIDITY, which i'm very certain, will not keep him satifsfied for too long..because this time it's not just jealousy and power, it is STUPIDITY.



So he tries to force my family into a sorry state, i'd like to see him eat his words back one day.

"WHAT I GAVE YOU I CAN TAKE BACK" he said in the meeting on Monday 13/04/09.



I'd like to know what he gave my dad, or us. I can name very specifically and truthfully, we do not owe him ANYTHING. On the contrary, Without my dad, he wouldn't be living in his over-priced terrace house, Zenged his Merc with AMG and Drive a flashy Maserati. YES I SAID THIS. I don't need to have balls to own up to my words unlike someone who's entire marriage is built on LIES. So much for my dad standing on his side constantly, speaking up against people who badmouths him, even going to the extent of helping him hide facts from his wife, which my mum obliged unwillingly. So much for reminding my dad to be grateful and save his dignity in front of others... you see how people repay us?



Unlike his damn sad life, my parents tell us everything. We share our problems, have long talks and stay united. I don't know how much LIES he told my relatives or refuse to clarify truths about my dad as his business partner rather than "worker". But alot of facts are twisted and circulated throughout the entire extended family. They just don't know how useless this person is, thinking that he is the BIG BOSS of the company and my family OWES him a living.



I don't blame them for having NO FUCKING BRAINS. But i do detest the fact that their mouths are so BIG that everything that comes out becomes balloonized.





Get this straight okay, the only reason the company is earning millions now, truthfully, (put ur filthy hand over ur heart, if u even know where it is) is BECAUSE OF MY DAD. Not his wife, not himself, not even anyone so great as to be mentioned here. and guess what??? YES I SAID THIS AGAIN. I actually don't intend to expose him but i just want people to have a better understanding of what he actually does at work. let's see, Which hell of a 'boss' comes into the office and only talks about toilet cleanlines? the only things he said in a formal meeting is telling people to switch off toilet lights after use?? Or even ask for the birth dates of his employees to see if they're compatible to the company's fortunes??? Oh, and even go to the extent of installing numerous CCTVs in the office, even tried to put one in my dad's (who's the MD) room to feed his voyeurism. yes, let's say it out loud together "WHAT THE FUCK?!"

Guess what?? even my sister has spoken.

flea(: says:
i fucking hate "SHIBAL HO" (a korean vulgarity plus his surname)

Call me Audrey says:
who likes a fucker seriously
SHIBAL man
let's not be rude. he's dying earlier than us
flea(: says:
i so want to tell my dear relatives wad shit their uncle is doing
losers
i just get angrier and angrier u know
maybe i will accumulate my anger like shibal did
n unleash one of the days when he is the happiest
just now they were in daniel's room
shibal baldy n banana
then there was like alot of laughter
Call me Audrey says:
really
flea(: says:
and can hear shibal's voice alot
one day
i will make sure he cannot laugh again
n i wont be sorry
i dont care if other ppl think i'm evil or selfish
because i will return wad he did man
wif interest
Call me Audrey says:
wah u finally unleased ur anger lor
very good
u should just say all the vulgarities u can think of.
it helps
flea(: says:
i believe i have much more abilities than those 3 shits combined
maybe i can finally put it to gd use
perhaps i shd thank
shibal n co
nv had such a burning ambition to make it out there bef
give me a reason to mock them wif my success

By the way friends, this is just part of the story. By writing this it's not that i'm asking anyone to side me. I just feel like i can't sleep well if some truths are not told. I've said this to my family and i will say it again. if i ever get to meet my twin cousins, who i won't be surprised will side their auntie and "uncle" (if they still even respect him for i duno what reasons), I WILL TELL THEM THE TRUTH. THEY NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH AND THE METHODS USED AGAINTS MY FATHER, and the KIND OF PEOPLE WHOM HE "PLANNED" THIS CONSPIRACY WITH.

I mean, i won't say my dad is totally faultless in this entire episode, he might have offended people but let's ask ourselves this question: DO THEY HAVE TO GO TO THE EXTENT OF NOT EVEN LEAVING A ROAD FOR PEOPLE TO GO??????

