TREAT FOR ALL!!!!

These are especially for all you PERVs out there.....

Muffy: "so ur gonna trade green bonies for my bathroom shots? okay, it's a deal!"

"OooOoo....the water's sooooo cold!!!!"

"I'm getting ALLLLL soapy here...."

"I personally don't like this close-up shot...it makes me look retarded"

"Is it Over yet???? damn, i look like a squirrel!"

Old habits die hard. actually, it's not really old.

I know i should be studying......bleah..... so sian....... no entries, no tags..... haaaaa...

why like that?????

just finished my Soci paper at 9 today. this is the first time since my A levels that i'm waking up at 6 in the morning. i was the earliest. every other day after i finished my A's i'm never the one waking up first. i love it. OTOT [own time own target].

Wana have a taste of freedom? Try a dose of OTOT!

i realised....i'm never gonna touch soci again. i hate theories.......all theories are bloody flawed....critics will come up with new ones....and then they're flawed too....then someone heroic will criticise it, and then there's the birth of a new theory...and then the critics continue cricticzing it...and then....and then... and then..... it's a damn vicious-cycle. You know women are vicious, but guess what?? theories w/o functioning brains can be vicious too! luckily i'm not insane enough to exhaust my entire lifetime studying theories.......

One thing i know for sure.....i cannot agree more that Uni- exams are much less demanding than A levels. Study a bit also can pass.....study more even better, can score....consistency plus revision, don't skip tutorials and lectures and [if you're lucky enough to get good project mates] can Ace the module. haha...what a warped and superficial theory.

i coin this MATTY'S ULTRA SUPERFICIAL THEORY for survival in NUS. in short, it's a "MUST"

damn...i see theories flying around...........feminist, conflict, functionalist, control, symbolic interactionist...............

there's a social explanation to everything you do. Dial 1900-so-cio-lo-gy for the answer!

listened, appalled, enlightened...

can i even trust guys now??? hmmm, i really don't know. now i finally realised we can never model our love lives after some popular drama serial....reality's not even close.

You must expect the unexpected if not reality is gonna hit you hard at your face. cus people never seem to be who they are. Behind every pretty face you see, there's always an ugly scar hidden somewhere. beneathe that thick make-up, is an entire face of blemish concealed. and underneathe all the branded and seemingly glamourous clothes, god knows who you'll find.

Seriously, what is normal? Varsity life's all about smoking, clubbing, skipping lectures, making out with your new found friend and sex is it? this is as natural as pouring a glass of water to some. but it's really, really not the norm. does that mean my life will be dull and unhappenning without all that crap? no what.....

i find consolation to the fact that i'm not guilty of any of the above. okay, maybe the skipping lectures part. i don't have to strive to be simple. i am simple. people say i look like i always club but the truth is, i hate it. that's why you can never judge someone from their appearance.

not to say that people who indulge in those activities are evil or sinful.... they have different values in life, so whatever....

maybe cus i watch a lot of tv and dramas...that's why i tend to idealize the way my life should be like according to what i see.... but the more i know these days the more my ideals get crushed. and now all the more i'll put myself on guard. in the first place, i was never really generous in letting guys in.

i should really come back down to earth.

ha.hahaha....

what kind of a ***** calls people a ***** and names him/herself sweet ? seriously......

i almost died laughing reading it. oh well....for once, i thought people i don't know actually reads my blog. YAY. *rolls eyes* too bad i only have one pair of eyes if not i'll keep rolling them till they fall off the sockets.

anyway.... we can't stop people from tagging us cus the tagboard's precisely there for that reason. we also can't help the fact that those people can be assholes who apparently thinks that they're some kind of virtuous blog moderators who goes around calling people a ***** for saying stuff they don't like to hear....using degratory language. how righteous. if you realise, i didn't say the country's bad, or i hate it.....

flood my tagboard with all ur stewpid ***************** for all i care..... i don't really give a shit. but i do hope you find better stuff to do. =)

okay....haha. thanks for giving me inspiration to blog on something worthwhile though, whoever you are..... lol.

To Manga junkies out there....go watch 'Hana Yori Dango' [ japanese version of meteor Garden] on youtube. it's more straight to the point, not draggy and has better looking characters in there. and the best thing is. got english subtitles!!! quite worth watching...only 9 episodes though. each episode has 5 parts and the last one has 7.

Cheers!

WArning

NOW is really not a very good time to irritate me.

NOW will constitute days like TODAY, right this moment you're reading this, and the rest of the week to come.

Biologists coin this PMS. Heck it, to me it's no different from a 'DND' written on my face.

SO,

1) Do not impose yourself upon me and tell me things i don't like to hear.

2) If you have nothing nice to say, DON'T.

3) This is not the time to criticize me or my opinions alike.

4) Pardon me for my bluntness.

This is by no means a childish manifestation of my attitude, but rather my very polite version of an appeal to potential irritants.

Potential irritants can mean even a passing ant. See, the thing is, even ants are not half as irritating as humans. it's ironically those with proper-working brains that are asses.

I'm living on pain killers... the doc says it's Tension Headache. oh okay, i see....but wtf does that mean.

Goodbye Mr pain-in-the-a** tuition kid!
The one thing i've taken away with me [besides the pay] is the realisation that you can never get too comfortable with your student cus they'll eventually climb over your head like a MONKEY. not literally of cus. i'm sorry to say but his mom is paying me PEANUTS and she still wants to bargain. So you're not rich, SO AM I! and i'm not exactly interested in doing charity. even if i am, i wouldn't choose YOUR kid. bleah.

Daddy's flying off to India today...Goodbye, we'll miss him. but why doesn't he wana bring the two cup noodles i bought for him?!?!? ungrateful. very unglam meh? i'd reckon eating curry at an street stall unglam, and ultra unhygenic. C'mon daddy, pack up your ego, AND the cup noodles...i'm only saying this for your own good.

Jolyn's gonna post abstracts of her AS essay in her blog soon. 1st, read the Qn. 2nd, read that paragraph. 3rd, you'll feel your eyebrows twitching. 4th, you'll break into uncontrollable laughter. if you don't find it funny, fret not. this requires some extent of intellectual humour. So, if you don't laugh, it just means you have low EQ.

COld war is B-O-R-I-N-G. if i stayed for the entire lecture, i might DIE. so Jolyn and i left dring break. Pathetic. i have nothing against you and your deliverance, Dr Quek, Cold war simply puts me to sleep.

JUST my personal opinion. i think Xiaxue is really a cool blogger. you should read her blog and then your own. i know we all have our own styles but you gotta applaud professional bloggers like her. really impressive, and entertaining.

yet another boring post right. in case you all still don't get my tone, i'm kinda moodless and irritable. it's a good thing s'pore bans pte ownership of weapons. if not i'm so damn sure ppl will attempt to gun me down. the thing is, i've read many blogs. and i'm darn sure i won't be the first to die.

Meet XIAO HEI!!!

HI ALL!!! meet my new lappy XIAO HEI!!!! lol it's the coolest, sleekest, classiest and most effecient laptop you'll ever see[assuming all other laptops do not exist.] hahahhahahaaa....

