MORE flowers in the sky!!!

Wakao! believe me man, i've got the greatest view on the last day of the fireworks display....which was yesterday....WAHHHHH....i can't describe how nice the view was and the atmosphere was totally different from what it's like to squeeze with sweaty and smelly people...i was like..[or WE were] on the top of the world!!!! woohoo!!!! guess guess....where was i??

i was at the roof balcony of Fullerton Hotel!!! WWWAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! totally awesome!!!! you simply can't tell how ecstatic i was. take this: my parents were sipping wine and my sister and i plus my cousin n her friend [ok, what a list] were drinking some cocktail....and right below us were tonnes and tonnes of microscopic humans....they're like huge colonies of ants everywhere, waiting anxiously for the fireworks...poorthing man. and the view of the whole of esplanade and the singapore straits.......-speechless- you can only imagine. i can even see the IR okay...it's such a b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l sight.to think that the poor souls below us are like squeezing away and rubbing shoulders with other sweaty people...sigh~

From up there, i finally knew where the fireworks shot from.........the WATER!!! and some from land. and there were actually pretty displays of fireworks dancing in the water which we won't be able to see if you were below... they're like the fire version of the musical fountains can. uber cool......... the fireworks will also manifest themselves according to the tempo of the music played.

NO blockage. NO squeezing. NO stuffy-ness. NO stepping on each others' feet and NO smelly people! haha! the pnly sad thing is that we din bring our cameras. so we have to make do with our phones....i took some ok ones...you shoul've seen them above. there'll be more when my cousin's friend send us the pics. another thing was that we didn't get to hear the "WWWWWOOOOOWW" this time...we were woow-ing oursleves instead. haha. BUT anyhway, we had a GREAT time.

if ever we have to watch another fireworks display again. it HAS to be at Fullerton Hotel.

flowers in the sky!!

WeeeeWEEeeeeeee...Fireworks!!!!

Fireworks make one happy. i'm sure it does..... and now that's the fireworks' festival, you guys and gals out there should gear yourself up and be soaked in that festive atmosphere! it's so wonderful! be it watching with your family [i did!], relatives [ did too!], friends, or your better-halves. it's just amazing to watch it with them, cus the company really makes a difference!

maybe life's not just about whinning and complaining.......there're times which i feel the world's a beautiful place...especially after listening to DT's new album. he may not be as philosophical this time but at least he's good at setting the mood for love. and talking about love, the long lost part of my life....haha.....i know many are like me, and are definitely enjoying it. but i'm sure sometimes you'll just wish you had someone with you right. hai~~~ Glynis should know better...lol.

SO, back to the fireworks....[i'm so good at drifting these days. and that's no surprise why my QET got band 4....damn it lor. why in the world did they pick my paper to mark? WHY? tell me why man......it's so unfair can?!] seee.....i'm drifting again. and whinning. haha. but i'm 'shuang' leh...who cares. i simply love to whine and complain. and there's nothing anyone can do about it. HA HA HA.

Okok, just to stray abit again, i'd like to mention that there are actually people who has some sort of 'identity crisis' you know the kind where you think that you're a grown up and you set a certain standard for yourself to follow. sometimes i feel myself in that position too cus at 20, you don't know where you belong. the problem is, you're no longer a teenager but you're neither a twenty-something. so how exactly should you behave? if you whine, you're childish. if you diss people who whines, then you're too uptight, or what we call very 'geng'. what i feel, personally, now is that, if you choose to behave like an adult, then carry on. but you shouldn't think lowly of those who prefers to stick to their old-self. some people can be real irritating and childish. but if they're happy being themselves and it obviously doesn't affect you, then just let it be man...

People are opinionated, unless they don't have a proper working mind. like me, i like to read blogs selectively and i admit that i VERY OFTEN, laugh at or criticize their entries.....i'm only human what.....and the sad thing is i feel good doing that. it's not the right thing to do but heck it...it's just fun. i'm not proud of it but i'm not ready to loose this habbit. it's just me. but it's really NOTHING lor. so don't make a fuss over it. if i feel that the blogger is dumb or something, i will only think that so long as i'm not him/her, it doesn't matter....i think this immaturity of mine will stick with me for sometime, and it doesn't make a diff just cus i'm 20......

and for now, really, back to the fireworks!!!! haha....i was watching the ITALY display at the esplanade the other day with my parents and sister. i somehow felt awkward going on this kinda outings with my parents as i'm older, but this feeling was gone as soon as the fireworks popped away...... everyone there was totally esctatic. everytime the fireworks shot into the sky and burst everyone will go "WOOOw!" . it's really hilarious....cus it the 'wooow' just gets louder and louder. haha! buthen some weird thoughts came over me which i don't know why. my sadistic mind is at work again. it suddenly occured to me that maybe some terrorists may plan an attack on us by means of the fireworks....what if one of the fireworks is actually attached with a bomb of some kind and it'll just fall into the sea of people like how the fireworks falls on us. sure can kill a lot of people man. and what seems like a festive mood may well be doomsday for us! oh my gOD! i can even predict the headlines in the news "bombs rained like FIREWORKS" i know it sucks...i know i know....... then again, it's just a thought lah, it can't be real....it won't be....


BUT maybe after my entry....i don't know....it becomes an inspiration to the evil people...who knows? and you know, they'll just um..... k STOP! i'll just stop at that. the important thing is, fireworks will and always be the source of joy and exhilaration to us...in a harmless way! FULL STOP.

happy birthday my country!!! i love you!!!

bidding blues.......