I see them as SMART, logical INDIVIDUALS. I honestly hope their many years of education don't fail them in their judgement. And even if they want to choose to believe whatever i said as LIES to manipulate them, so be it. The whole point of this was never for them to go against their family anyways.

removing my dad from the company is NEVER the issue. DEPRIVING HIM OF WHAT HE DESERVES AS A SHAREHOLDER OF THE COMPANY IS PLAIN UNETHICAL.

I really hate to say this my because i am young and impulsive, i'd like to for once take advantage of this excuse. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS AT THE END OF THE DAY, MY DAD WILL GO HOME TO A FAMILY WHO SUPPORTS HIM AND STICK WITH HIM THROUGHOUT. HE HAS DAUGHTERS WHO WILL STAND BY HIM UNLIKE THE VICIOUS SOMEONE WHO WILL NEVER EVER HAVE THAT UNTIL THE DAY HE DIES.

This is the LAST AND FINAL TIME gonna mention this in my blog. Let's leave the rest to KARMA.

New adjectives for the Bona-fide bastard (aka BB):

DISGRACEFUL, IRKSOME, BALL-LESS.


I have such a burning desire to write an entire entry dedicated to EXPOSE him but


I WON'T STOOP SO LOW. (for now)

This world is full of CRAZY BASTARDS.

And unfortunately, one of them is in my family.

No, screw the family.

This fucking ungrateful, PETTY, GREEDY, INSANE, SPITEFUL hell of a BASTARD will get karma because if he even has a conscience, he won't be happy for too long.

I'm not gonna feel sorry for saying this because this bastard i'm talking about deserves every single word above or even more. i'm not so proficient in hokkien vulgarities cus if i am, i'm not gonna hold back. I WILL SPELL OUT EVERY SINGLE WORD if i am able to.

Just a note.

I SURVIVED!!!!!!!

It's so rare for me to see the good side of life now, let alone pretty things like RAINBOWS. I think seeing one last Saturday really meant something; I'm missing out the wonderful things in life. Maybe it's telling me to look at the colorful side of things rather than the dull, ugly and monotonous... =)

This is what i coin recharge. Look at more pretty stuff, hangout with great people, lotsa SWEETS.... anything that makes me H-A-P-P-Y. Very timely indeed because if not all all these, i'm probably gonna indulge in yet another round of self-pity and incessant whining until the week's done. BECAUSE THE OFFICIAL CRAZY WEEK STARTS TODAY.

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My personal brand of recharge:

#1 YY's 22nd Birthday celebration

..because we had a merry merry time together eating nothing but DESSERTS and you loved the watch we bought you.

p/s: for almost 3 yrs and counting, we shared tears and laughters, shampoo and toothpaste in Korea, and also share the same friend (Cherine Lau Jiamin),and alot other joyous moments.

Friendsie, Love you always :)

#2 Finally mastering the art of braiding...

..of cus this isn't the best of what i learnt. i can do better.

#3 Cam-whoring

#4 Prettifying your friend







#5 Making funny faces

#6 Camwhoring some more

#7 Chill with my NUS GFFs (girlfriends forever) @ RED DOT Dempsey

Jm cher, me and huili

Pohsi and Elin

Huili the beer girl


#8 Drink Healthy Beer

A toast to the Green monsters and mighty girls!





#9 Stop and appreciate

Vadalism at its BEST. Street art rocks man.


#10 JIAYI LIM

When was the last time you just randomly vomit a whole conversation of nothingness to your bestest friend? if you haven't, you should try. it's therapeutic. Or you can try shouting in the car and ad-lipping to Jason Mraz's I'm yours in the most ununiform way.... and then laugh damn hard until you drown out the radio.... Love it. <3

P/S: If i ever get trapped in the car with you i might very well die of laughter than carbon monoxide intoxication. It's a compliment, love. You gimme SO MUCH JOY. LOL.

*****

I'm gonna survive this week and live to tell the tale!!!!!!

Swimming in my own private lil joy

I wonder what it feels like to be secretly liked by someone. Of cus i'll never know because it's a secret right? RIGHT.

He must be so lucky. Though i'm nothing fabulous, gorgeous or whatever. Not even that smart. But it doesn't matter cus he don't have to know now. Maybe in a few years' time...when the feelings' gone, when i finally found someone else to plant my attention on...when i eventually become someone outstanding....Maybe by then i'll seem possible, or at least be an option. haha...