Please bear with me okay, as you know, there are very lil things for me to hao lian or even blog about these days.....i can feel myself tearing at the corner of my eye from reading my previous posts.....they're pathetically BORING. lol. hard to find interesting stuff to blog when you're living a seemingly DULL life [for now since exams are coming ].


i like its shiny black surface! there're silver wavelines on the
entire black surface if you see carefully


















nice!!!! n it's MINE!

heh heh..not bad right... it's the new HP entertainment notebook. the reason i love it so much is cus its exclusively MINE!!! absolutely no sharing. there's a point for this ok...in case anything goes wrong at least i know it's my own problem....so i won't have to blame anyone. i'm cultivating responsibility okay....lol.

AND you must be wondering my daddy must love and pamper me soooo much he keeps showering me with extravagence...NO!!!! you're so wrong!!! reason being i spoilt my sis' chic-and-very-expensive-BenQ-limited-edition laptop. oops....i honestly felt bad [mainly because my JS essay was saved inside and there's no back up]. buthen i cannot possibly admit that i dropped the laptop in the toilet [which did happen]....but it was with the cover so i didn't think it would matter. but guess what..something DID happen and it's on repair now....poorthing. my family must have guessed it lah...they know all my 'patterns' already so they probably knew i was denying. so they keep reminding me what a lousy and careless person i am. lol. my sis was worst lor. she kpkb-ed all the way like she never crash her laptop before. accidents do happen you know....that's why i'm going to implement the 'no-sharing' rule. hmph.

so daddy bought this and in case anything happens, i'll have to be responsible...hohoho...sounds like a good deal to me. anyways, i'll probably need one for school. thanks to nus' VERY EFFECIENT online learning environment that makes it almost a neccessity to go online EVERYDAY. sian. "i totally love to download my own lecture slides on the IVLE everyday to print and not worry about paper jam and wasting my ink and papers."

my foot.

and it must be KARMA...like cherine Lau always says....she can go on about KARMA all day. cus i spoilt fefe's lappy tt's why i have to rewrite the damn essay. and that kuku headache must be part of the KARMA too. dammit!!! one week already still pain. sian bo.......

the bottom line is....i have a cool new lappy!!!

Sis' Not Home....

HA HA HA. Felicia lau Wan Lin's not home....WHY?? oh, cus she's having fun at a chalet.....hoho.
bet she's gonna miss her bed. talking about her bed. it's totally disgusting.

FYI, she forbids me to post her pictures in the blog, friendster...practically wherever she thinks will threaten the circulation of her photos. well i won't blame her since she's undergoing this ultra image conscious period where she's so convinced that everything looks ugly on her. okay, if she says so....

She's the most messy and unhygenic person i've ever known [in my family]. though i'm not exactly very clean, but at least i attaempt to make myself seem so. lemme show you an example of her gross-bed. and for goodness' sake. BEDS ARE SUPPOSED TO LOOK COSY AND CLEAN AND NEEDLESS TO SAY IT HAS TO SMELL GOOD.

A Fine example of what a bed should look like. JUST LOOK AT HER'S!!!!





















Still got more gross one.... can u see the piece of used tissue paper in her bed??? eeeewww!!!! i wonder if it's mucus or booger....

jUST look at her 'bao bao'.
urh.....horrible right. just let u in on a lil secret. she ever slept with muffy's shit stains in her bed before. she's just to lazy to be bothered and her bed's not too different from a toilet bowl anyways. LOL!

I'm such a nice sister...i dedicated this entire entry to her. she must be so touched...i'm gonna prepare tt used piece of tissue for her to wipe her tears. wahahahahaaaa.....

Pain Like Hell!!!!!!!!!!!

I so want to drill a hole in my head can?!?!??? the kuku headache is killing me!!!!!
and HAO TONG BU TONG ZAI WO write essay tt time TONG!!!!!

Whoever u are, STOP WACKING my HEAD!!! it's drving me crazy man!!!!!!!!!!! *growls*

Bloody Hell....can you even imagine trying to write a history essay and tt asshole headache keeps cutting off your thoughts?!??! then u need to re think, and re write, and re edit a zillion times?! WTF. if this goes on i can might as well knock the daylight outta myself. POS.....

Anyways, my dad was telling us he heard someone kicking at our gate the other night. what, AGAIN?!?!?!?!? This is not really a good time to piss me off, neighbour. and he better stop it while i'm still politely calling him my neighbour. if i ever catch him doing that again i'll confirm break his bloody leg!!!! so what now? he's so poor he cannot afford medication anymore??!?!? did my maid tried to seduce him? WTF. i hope his leg get trapped in the gate the next time he kicks it and helpful me will be MORE THAN GLAD to relief him from entrapment. i'll make sure i chop off his damn leg and tie a ribbon around it to return him!!!!

Let's just see who's more insane. dammit.

people around me in school are like damn stressed out. only me and yy seem to be cruising like we're on a holiday...is it a bad thing? partially i guess. some are totally, extremely, absolutely stressing over everything! and it's contagious man!!! i'm trying hard not to be affected. and thankfully i'm sane... though i'm not exactly coping well but no use complaining now already..... it's just sem 1, we need time to adjust. whatever.

K, back to tt sucker who has this thing about kicking our gate. not that i wana say but he's really a nuisance to society and is potentially endangering the lives of other people, especially us. Either we strike it big in 4D or TOTO and shift the bloody-hell outta here, or he can please do us all a favour by smuggling drugs and be caught and hanged soon.....i'm sorry.....i'm being a tat too mean but I WON'T be if you perish from the face of the earth.

Do us all a fovour man, Die DIe DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bacardi is alcohol....right?

haha. im not an alcoholic, don't get me wrong. i was just curious about my limits. and no, i didn't down it sitting at a bar or some cool club....i was in my own kitchen. i chanced upon this big bottle of Bacardi and it reads "40% alcohol". WAH! cool man....so i took out a small glass and poured half full of bacardi inside. then i added 2 ice....and then i tried a sip...it burns ur throat man! but i can't possibly waste it so i was darn determined to finish the whole thing. smart me, i added a bit of 7up and drank it all in one shot.

they always say you'll become drunk faster if you drink quickly but i think i'm just good at it. haha. i'm not drunk and i can still walk straight...just that i feel damn sleepy. oh well, it's inherited from my dad maybe. i told him i drank a small glass of his Bacardi and he was like "wwwHHATT?!?!!?" haha... alcohol doesn't seem to have an effect on me apparently. and it tastes bad. lol. my dad says Bacardi's suppose to go with coke. oh heck it, if i could i'd just drink it without anything. i'll be really ineterested to know what i'll be like when i'm drunk.

Btw, does anyone of you know who Emmet Till is? or rather, who he was? his story will make your heart sink so deep you'll wana cry. it really makes me wonder why the world is so cruel to some and why must innocent people be made an example before a society is willing to make a change. Racial conflict is a horrible, horrible thing. it's hard to imagine how a superpower like the US had so much underlying bad-blood and unglamorous past which constituted to what it has become today. 'learn from mistakes', but inevitably, innocent souls will be lost along the way.
http://images.google.com.sg/imgres?imgurl=http://www.newenglandfilm.com/news/archives/05january/images/big-emmet.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.newenglandfilm.com/news/archives/05january/beauchamp.htm&h=327&w=586&sz=77&tbnid=muAVrFMzkrVNyM:&tbnh=75&tbnw=135&prev=/images%3Fq%3Demmet%2Btill&start=2&sa=X&oi=images&ct=image&cd=2

Ultra cool blogskin, Jiayi.