Until then, there's nothing i wana spoil nor change. Right now as i'm typing, he came online.. but i'll never find a need to start a conversation cus being here, having the slightest acknowledgment that he's withing reach is my biggest, most satisfying consolation.

I'm looking forward to the very few fridays that's left. Though he don't see me... haha. it's so funny sometimes knowing how stupid it is to just look and don't do a thing. we are friends but the ghost in me just spoils everything if you get what i mean.

Me and my school-girl crush...sigh. whatever you call it, it's just gonna last for another month or two, and then it fades, sadly. i should write a story about it or something. just one day, i will let him know. I hope he'll be flattered, that's the least i expect.

My Plain John: thank you for beong my private pool of joy =)

SAT & SUN

i watched "COMING SOON" yesterday at MIDNIGHT with kent, amy and nigel. Amy kinda "conned" us into it lah cus i didn't really know what kinda show it was until we watched it. I thought it's not gonna be so bad but OMFG. so wrong!!!! The Thai director has a knack for attacking you with consecutive blows of visual obscenity. SO DAMN BEI BI!!!!!! This is like the second time i screamed in a horror flick can. SO much for covering my ears....it didn't work that well for me this time man. @#$%

Before that, went out with my parents and fefe in the day to confrim the furnitures at parkmall and furniture mall. Shopping is SO TIRING for once.... but i'm really really pleased with the furniture in my room =)))))))) Got them all from Ecolinks http://www.ecolinks.com.sg/Palais.html I got a whole set of similar designs for the bed frame, side table, lamp and the dresser. Can't wait to see my room!!!!!

and before before that, we went to the new house again to check on the renovations. I gotta say we really have a great designer. he's damn good at organising everything and helped us with furniture shopping as well... damn responsible. but anyways, i kinda pity our new neighbours. cus it's gonna be another month and a half of noise pollution until we shift it. I hope they don't hate us. HAHAHAHAHAA... i hope they survive it well.... WAHAHAHAHHAHAHA....

At night i met up with JM and Huili for dinner. We had a happy time but we ate crappy food at Breeks. eeew eeew to the food... really unsatisfying to the maximum. we talked about our pop culture project (yuck), boys, life and our GRADUATION TRIP!!!!! Until now, it's still undecided between Australia and New zealand but Jm's not very thrilled with the idea of rotting on green grass every day. But huili and i are quite excited about waking up to freshly squeezed cow milk leh... bungy jump??? white water rafting??? COOLNESS. sigh, before we can get all hyper about it, we gotta nail the damn project. Mighty Fark. Oh and we tried to find that pseudo-tranny-self-proclaimed-J.LO at orchard road....but she didn't appear. we walked TWICE LOR!!! lol huili and i were so determined to show cherine how fugly and yucky she looked. that's our version of entertainment on a saturday night for you =D

and then Kent they all came to fetch me for the asshole movie.

TODAY: supposed to go IT show with my parents but my sis and i woke up late. my parents are so sweet to let us sleep some more... i slept at like 3am the night before, F.Y.I. and i didn;t wash my hair. very ?!?!?!??!?!?!?!? right? like mathilda lau shu yi actually didn't wash her hair and sleep on her own bed?! i'm not about to change my rules, don't worry. Haha. i wrapped my hair up in a towel so they won't come into contact with any of my pillow and bolster. I'm brilliant am i??

In the end fefe and i drove to cityhall to meet them. of cus we did all we could to avoid the swamp at the IT fair. i hate crowds. we had a nice lunch at kenny rogers and spent the rest of the afternoon with our parents in Harvey norman's home theatre system room. the promoter played Elva's concert DVD...Thankfully. but i still felt like sleeping. i actually fell asleep outside on the couch in front of a display LCD tv...IN PUBLIC. lol.

like i said, SHOPPING IS INDEED TIRING!!!!!!

Oh! i just bought the Harajuku "lil'Angel" perfume by Gwen Stefani for Huili's 21st birthday LAST YEAR. OMG. my bad, our bad (me n cherine). I hope huili will love it cus i LOVE IT!!!!!

What's with so many personality tests now???

I really don't believe in personality tests. horoscopes are different, they don't compartmentalise you by every little detail they want you to answer. Honestly, you and i, we don't need personality tests to tell us who and what we are. Just ask your friends. If they're close enough to you, they'll tell you the truth. I cannot capture the logic behind a thousand people having done the exact same personality test getting the same few template outcomes. Seriously, put your hand over your heart, DO YOU BUY THAT? and guess what, to prove my point, i randomly did one that my friend tagged me just to confirm the lameness of it. I tried to answer with all honesty, every damn question but you know, not every single one applies to me, so i anyhow whack. Some are simply incredulous... like why is it that i can only find a bottle, ring or mirror at my feet?? why not trash or shit or at least something more practical???? yes, in case u still dont know, i'm ultra pragmatic. that's not to say i don't dig fantasies...i still do but not this.

at first i was like "oooooo, not bad, quite true." but as i go down the list it's just one false deduction after another. and naive people like..i dont know, some naive people....they'll start to think "oh yeah, totally me...so true.." then when they chance upon something untrue they'll probably just put them off as exceptions.... People like to seek comfort from these things i've come to realise. Isn't it pathetic to find comfort in knowing yourself through the internet? What's next? You wana get married online?? not that it's totally bad but why waste your time on them?? If you're so free, spend more time with your friends...enjoy their company, engage in crappy conversations, gossip, drink and get drunk, spend time with yourself, reflect, dream a little more when you sleep....whatever makes you happy. If you pay a little more attention in times like these, you'll see yourself clearer. even others will see you clearer through ACTUAL SOCIAL INTERACTION.....If not,

just go do the stewpid personality test lah.

Muffy got Jabbed & Rotten Banana

Firstly, this is for YY (By request)....

This is when i just permed it.

It Looks more CUI now. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

Brought Muffy the lil terror to Mt Pleasant Animal Hospital at Whitley today. Guess what, as expected, he didn't dare make a sound once we reached there. gutless boy. haha. but luckily he is gutless, if not i'll be in trouble. This is like his 3rd vaccination in 5 years...not that i don't care about his welfare ok, it's my mom who stopped me from bringing him for check-ups cus she couldnt bear to see him suffer. But after all the stories i heard of my friends' ailing dogs, i better let him suffer a bit for good. lol. At first i thought he was gonna bite the fingers off the vet but he didn't even make a fuss about it. poor boy, breaks my heart but still... WE HAVE TO JAB YOU FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. tsk tsk tsk... he'll come to thank me one day. Maybe the vet was too cutsey-looking. Back home he puked like 3 times. I wonder it's the jab or my mum's driving =X he looked so stoney i cannot help laughing, so adorable. haha. i know i'm evil but it's not often u get to see him in slow-mo considering he's hyperactive. The vet says he's gonna be in this state for a few days.....OH! and i bought a pair of rubber toothbrush for him! he has NEVER had his teeth brushed since he was born. How's that??

And eeew eeew EEEW... as i am typing now my dad just realised he had a banana in his suitcase since 3245678 years ago. The stench is so bad you won't believe it. a BANANA?!?!?! in his SUITCASE?!?!?!?! My mom and i took turns to condemn him...OMFG. the rotten-smell is still in my nose and i'm about to drink my glass of milk....with that smell.....still in MY NOSE!

EEEEEW to the MAXIMUM.

A shout-out to JM and Da Nai: Remember to do your FXE hor. DO everyday for half an hour and we can surpass Nai Zun in no time!

This week's quite eventful actually. Lotsa "exciting" stuff happened (I hope you get the pun).

I know i threatened jiayi and Fefe not to breathe an air about it but i figured i should share anyways. Top of the list for all that excitement is my car's door flinging wide open when i initiated a left turn at Penjuru. It's really FUNNY now and i may be laughing about it but i nearly got someone killed should there be a motorbike rider behind me. But the hilarious part was the way we all reacted when it happened. jiayi was like 'WWWWWAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!", pointing hysterically at my door while i did a death-defying stunt by stretching right out for it in an equally comical+hysterical manner. My sister, seated at the back laughed uncontrollably at everything.

SO, Thank God nothing happened to anyone and my car's still intact.

We drove to Orchard for our weekly Dinner cum Bonding sessions and Fefe treated us to Crystal Jade cus of her magnificent results. OH, talking about her reseults. I have to repeat this a gazillion times until i'm Shiok about my SMARTY PANTS sister....