Makes me wonder why mine looks so shitty...

Headaches are coming back...literally. there's a reason for this. i remember a certain evening when i was still schooling in MI, i was on my way home from volley training...then i got striked on the back of my head on the bus by a secondary school girl's elbow, ACCIDENTALLY. then the headache started 2 days after.... the pain is like someone striking on your head. it's just like a visit from an old friend which i don't particularly like.

Guess what man, my lappy's dead. the hard disk got corrupted....and the best part was my JS essay project is inside...luckily i was mentally prepared for the worst. the typical me will start crushing papers and kicking chairs.....

my dad says i have a bad temper: i agree. my mum says i'm acutely impatient: very true. my sister thinks i'm a tyrant: to a large extent, yes. my cousin thinks i'm bossy: nothing new.
it pretty much concludes the fact that i'm an ass at home..........so the real me is like that.

this is my most horribible flaw...which you will never see.

At Long Bloody LAST!

heh heh... finally we're wrapping up our New Media Project!!!

so the final meeting's at the library's media room...and as usual, we made a lot of noise. well, it's not suprising with me and yy around. lol! Apple-Girls are happening, what to do?? lol.

we're currently recruiting new members. Irene's our target! cus she's super comical...always don't know what's going on and stuff... her expressions are classic man! haha. but she's really sweet.

Anyways, so cus we were making lotsa noise then this disgusting guy made a big fuss abt it. oh well, other people are also laughing out loudly while watching their videos what. totally don't know what's on his mind. and to think that he's using headphones.

my lappy died on me.....WHY?! WHY why WHY Why?! hai~ it's just simply sucky. so sucky that it's hard to comprehend. but thanks to apple girl no. 1, i managed to control my frustrations. haha...and while the rest were editing the project, we made ourselves useful by not interupting.... instead we entertained ourselves with my handphone. lol!!!

Apple-girl no.1 : Ong yee Yuan Apple girl no. 2: Mat Lau

wahahahhaaaa...totally "ai YEn" [as in Love to act]. lol.

interested individuals please make sure you fulfill the following requirements:

1) you love to eat applechips

2) you love to make lotsa noise

3) you are ultra-gifted in facial expressions [espacially ugly ones]

4) you watch 'yu le bai fen bai'

5) you still eat a lot on diet

6) you must be as animated as possible

7) you're not a boring person

....well, more regulations will be published after our closed-door meeting.

Do you feel cold???? cus i'm freezing after typing all that.

totally 'leng'.

This is really the LAST TIME.

Okay, i'm never gonna do it again. this is the very last chance i'm giving myself.

what did i do? hmmm....i'll tell you all when i see the outcome.

now all i can do is hope, pray and wish for it to happen. i really need an answer to this if not i'll never ever be able to sleep peacefully. and hopefully, it'll just put a stop to everything. whatever happens, i'm gonna stay positive. i still have my life to live.....oh wells....

wish me all the best everyone!!!! i desperately need it!!!

'Por Por's' Birthday Chalet!!!!

yeah! it's our family's once a yr chalet cum gathering cum the celebration of my granny's birthday!!! guess what? she's already like 85? lol....and she's still so healthy and cheery...

oh well, that's cus she has lotsa of kids and grankids and grand-grand kids to take good care of her.

the chalet was damn fun..apart from the glorious variety of food, my cousins were damn funny lah.... especially when the play mah jong! and i just watched them play from 12 to 6 in the morning....yes, i was just watching. i can see their eyes red yet they still refuse to leave their seats. lol finally around 6am i cannot take it anymore so i slept on the sofa. and despite the two-story huge aloha resort chalet i didn't have any place to sleep cus of my m'sian cousins who came...so desperate that i ended up sleeping of a sofa in between two mah jong tables....and they were still playing merrily away....

i only got some peaceful sleep at 8 in the morning when some of my relatives woke up to let us get some sleep in the room. so me, my mom and my other cousin was sleeping on 2 mattresses on the ground and my just married cousin slept on the bed with her husband.......just when i thought i could find peace in the room...i felt so sorry for merely thinking about it man. my cousin's husband snored like mad the moment his head touched the pillow lor. wah lau eh!!!!! and yet my cousin can continue sleeping like a dead log..... i really salute her. can u imagine she's gonna sleep with him for the rest of her life??!! and his snoring have different tones and variations. very zai.it came to a point that i had to hypnotise myself to get sleep. in the end, i slept for only 3 hrs.......this is definitely the down-side of chalets........

i love bacon! i love pork chop!

i really hate myself sometimes....

Do you ever feel like you've actually said something you didn't want to until it's already been said??? it seems to be happening to me more often these days. it's totally frustrating.
they occur in all forms and situations.................and after saying it you feel like slapping yourself.

then sometimes you become over dramatic over small things. you make a fool outta yourself but when all's said and done, you feel stupid and lame. because you know it's not you...because you know you're taking after someone you've seen on tv or the person you always hangout with. your instincts tell you to do some soul-searching but what if no matter how hard you try you can't find it?

if there is anyone with an ambiguous character, i have to be one of them. sometimes i want myself to be funny, sometimes i crave to be different...but most of the time i just wana know who i really am.

My Fridays are like Mondays....

think it's the other way round...cus Mondays for me are always light and easy...i just need to go through everything in 45mins. haha. Fridays are a dread. how ironic right? i have tutorial at 10 in the morning then a 5 hr interval till my American Studies lecture at 4. plain Sian. Sian like hell... SIan like there's no tomorrow...all my fault cus never choose my modules properly....

guess what? i'm now using Jolyn's lappy to blog while she's happily feasting at the deck with our AS friends....don't feel like joining cus i think we got 'dai gou' or age gap if u wana know... haha. not that they're much older than me but i feel that i can't really relate to their topics. so now i'm sitting in the multimedia room together with a dozen of other people who're mostly watching movies....the only good thing about this is we MIND our OWN BUSINESSES...lol.

Jiayi and Janice are busy mugging....GOOD GOOD!!! so i shan't disturb them. jiayou my friends!!!

JS project meeting just now didn't take long....[at this point, i'm pausing for quite a few secs to listen to this lousy rendition of 'high high high' by kelly phoon and Shi Xing Huey.....] rather, i'm quite horrified by it.....it sounds damn random...damn weird....cus Xin Huey's voice was clearly better than Kelly's..yet they sounded like they're in a KTV...think this is from the concert they had....oh well...this is not my lappy...so the songs are kinda funny to me...a bit ancient...but amongst those novel ones i manage to sieve out some good ol' tunes which used to play over and over again on my discman...like Jay's 'Kai Bu Liao Kou' and Utada Hikaru's 'First Love'.... classics man.

Oh and she has Kiss Goodbye too....woooo.....love it. oh talking about AS....remember the shit test i took the other time? we finally got it back at tutorial today. i thought i was gonna be super screwed for not studying enough and not having a single idea what i was writing then...but it seems the lecturer either likes me or is super lenient. according to Jolyn, who got a B-[after whining like hell with me after the test], she's not lenient. okay, so i thought maybe she just simply likes us then...i got a C. i really honestly felt i was going to FAIL. BTW, the lecturer really know our names man...as in the 2 of us.... she can practically take our attendence without raising her head to check....and when she asked us to collect our papers, mine was on top so she keep saying 'this is mathilda's, pass to her..' and my poor paper was passed from one to another and so forth......lucky the grade wasn't on the cover....it's not that she has good memory but she remembers people selectively...she even knows if we change tutorial classes......maybe we're both short and cute that's why she remembers us so well........ haha......