She got a Wooping

6 As for her A'levels

And for that, we'll be able to upgrade my "little White" to a neat Mini Cooper by the end of the year. Kudos to you my sista! I'm getting a taste of all the great things in life thanks to you. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

OKay so that's monday.

On Tuesday, i skipped the darn disgusting NM3225 lecture again. OMFG, i just realised i don't even remember the module code cus it's so freakin' retarded to me. but i gotta say, the lecturer's nice, but niceness isn't quite a credible motivation for my attendance. But HOW? never go lecture how to take exam? hoho, Thank goodness i have Chow Poh Si...

(Roughly.....)

Me: So, am i an asshole if i ask to copy your notes

Posi: Yes, quite but i will still let you copy...

Posi: Because I LOVE YOU

Me: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Posi, you are so going to get a nice pressie for Xmas. =D

haha....aaawww, what is school without family like Posi... and Cherine....and Huili........... and posi and cherine and huili. LOL.

Met up with Keith, Cornelius, Penghui, Nigel, Elijah, Ah Boon and Kent for dinner before Keith leaves for Germany again on Friday. Supposed to play paintball but in the end not enough people so we eneded up eating at PS. Their conversations never fail to fascinate me. Especially with Elijah's theory of Gambling... Totally hilarious.

Wednesday: I have a confession. I think Gerald messaged me after midnight to remind me to wake him up this morning. it's either i deleted the message in my unconscious sleepy-state, or i took it as a dream. i blatantly ignored the issue...and i guess he didn't wake up for the 8am lecture. HA HA HA. See, this is why i don't prefer to switch on my phone when i sleep.

I'm gonna bring Muffy to the vet tmr for a check-up. I hope he won't freak out. LOL.

Doubting me

Recently i was told by a friend that i'm like the female-version of him. Obviously when i heard that i got really pissed, like why the hell do i have to be like anyone else?? i wana be ORIGINAL, because i am original in my own perceptions. But then again when i sit and think about what really makes me original, what is the single most striking difference that's enough to rebut his claim (besides my biological making), i couldn't think of any.

Am i really that dull, or unoriginal? i still don't think so. but i do have a revelation. yes, yet another revelation - that i don't know myself too well after all.

Sometimes i get so caught up with what i want to be and what i want to be known as that i unknowingly compromise what i really am. I pay too little attention to the little things i do when people aren't around. I'm not that nice, i'm not that smart, i'm not BOTHERED.

I say i hate facebook and it's billions of retarded applications. I can't be bothered with them and i wonder why anyone else did. well, at least they bothered. I'm just too aloof to believe that any of that application is of any use and meaning. Take the 'Notes' application for example, people write 25 notes about themselves, they might have more. I struggled with coming up with even 10 in half an hour. at the end of it, i just felt sad and sorry and really empty cus i finally realised how unoriginal i was. One, for playing along with the application. Two, for the list of unexciting information that 80% of whoever i tagged already know.

And i wana admit something - sometimes i say i don't care but i actually do. That's directed at one of the 10 things i wrote in the notes.

What is there not to care anyways if it's about me right? Let's just say i really mean it if i repeat it more than 3 times, if you get what i mean.

It's nice to be reassured once in awhile. I need it. cus i need to know why i've been missing out for so long. Tell me what i am, if you really care.

I'm really curious.

He's just not that into you

Love the movie, love the characters, totally dig the quotes:

Gigi: A girl will never forget the first boy she ever likes.

Gigi: We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you.

Beth: I just need you to stop being nice to me unless your gonna marry me.

Gigi: How stupid is it that a girl has to wait for a guy's call anyway, right?

Gigi: I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there so much but at least that means that I still care. Oh! You've think you won because women are expendable to you. You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way but you don't fall in love that way either. You have not won. You're alone. I may do a lot of stupid shit but I'm still a lot closer to love than you are.

Mary: I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies.

Alex: If a guy treats you like he doesn't give a sh*t, it's because he doesn't give a shit.

Alex: If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will.

Alex: Men don't forget how much they like you, so put down the phone.

Alex: If a guy doesn't call you, he doesn't want to call you.