Thanks uncle, but i'm not pregnant.

....this is exactly what i wanted to tell this nice uncle who offered me a seat on the train. just when you thought all kind hearted considerate souls are dead, there's still a handful of pleasant people around.

but the problem is this:

1) I'M NOT PREGNANT AND I CERTAINLY DON'T LOOK LIKE IT (i was wearing this sleeveless top which is kinda tight, shorts and my tummy was FLAT.)

2) I'M NOT OLD AND I DON'T LOOK SICKLY.

3) I HAVEN'T BROKE ANY BONES ON MY BODY. (and even if i did, it's not like anyone can figure out)


i can only think that the uncle is being gentlemenly...for offering me a seat. of cus i didn't take it considering i'm alighting the next stop. so i just smiled slightly at him and refused.

of cus there're probably tonnes of inconsiderate people around not only in trains but in buses and other public places as well.....you can only thank god that you're not one of them. posting pictures online isn't very heroic either. if it really bothers you so much or maybe your instincts are really crying out loud for you to do the right thing, why don't you call the police or tell the people off right away? i'm sure all of us did commit in inconsiderate behaviour consciously or subconsciously but it's not so severe as to be humiliated for it right? maybe they'll feel a great sense of achievement for doing it or maybe they thought they've done society a huge favour but if you look at it in a different way, the method is a bit unethical.

i've also dissed people whom i think are horrible but now when i think back, i should just feel lucky that i don't behave like them. thank god i have a good mind, my parents teach me well. though i can't gaurantee that i won't be irritated by these people again, at least i won't go into drastic methods like naming people, posting their pictures or use degratory terms on them. seriously, how much can a picture tell? in case you all are wondering, i'm refering to the new paper headlines today. my dad always tell me that manners are taught, no one's born with it. so what if people are born innocent? innocence is a form of ignorance and ignorance causes inconvenience to others. that's why you can only feel sorry for them........

Sleepy but can't sleep. Tired but must still work.

i'm like so sleepy now... i've not been getting good rest since the start of that damn soci mid term examination. after all the late nights and hair-loss i still turned in a lousy paper [in my opinion] let's just see the results.

i've been religiously watching 'Yu Le Bai Fen Bai' which surprises me considering i've never really stick to doing something for very long yet i make it such an important ritual now. this is also why i lack sleep cus i always stay up late at night to watch the repeat. it's dumb but at least it gives me excuse to study a bit while waiting.

i've still got to go for New Media project meeting later!!!! lucky it's at khatib if not i'd just kill myself. MORE work's piling up yet there're so many projects to rush.

Glyn msged and asked me abt going to Rain's concert. i vowed to go before i knew how insanely inflated the ticket prices were. NOW, i really don't know.....like not worth it leh. $188 can me a really good seat at David Tao's concert but Rain will be as good as a tiny spec of dust since tt's the lowest ticket price. should i just save for my Taiwan trip next yr or spend it on this once in a lifetime concert?? hmmmm.....tt's something for me to consider when i feel more awake....

for now, i wana get some sleep. at least a quick nap b4 i go for the meeting.

the quote for the day [and for many days to come]: I HATE PROJECTS!

I see troubles coming....

Why the sudden surge of enthusiasm in blogging? well, as you can see, i changed my blogskin and i'm more than satisfied with it. it just pleases me silly each time i see it...heh heh.... i had to change the skin again and again thanks to some 'Valued-critic' of mine...for now, this will be it!

JIAYI LIM ur tag is BORING ok B-O-R-I-N-G!!!! as in it makes me wana ZzZzZzZz....
please be more creative....you can do better. other than that, make sure u keep ur promise. ;)

OKAY, the troubles.... i have so much unfinished projects at hand which i need to rush. it probably didn't occur to me that i'm still blissfully enjoying myself slipping in and out of school like i'm so FREE and this HAS to change. of cus i've started muggin but at a creeping rate. Soci mid term test starts tmr and i hope i can at least squeeze something credible outta the 3 days i have to complete it. i dread essays! anyway, that's not all, American Studies also has essay assignments......damn........ who says Uni's easier???? i can see this rising tide coming from far and it's pretty soon gonna consume the whole of me....maybe at least my head....

Now i wana whine about something which happened today. my 1st day back in school after recovery. so excited, so looking forward to CT tutorial cus of the discussion topic "erotic fiction in historical China" yy and i thought this one sure, confirm plus CHOP won't bore us to death this time...so we met early in the morning and reached school by 10. normally we'll be late, at least we won't wana be caught dead for being the earliest. but guess what huh? it's simply 'marvelous' . no ones in class and the lights were off...... ok lor. so stupid. didn't know this week have no tutorial.....shit man. wasted. high-spirits totally dampened. our only source of consolation is that the topic will be discussed on the next tutorial. btw, we're not perverts. it just explains how dry the module is....lol. so we had to eat breakfast at the deck.....and there's nothing i can eat cus of my huge ulcer.....sucks!

Japanese Studies was kinda lame today. film appreciation and sadly, both were cartoons. very 'duh' lor. one is like cutsey cutsey kind the other super violent. gosh. and we had to watch the 2nd one in the library after soci tutorial. i didn't understand that film AT ALL. one moment i see a gang ripping off the shirt of a girl the other moment some weird looking kid-mutants are blasting each other into pieces...what's on their minds man. and someone's feet stinks lor........ what's worst, i already don't quite get the film and this 'Ang moh' lecturer barged in and asked us to stop watching cus it's already 6 [his turn to use the theatrette]. wah lau eh.... it's just like another 10 mins more also cannot wait?! what's his problem?!?!?!?!??!?!?!!!

whatever lah, the point is, i have to start managing my time wisely. it's WISELY, not properly, considering my current so-called proper time-management is a disaster. tmr have to skip abit of AS lecture for ARTsClub Marketing meeting. so excited..... wonder what kinda people i'll meet.

DOWN WITH FEVER

The good thing was, i did managed to pull-through the entire ROM procedure and the high tea....bad thing was, duh....i felt miserable as soon as i got home...

Something funny happened at the ROM though, my cousin and my in law had to attend to some admin stuff in the building so we had to wait outside for awhile and she asked me to hold her bouquet of flowers for her. so i was sitting next to my aunty and she next to my mom then my uncle then my 'biao ge' as in my male cousin who's 3 yrs older than me. people who walked past kept starring at me and i wondered why. then i noticed only the brides were holding the bouquets so i asked my aunty if the people will think that i'm a bride. my goodness...they started laughing and joking about it and even suggested that people may think that me and my 'biao ge' were going to get married but we're sitting far away from each other cus we just had a fight. bleah....... bad joke. it's damn embarrassing so i quickly pushed it to my aunty.

After the whole event ended my family: dad, mom, me and kelly [my biao jie] drove to Vivo City.......my dad has been bugging us for the past few days about bringing us there cus he wanted to show-off the creations of he and my uncle's company. apparently the ribbon structures in the shopping centre and the huge "Vivo City" sign outside the building was constructed by their company. i wasn't much impressed until we reached the place. then i finally understood why he was so proud of it. the structures were pretty amazing. we didn't shop but merely toured the place with my dad navigating us around [like as if he owned the place] haha, but i can understand since he spends most of the time in that place. the outdoors was damn cool and we actually felt like we're in Sydney or something....but, it's only halfway complete and the shopping Centre will only officially open in Dec.

I figured something sadistic too....that if i'm sick or if i had fever, i'll get lotsa attention and care...haha...suddenly i felt so loved by my family and muffy. Like if i whine a bit and ask for water, it'll just come to me. haha. muffy stuck with me all day today like as if he knew he had to look after me. what a good boy. i didn't have to go to school today obviously....thanks to the haze. it's weird man, i used to have to worry about getting an MC for skipping school but not anymore. the doc asked if i needed an MC and i was like "umm.....no need lah". this will never happen in my sch-Uniform days.

Right this moment, i'm doing a lot of things all at once. i'm wrapping up my soci essay [due tomorrow], listening to a lecture Webcast [on gender and sexuality], downloading season 4 of One tree Hill [on youtube], eating my minced pork porrige, chatting on Msn and blogging. tell me about the wonders of multi-tasking. Now you see why older generations can never understand us? cus they can't keep up with what we're so used to. ;)

Mathilda, the auto-flush girl....

the part about the auto-flush is in the last para:

the Haze is getting the better of me. think i'm falling sick cus my throat has been like damn painful the past few days. somemore i don't usually get ulcers, the fact that i'm having one in my mouth n0w only reiterates my point.

i wasn't supposed [as in i didn't plan] to wake up that early today cus i'm skipping lecture and tutorial for my cousin's ROM. but i was feeling damn uneasy man. my throat got worse and i have a slight fever. bad weather bad health. yet there's nothing anyone can do to stop the haze except to pay their medical bills.

k that's not so interesting. whatever, i haven't been an interesting blogger anyways. bleah. but i find this damn funny lah... me and yy have this CT groupmate who's kinda queer. he tells us he's a very complicated person. so we were at Spinelli in our school....OH! yy is so dumb! haha...she saw this Spinelli poster at the deck which says $2.10 per cup of Original Spin and got so excited so we decided to go there for our project meeting since we have free shuttle to the University Hall. i didn't really pay attn to the poster but apparently it looked kinda out-dated to my other friend. so we went to order the Spins but they were all 3plus [though still cheaper than the outlets outside school]....we gave a 'sianz' look. so much for being cheapos...haha.

Our project groupmate got lost and ended up quite late. actually i'm partly to blame cus as you know, my sense of direction is warped so i told him it's opp the tennis courts. too bad, it's actually opp the tracks. oops! we started the discussion and we kinda drifted cus we asked him about his family and stuff... and it came to the part where he told us he's a very complicated person and we were like 'ooooooo...' but how?! ' like u've been to jail before?' and he was like 'almost' my god! me and yy stared at each other for awhile but quickly laughed it off. then he also told us he worked at construction sites before with the bangladeshi workers and he always disppear without telling anyone where he goes. die, what if he disappears with our project? lol. that won't happen, but it's quite obvious he's a smart guys. lol. he got like A- for his Soci tutorial...impressive huh....

the part where he suggested our creation of an online-genealogy should be called 'Gene-ster' made us stare at each other AGAIN before breaking into uncontrallable laughter. it's damn lame can. then yy said something like 'hao xia orh..' as in lame in Taiwanese lingo. he was actually serious about it.

after that yy and i went for our New Media tutorial. i think the tutor realised i've been quite inactive during class participation so she picked me to ans one. the thing is i wasn't really prepared so i have to think of something in school which has a bad interface, impromtu. i totally ran outta ideas so i suggested something which is super CMI. i told the class that the auto-flush systems in our school are redundant and it scares the users cus it flushes on it's own even before you finish using it. so if there's a manual button to flush, why fix an auto one? you mean people at our age still forgets to flush after use? i don't know if the tutor acknowleged my point but after saying it i felt pairs of eyes staring we down in a 'what were you thinking' manner. that's when i realised how shitty my example was. even my groupmates shook their heads and hid the faces. they'll forever see me as the 'auto-flush' girl and joke about me over meals......bleah. what a GREAT way to make people remember me.

it's so fun to have them around!!!!! collin, glyn and jacky are probably the best people you'll ever have around to sing with! but sadly, jacky's not in the picture....people have chalet ok..................
Nevermind, we had tonnes of fun anyways... we were role playing, acting like we're having some kinda concert and starring in some mtv... they're all recorded in my phone. i don't know how to attach them here so i can't show u all... lol. they were super duper corny! collin suggested uploading them in U-tube but well.. i dont wana be famous for the wrong reasons leh. haha.

and YES, photo whoring is like glyn and i's favourite pastime now man! looking retarded is no problem for her since she's naturally a good-looker. of cus i'll play along lah, but when i see my pics uploaded in the com, i really wana cry. what's worst when u're already not looking good and u still try so hard to look spastic? haha. but it's the fun that matters!! i figured since we're both single and have so much time to spare [when it seems like the whole damn world is attached], we'd get to spend more time together and have fun like singing, watching movies, bowling, pooling, swimming, beaching and BITCHING, blah blah blah. i know it's sweet hanging out with ur better halves but girlfriends are like indispensable in your life too? that's just what i think. at the end of the day, not all relationships [much as i'd beg to differ] lasts, but friendship does. it's bad to fallout with your bfs but it's worst to fallout with your friends.

i've lost that ability and interest to chat with my friends over the phone since don't know when. but if they're really down and out or need some entertainment, i'll gladly oblige! really! i still believe that many strong relationships are forged via the telephone. it's old school YES. it's time-consuming YES. but the purpose is always there...spend some quality time to catch up with someone with no distractions what so ever. it's good to meet up too but very often when u're out, u'll be too engrossed with ur surroundings etc. when was the last time u wanted to tell ur friend something and then the sight of this hot dress stole u away? see........

of cus, the wonders of technology always win over such a necessity. why should i waste my time calling my friend when i can just msg her an sms? i bet we're all excellent expression-interpretors of sms-es by now... like u can tell if the person's tone is happy, sad or angry. but it never kills to ring them up once in awhile to say hi right?

i just feel that as we age, the amount of workload and commitment increases.....less time for family, less time for friends. while we're still schooling at the moment, isn't it wise to spare time for each other. can u imagine when we're 30, and slogging our lives away for food sand shelter, do u even think we'll have the time to meet up and hang out? well if u're lucky, u marry a rich husband, maybe u'll have all that time in the world. but i'll not be that lucky.

That funny, awkward feeling

what kind of a guy makes me dream of him so often that it frustrates me?

the better the dream the worst i'll feel when i wake up. it's just plain irritating.
sometimes i feel like i'm running in circles.... after running for so long, i'll still return to the same ol' starting point. and it frustrates me when i know that he's always there.

bumping into someone responsible for my awkward past didn't help at all. she's like digging on my old wound. to think that we're not even friends now angers me more than ever. why did i even listen to her? my alter ego reminds me that i should blame myself. but what if the only means of consolation for me is to push it to others?

after all, no one likes to admit their mistakes. that i can say, i'm truly ironic. in hope of gaining acceptance and acknowledgement, i'll go around telling people it was my fault. to make people feel that i'm responsible enough to admit my mistakes and discredits. BUT, i can never say it to him myself. what matters anyway? it's already been so many years and he probably forgot all about it. maybe it's just me talking all these while. maybe. i think i'm thinking too much.

here's the deal, the answer to all my incessant speculations can be as easy as a phonecall or a message away. i can only wish that i've had greater courage. for now, i'll just continue to be haunted by those dreams. at least i can be happy in them.

what aunty?!