Ben: A guy's a dick if he dates a girl too long and don't marry her, but then he becomes an asshole if he marries her before he's ready.

mathilda86elearning?! i feel like crying.

I think some of you don't understand why i'm being so whiney in my last sem. and LAZY. maybe i should just show you some examples of how retarded my assignments can get.

..and you wonder why i dread blogging now.

Thanks to this -

Module code: NM3204 E-LEARNING (yes, like wtf right?)

so here's my e-learning blog for your perusal IF YOU ARE STILL THE SLIGHTEST INTERESTED AFTER READING THE MODULE TITLE.

http://mathilda86elearning.wordpress.com/

Read my enthusiasm.

Entry one: I'm trying
Entry two: Trying harder
Entry three: I'm gonna survive this
Entry four: Heck it, i can't be bothered
Future entries: " " " " " "


It's just a f-ing sad monologue.

i shall show you my NM3225 assignments next time. I just can't be bothered now.

Valentine's subjective

It's special because you say so. It's so true because I say: "it's less meaningful to me then Dong Zhi". Maybe i'm sour, maybe you think i'm pathetic. But isn't it so? It's what you think and make of it what.

Heartbreak is not from me but the people around me cus i realised, there are so much drama going on, dramas that i ought to have but can also live well without.

Let's not celebrate the good, let's be practical for once:

1) Learn to let go: Letting-go is so much harder than saying goodbye. But a graceful let-go can promise so many other goodbyes between the 2 of you, because saying goodbye to a friend is so much easier than avoiding an ex-lover.

2) Routine: R stands for routine, it also means REDlight in a relationship. Routine is never the same as getting-used-to. Getting used to loving and recieving love from someone is NOT a routine. Get married or get gone.

3) Break-up not Break-Down: Of cus you're entitled to cry yourself a few rivers but never start killing yourself. There are no such thing as "i can't live without you" because you've well-lived that 18 years of life without him, or with some other hotter guys so quit deluding yourself.


Be practical.

a not so happy CNY

No my blog is not dead YET.

i'm suffering from all sorts of things the past week i tell you.

if you remember, i kept complaining about muscle aches on my back and chest. that's where all the drama began.....

from chest pain, to breathlessness to paranoia then anxiety (and the cycle repeats) and i couldn't sleep cus of the anxiety part.

I EVEN WENT FOR AN X-RAY (ironically killing more of my cells with all that radioactitivity)

and then i had indigestion..... Oh no it's not even indigestion. it's GASTRIC FLU.

so, the outcome:

i laid at home, like a sick lil puppy for FOUR DAYS, during chinese new year.


yes, i whined a lot, and i whimpered like muffy did when he was left at home. and for the most part, i retrurned whatever i had to the toilet bowl.


LUCKILY, and i do praise whoever up there who is blessing me now, that i'm FINE already. By fine i mean the gastric flu part only but lots of XOXOs to my JM dear who prayed for me. i wasn't kidding man, i really thought i had some chronic illness. Oh! did i mention i went to the clinic 3 times in 4 days??

k i'll tell you more when i have the time. Anyways, my X-ray result isn't out yet. so please continue praying, while i keep breathing.

Honestly, Nothing matters really - YOUR HEALTH DOES!!!!!

Cook Mood!

If you're wondering what i've been doing, i hope you're not too disappointed that i haven't been rotting. haha. Yes, this post is entirely purposed to AWE you. Actually, my closer friends do already know i'm quite a decent cook (right right RIGHT?!) and i have a new resolution! i shall from now on invite friends over for dinner once every month to eat what i cook!!!!!

P/S: limited to 4 guests each month cus i don't have much plates. =)

AND NOW

be

very

impressed

=)))))))))))))))



Grilled Salmon/Cod Fish with stir-fried french beans and mushrooms in red wine & caramalised onion sauce
(by ME)

Cinnamon-sugar Roll

(By Fefe & i)

(before)

(after)

yes, i figured the strange denumeration in the number of bread too. i removed them from the original pan that's why.

(before)

(after)



Cinnamon-Raisin BREAD - (By Fefe)
credits to my cousin georgia for lending us the bread machine. :D





oooo... smells great but a bit hard.

FeFe's attempt at Brownie-making..

Turned out pretty ok but i don't like Brownies.

*The End*