What Aunty?!

mirror mirror on the wall...please tell me i don't look old. please give me at least a single ray of hope and affirmation that i don't look like i've had 2 kids.......

which idiot with the right frame of mind would call me an aunty?! as in, genuinely feels that i look like one. my sister's friend did!!!! sucker....i feel freaking insulted can!!!
Mr NJC cum IP student cum potential scholar can't even tell apart a young lady from a 40 yr old aunty?! i'm not saying my mom look old lah but hello???? are his eyeballs diconnected from their circuits or something???? what's on his mind huh?????

what's wrong with dressing down and comfortable at home?! do i really look that auntified?!
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PISS OFF!







i'm so fed-up.







and i have tests next week...........AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

busy busy busy

a LONG LONG post!

it's been a busy week. i don't think anyone wana hear me rant and whine about it. what else man??? it's just sch.... no one's interested in me and my dull life i presume. lol. anyways, i feel weird for not blogging. it seems like a long over-due assignment of some sort which i kept postponing....bleah~~~

shall talk more abt interesting stuff now cus i realised tt i'm driving away readers with my boring to the bones kinda content.

ok, lemme see, let's start with the dinner with coach last week. it was damn damn damn fun lah....took lotsa pics which i still didnt have time to upload [ and u were wondering why i have the time to blog this] lol. lazy lah... but we had a good time trying to embarrass him in New York New York. wahahhaaaa... i'll really miss such gatherings man! lotsa laughter and dinner for free....

before that glyn n i went Holland V to visit Jolyn's flee market stall... those ppl must have thot we were mad for dressing up to go there....the scorching heat nearly killed us man. they were selling nice stuff but the heat really got the better of us so we HAD to run... n guess what, we wore heels... mine wasn't as high as glyn's 2 n a 1/2 inch. in fact it was puny compared to her's. damn funny.... we ended up paying for a new pair of novo flops each. they were so comfy tt we shopped around MS for hours...haha....

that was last week...this week was a busy week, like what i said earlier.... lol. think i can only blog once a week from now...boo...
just this evening, i was feasting, yes FEASTING at long beach in Eastcoast. my relative's treat of course.....the seafood was super duper 'zai' haha!!! i ate fresh jodak n lobster....FRESH ok. like sashimi.... OoOoOo....marvelous.

and i realised how 'out' i am...both my cousins [who r 18 btw], have boyfriends......aaahhhh....how i miss that feeling.... hmph. i can only watch. lol. not that i crave for one... it just makes me wonder, what's wrong with me???

the best thing was, there's this reknown fortune teller in our sch last week and he happend to briefly read my palm. his really 'zhun' as in accurate... he said something like i'm a very imaptient and short tempered person and i'm prone to seperation in relationships. which means if i don't like tt person anymore i'll just leave him....it's so scary cus it's kinda true.......

of cus, tt's something i'll never wana let my future bf know.... haha.

such a loser

i admit it. i'm such a loser. i dropped my Govt and politics module....

after much consideration, i've finally reached this conclusion. haha. this is somewhat an altruistic and selfish excuse for my loser-behaviour lah...[ my dad will flip if he knows i flunk a module abt the s'pore govt cus he's so pro govt...] so, to prevent this from happening, i figured if i really don't like it, i better stop early before i have to cry myself to sleep everynight for not understanding the lecture. it's damn damn dry man...

so much for being a tat too ambitious, and i just thought if i haven't realise my potential yet, i better not risk it...haha. so call me a loser. bleah~

i don't know is it just me or are the pre assignment blues getting the better of me...i was telling glynis over dinner last night that my pimples popped away the moment i heard my soci lecturer mention the word 'assignments'. i haven't been writing constructively for quite sometime, not considering blogging since they're better known as crapping. and i'm darn sure that my writing ability has gone down the drain...damn! grammatically sound is no longer sufficient if i have a serious lack in content when it comes to academic writing...eeeks. which means i've got lotsa reading to do....i can never emphasize this enough: i hate reading.....

i really hate reading...... i SERIOUSLY hate reading.....

my entries are becoming more and more boring leh.................................

my first week in NUS

Back to a DIFFERENT school....

today's a day off for me!! yay~ i know many of my friends try damn hard to make their fridays free but some of their timetables just clash...so too bad. mine wasn't deliberate though. haha. i was just lucky!

i know i shouldn't slack so i'm staying at home to do all my readings today! at least i'll try lah... haha.

the first week's OK for me besides the shitty fact tt i had to attend 2 lectures on my own. Geminis are not loners so can you imagine how torturous it was for me? actually not exactly that tormenting lah, but it's just sianz and boring and very -duh- u know? hai~ but if i see it in a more positive way, it's like training myself to be more independent and focused.

the first lecture [which i attended alone] was 'Govt and poiltics in S'pore'. okok....i can imagine the 'HUHs' and the 'EEEEEs' already... thanks alot. i kinda regret it lah, the course pack was so thick and expensive. if i drop it, my dad will nag at me FOR SURE. but the more important thing is, if i let myself dodge another obstacle again....i'm really a big loser. i have to confront it this time no matter what. YES!!!
Loneliness is not an excuse...or is it?

Soci was damn inetersting lah...we learnt breifly about suicides....there are actually many types of suicides n all...and the sociology of dating...how cool is that?! lol. k it's just interesting lah. Communications and new media was ok, though we didn't learn much in the first lecture. the lecturer was quite fun and humourous.

now, for the other module i took alone....Chinese Tradition.... i know i know...worst than the govt poiltics. let me just emphasize it again, i have not much of a choice. okay, not like it was that dreadful lah...it was kinda interesting, really. i'm also not trying to console myself but i really found it ok after all...lol. AND it wasn't taught in chinese!!! i know how shallow people can be when the word CHINESE is in the picture. for god's sake there's nothing wrong with it!!!!

As for japANESE studies....i've learnt that it's racist and rude to use the word 'JAP'. it's like an insult to all japanese and we may get a fat zero if we ever use it in tutorials or as an abreviation in writing. hmm....i wonder if Americans get sent out of class for using the word 'chinks' on chinese. and to think that the lecturer who said that was an american too...

did i also mention i hate crowded canteens? no? YES! i hate crowded canteens.......bleah~

Pix from fullerton Hotel

PIX! and the follow-up entry below!!!
P.S: click on the images to see them clearer


one side of the esplanade.
look at the bridge and the cars on it...
the lil' dots along the bridge are actually humans!













wwwwwwoooAhhhH!



















@ One Fullerton. those people won't be able to see standing there.
when the display starts, they'll push inwards until the people in there can't breathe......

oh yeah, people-watching is so fun.

Ants!!!

this is taken during the display itself. those people just gathered in the middle of the road to watch. they didn't give a damn about the cars on the bridge and formed a human road block for more than 15mins. but i bet the drivers didn't mind too since they may well be enjoying the fireworks as well. haha.



fireworks display in the water!



Exclusive view!!!







shooting stars from the ground!























the GRAND FINALE~












I've actually caught some of the parts on video but i don't know how to put them up..haha.

Anyways, school's starting tml. Glad that my long holiday has finally ended with a BANG!

CheeRs to all!!!!!!

MORE flowers in the sky!!!

Wakao! believe me man, i've got the greatest view on the last day of the fireworks display....which was yesterday....WAHHHHH....i can't describe how nice the view was and the atmosphere was totally different from what it's like to squeeze with sweaty and smelly people...i was like..[or WE were] on the top of the world!!!! woohoo!!!! guess guess....where was i??

i was at the roof balcony of Fullerton Hotel!!! WWWAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! totally awesome!!!! you simply can't tell how ecstatic i was. take this: my parents were sipping wine and my sister and i plus my cousin n her friend [ok, what a list] were drinking some cocktail....and right below us were tonnes and tonnes of microscopic humans....they're like huge colonies of ants everywhere, waiting anxiously for the fireworks...poorthing man. and the view of the whole of esplanade and the singapore straits.......-speechless- you can only imagine. i can even see the IR okay...it's such a b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l sight.to think that the poor souls below us are like squeezing away and rubbing shoulders with other sweaty people...sigh~

From up there, i finally knew where the fireworks shot from.........the WATER!!! and some from land. and there were actually pretty displays of fireworks dancing in the water which we won't be able to see if you were below... they're like the fire version of the musical fountains can. uber cool......... the fireworks will also manifest themselves according to the tempo of the music played.

NO blockage. NO squeezing. NO stuffy-ness. NO stepping on each others' feet and NO smelly people! haha! the pnly sad thing is that we din bring our cameras. so we have to make do with our phones....i took some ok ones...you shoul've seen them above. there'll be more when my cousin's friend send us the pics. another thing was that we didn't get to hear the "WWWWWOOOOOWW" this time...we were woow-ing oursleves instead. haha. BUT anyhway, we had a GREAT time.

if ever we have to watch another fireworks display again. it HAS to be at Fullerton Hotel.

flowers in the sky!!

WeeeeWEEeeeeeee...Fireworks!!!!

Fireworks make one happy. i'm sure it does..... and now that's the fireworks' festival, you guys and gals out there should gear yourself up and be soaked in that festive atmosphere! it's so wonderful! be it watching with your family [i did!], relatives [ did too!], friends, or your better-halves. it's just amazing to watch it with them, cus the company really makes a difference!

maybe life's not just about whinning and complaining.......there're times which i feel the world's a beautiful place...especially after listening to DT's new album. he may not be as philosophical this time but at least he's good at setting the mood for love. and talking about love, the long lost part of my life....haha.....i know many are like me, and are definitely enjoying it. but i'm sure sometimes you'll just wish you had someone with you right. hai~~~ Glynis should know better...lol.

SO, back to the fireworks....[i'm so good at drifting these days. and that's no surprise why my QET got band 4....damn it lor. why in the world did they pick my paper to mark? WHY? tell me why man......it's so unfair can?!] seee.....i'm drifting again. and whinning. haha. but i'm 'shuang' leh...who cares. i simply love to whine and complain. and there's nothing anyone can do about it. HA HA HA.

Okok, just to stray abit again, i'd like to mention that there are actually people who has some sort of 'identity crisis' you know the kind where you think that you're a grown up and you set a certain standard for yourself to follow. sometimes i feel myself in that position too cus at 20, you don't know where you belong. the problem is, you're no longer a teenager but you're neither a twenty-something. so how exactly should you behave? if you whine, you're childish. if you diss people who whines, then you're too uptight, or what we call very 'geng'. what i feel, personally, now is that, if you choose to behave like an adult, then carry on. but you shouldn't think lowly of those who prefers to stick to their old-self. some people can be real irritating and childish. but if they're happy being themselves and it obviously doesn't affect you, then just let it be man...

People are opinionated, unless they don't have a proper working mind. like me, i like to read blogs selectively and i admit that i VERY OFTEN, laugh at or criticize their entries.....i'm only human what.....and the sad thing is i feel good doing that. it's not the right thing to do but heck it...it's just fun. i'm not proud of it but i'm not ready to loose this habbit. it's just me. but it's really NOTHING lor. so don't make a fuss over it. if i feel that the blogger is dumb or something, i will only think that so long as i'm not him/her, it doesn't matter....i think this immaturity of mine will stick with me for sometime, and it doesn't make a diff just cus i'm 20......

and for now, really, back to the fireworks!!!! haha....i was watching the ITALY display at the esplanade the other day with my parents and sister. i somehow felt awkward going on this kinda outings with my parents as i'm older, but this feeling was gone as soon as the fireworks popped away...... everyone there was totally esctatic. everytime the fireworks shot into the sky and burst everyone will go "WOOOw!" . it's really hilarious....cus it the 'wooow' just gets louder and louder. haha! buthen some weird thoughts came over me which i don't know why. my sadistic mind is at work again. it suddenly occured to me that maybe some terrorists may plan an attack on us by means of the fireworks....what if one of the fireworks is actually attached with a bomb of some kind and it'll just fall into the sea of people like how the fireworks falls on us. sure can kill a lot of people man. and what seems like a festive mood may well be doomsday for us! oh my gOD! i can even predict the headlines in the news "bombs rained like FIREWORKS" i know it sucks...i know i know....... then again, it's just a thought lah, it can't be real....it won't be....


BUT maybe after my entry....i don't know....it becomes an inspiration to the evil people...who knows? and you know, they'll just um..... k STOP! i'll just stop at that. the important thing is, fireworks will and always be the source of joy and exhilaration to us...in a harmless way! FULL STOP.

happy birthday my country!!! i love you!!!

bidding blues.......

Bidding is making my blood pressure rise......this freakin' sucks man. i hope i can get at least 4 mods i bid for cus i don't wana end up taking shitty ones.

Anyways, been staying home these few days except going for tuition. i have to choose my modules carefully, plan and re-plan the lecture dates so tt they don't clash, and then there's the tutorial timeslots. sianz. a real test to my decision-making abilities.

oh, my tuition kid improved already...haha. and he keep bugging me to get him a hamster. at first he wanted a mouse...... i nearly choked hearing it. well, that will NEVER happen of cus. \

argh..... i'm waiting waiting waiting.......

i passed!!! i passed!!!!

I passed my final theory test!!!! and i just took it once!!! yay~~~

i'm so proud of myself for sticking to the books the whole day. luckily it paid off handsomely at night for me, if not i'll have to resort to another round of dreadful mugging. eeeeks. at first i felt myself returning to the old studious pre-A levels me, but this feeling decays away as the hours passed. i've lost the momentum after idling for 6months. shameful me.... even my stamina's badly affected by the break. i once complained about my muscular thighs from volleying, now they're all flabby n....flabby...haha. okay, the point is, at least mugging still works for me. cus i passed!

i still can't believe i failed my basic theory the first time when i could've passed it had i prepared well.. a waste of money, that's what it is. learning driving is so not cheap ok...... and i have to go thru the same trauma of my dad poking fun at how lousy i was.......just the thought of it pisses me off. argh! oh well, at least i get to proudly stash the cert in his face today. what, are u crazy?! of cus i won't do that to my dad!!!! hahahaaa.... i just luffed damn loudly.

yar, i'm a bit insane. why am i talking to myself? hahaaaa.... anyway, theory tests are puny as compared to ... practicals!!! hai~ i have to conquer my fear man... and hopefully do some miracle like a 'one-time pass'??? i can only wish AND practice hard!!! people, have faith in me. and pray hard, so that i can 'long pang' ur to school or drive ur go shopping...hahahahaaaa...

***matric day on monday- yay~ but one prob, i'm hopeless when it comes to the details.... sian.

oh i'm a sinner!!

Oh i'm a sinner!!!!

Anyone has any precise and painless suggestions on how to regulate spending?

Or rather who can teach me how to not spend like i have thousands in my bank account?

How do you even resist the temptation of SHOPPING to begin with?!

Staying home's the most primitive of ways it seems.

Kaoz...what the hell is wrong with me and my greedy mind......

Ugly singaporeans

Ugly singaporeans & their distasteful behaviour....

did you read the new paper article about how some ugly singaporeans inconvenience the work of civil servants like medics when they're trying to save lives? i can't help but frown upon such disgusting behaviour man. if you don't wana help, fine. well you can just 'siam' to one side and let them do their job. but NO, because you're bloody late for work and your boss will, [as if 'to your absolute horror'] cut your pay by $30 bucks...and SO you cannot even allow the medic in. even if he's rushing to save a life, or something like that. yuck! you're so bloody ugly....disgusting, down-right cold-blooded! and to those who 'die die' must squeeze into the lifts and insist on endangering others' lives....you can go stab yourself. and i hope there'll be a dozen equally insensitive assholes out there to get in your way in your time of need. why? cus your karma says so.

that's just one of the examples to showcase the 'low-end' group of singaporeans. i feel damn sad cus i'm kinda proud to be one..... not in the ugly way though. you wana know why foreigners keep dissing us? that's cus even our own people can't help criticizing our behaviour sometimes. the next time we're too quick to defend ourselves when attacked, maybe we should do some soul-searching before pouncing at them. that's not to say they're always right. but it doesn't mean we're certainly victimised just because we're at the recieving end.

today, i went to this famous temple at bugis cus it's 'kuan ying dan'. ok anyway, i was there to pray lah, with my mom. i just wana comment on the appalling behaviour of some people... majority of them, sad to say, are singaporeans. and to be more specific, aunties in their mid 40s and 50s......i feel sorry that you're aging but do you really have to be so rude and grouchy?!
the way they push you is like as if you don't deserve to stand anywhere near them. and they give you that 'you're such a nuisance' look. not that it's super provocative but you'll definitely feel irritated right. and the excuse that 'oh, it's probably the heat, or the crowd or the....' is getting really, really old. so i had to push them back. there are some who repeatedly steps on your foot and refuse to apologise. so again, i either glare at them or shout 'wah lau eh'.....sorry, it's kinda inapropriate for me to do so but they should be lucky i didn't resort to head-butting.

and they'll even nag at you and can go on and on and on about it......just because you're unfortunately standing in their way. what about compassion and kindness???? isn't that what you practice in buddhism? i hope they're not praying to strike lottery, cus they're so not gonna strike in a hundred years. and there's the classic nightmarish mrt incidents. i'll leave that for some other time.

i'm not skewed so i have to admit there're many good people around too. but it just takes a few bad apples to cover the underlying better ones. and sadly, this is how stereotyping works.

plenty of nothing

Plenty of Nothing

my friends are starting school one after another and yet i'm still engaging in pretty much nothing. but this nothing means something cus it just about concludes that i'm not doing anything fruitful or beneficial [if i exclude reading straits times every morning]. i'm not too sure if i'm absolutely ready for varsity life, to be precise. yet all these while my mind is so damn convinced that i'll be good for take off.

it just occured to me that the period before school officially starts is the busiest of all. there're a whole lotta stuff to do and sign up for which if you don't constantly check the freshmen guide, may miss them out altogether. just when i, or every other prospective undergrad may even feel safely taken by NUS, we'd better be more alert before we miss anything. it won't take much to make ourselves realise that at this stage, a lot of things depend solely on our own initiatives.

take the example of tuition fee loans, health-screening or even the QET. especially the tuition fee loan part....the closing date is actually 15th july...which is about a few days left. thank god i checked the guide again. [think i'm just gonna read it religiously like a bible from now till august] i really can't afford to miss anything out. no joke man, if i don't get a loan, my parents have to pay more...and then it'll result in the shrinkage of my allowance..haha. and it all comes back to me and my money, really. lol. of cus there'll be people who finds it no big deal...they can just go to hell.... cus everything means a lot to me now.

to think that glyn n all can just start school...hassle-free and gradual...i kinda envy that. BUT, it also comes with a huge price...as in the PRICE, literally. i'm still kinda sour about the $52 bucks. but money buys security, that i must admit. anyhow, i hope they're tunning in well to their own varsity lives too...while i bitterly wait for mine....haha. let me just try to recall the no. events which will take place in this prep-month of july...

1) sign-up for tution fee loan

2) apply tertiary ez-link card n get a hybrid concession

3) health-screening in school

4) take the QET

5) sign up for O-week

6) maybe help-out for rag

7) *very impt* get matriculated OFFICIALLY!!!

....hmmm.....what else....

oh! a non-Nus related item...take my FINAL THEORY exam!!!

woah...what a list....and not to mention my tutoring.

let's just not go into details......

the aftermath...

the Aftermath....

5days of chaos, exhaustion, madnes...etc etc... it was like a mad-rush everywhere...hardly anytime to slow down. one moment we're at the forum playing lame games, the next we're seated before a row of guys engaging in some "speed-dating" thingy, and the next thing we know we're hurrying to the toilets to 'chope' cubicles for shower.

when was the last time i had time to actually sit down and do some deep thinking? i can hardly remember. i was close to dead by the end of the day...which, to me, was unnecessarily a bad thing. for the first time since A'levels, i felt such a great sense of belonging and utility...lol. not to say i was useless before....but more like my life's more meaningful during those 5 days i was at artscamp.

i hate cheering, and i desperately craved to disappear amongst my groupmates. that is the exact time which my insignificant frame can do charity for me, but unfortunately, as the strength of my OG shrinks, everyone became so prominent all of a sudden. but it didn't take long for us to feel comfortable around each other. before we knew it, everyone became so gung-ho and enthu [at certain points of the camp], but we were still pretty much cranky in the mornings. haha. and i bet we gave the most DUH-look when the yellow house ics started cheering away merrily... our eyes must have rolled twice in all directions. lol.

generally, artscamp is like the most entertaining and fun and exciting and whatever nice adjectives you can name kinda camp! no qualms about it...at least from me! >_<
honestly, fun is really an understatement. i've made great pals and took with me truckloads of fond memories....*smilessss*

hmmm it's kinda hard for me to narrate everything here about the entire artscamp but if you really wana know i'll tell you...haha. think most of them knew already. esp the cute councilors part...lol. ooops....nvm. anyways...you guys can visit the artscamp link on the right to have a better picture!

Og outing this thursday....yay!!!!

Gimme an A *clap* R *clap* T, S *clap clap* !!!!