Bidding is making my blood pressure rise......this freakin' sucks man. i hope i can get at least 4 mods i bid for cus i don't wana end up taking shitty ones.

Anyways, been staying home these few days except going for tuition. i have to choose my modules carefully, plan and re-plan the lecture dates so tt they don't clash, and then there's the tutorial timeslots. sianz. a real test to my decision-making abilities.

oh, my tuition kid improved already...haha. and he keep bugging me to get him a hamster. at first he wanted a mouse...... i nearly choked hearing it. well, that will NEVER happen of cus. \

argh..... i'm waiting waiting waiting.......

i passed!!! i passed!!!!

I passed my final theory test!!!! and i just took it once!!! yay~~~

i'm so proud of myself for sticking to the books the whole day. luckily it paid off handsomely at night for me, if not i'll have to resort to another round of dreadful mugging. eeeeks. at first i felt myself returning to the old studious pre-A levels me, but this feeling decays away as the hours passed. i've lost the momentum after idling for 6months. shameful me.... even my stamina's badly affected by the break. i once complained about my muscular thighs from volleying, now they're all flabby n....flabby...haha. okay, the point is, at least mugging still works for me. cus i passed!

i still can't believe i failed my basic theory the first time when i could've passed it had i prepared well.. a waste of money, that's what it is. learning driving is so not cheap ok...... and i have to go thru the same trauma of my dad poking fun at how lousy i was.......just the thought of it pisses me off. argh! oh well, at least i get to proudly stash the cert in his face today. what, are u crazy?! of cus i won't do that to my dad!!!! hahahaaa.... i just luffed damn loudly.

yar, i'm a bit insane. why am i talking to myself? hahaaaa.... anyway, theory tests are puny as compared to ... practicals!!! hai~ i have to conquer my fear man... and hopefully do some miracle like a 'one-time pass'??? i can only wish AND practice hard!!! people, have faith in me. and pray hard, so that i can 'long pang' ur to school or drive ur go shopping...hahahahaaaa...

***matric day on monday- yay~ but one prob, i'm hopeless when it comes to the details.... sian.

oh i'm a sinner!!

Oh i'm a sinner!!!!

Anyone has any precise and painless suggestions on how to regulate spending?

Or rather who can teach me how to not spend like i have thousands in my bank account?

How do you even resist the temptation of SHOPPING to begin with?!

Staying home's the most primitive of ways it seems.

Kaoz...what the hell is wrong with me and my greedy mind......

Ugly singaporeans

Ugly singaporeans & their distasteful behaviour....

did you read the new paper article about how some ugly singaporeans inconvenience the work of civil servants like medics when they're trying to save lives? i can't help but frown upon such disgusting behaviour man. if you don't wana help, fine. well you can just 'siam' to one side and let them do their job. but NO, because you're bloody late for work and your boss will, [as if 'to your absolute horror'] cut your pay by $30 bucks...and SO you cannot even allow the medic in. even if he's rushing to save a life, or something like that. yuck! you're so bloody ugly....disgusting, down-right cold-blooded! and to those who 'die die' must squeeze into the lifts and insist on endangering others' lives....you can go stab yourself. and i hope there'll be a dozen equally insensitive assholes out there to get in your way in your time of need. why? cus your karma says so.

that's just one of the examples to showcase the 'low-end' group of singaporeans. i feel damn sad cus i'm kinda proud to be one..... not in the ugly way though. you wana know why foreigners keep dissing us? that's cus even our own people can't help criticizing our behaviour sometimes. the next time we're too quick to defend ourselves when attacked, maybe we should do some soul-searching before pouncing at them. that's not to say they're always right. but it doesn't mean we're certainly victimised just because we're at the recieving end.

today, i went to this famous temple at bugis cus it's 'kuan ying dan'. ok anyway, i was there to pray lah, with my mom. i just wana comment on the appalling behaviour of some people... majority of them, sad to say, are singaporeans. and to be more specific, aunties in their mid 40s and 50s......i feel sorry that you're aging but do you really have to be so rude and grouchy?!
the way they push you is like as if you don't deserve to stand anywhere near them. and they give you that 'you're such a nuisance' look. not that it's super provocative but you'll definitely feel irritated right. and the excuse that 'oh, it's probably the heat, or the crowd or the....' is getting really, really old. so i had to push them back. there are some who repeatedly steps on your foot and refuse to apologise. so again, i either glare at them or shout 'wah lau eh'.....sorry, it's kinda inapropriate for me to do so but they should be lucky i didn't resort to head-butting.

and they'll even nag at you and can go on and on and on about it......just because you're unfortunately standing in their way. what about compassion and kindness???? isn't that what you practice in buddhism? i hope they're not praying to strike lottery, cus they're so not gonna strike in a hundred years. and there's the classic nightmarish mrt incidents. i'll leave that for some other time.

i'm not skewed so i have to admit there're many good people around too. but it just takes a few bad apples to cover the underlying better ones. and sadly, this is how stereotyping works.

plenty of nothing

Plenty of Nothing

my friends are starting school one after another and yet i'm still engaging in pretty much nothing. but this nothing means something cus it just about concludes that i'm not doing anything fruitful or beneficial [if i exclude reading straits times every morning]. i'm not too sure if i'm absolutely ready for varsity life, to be precise. yet all these while my mind is so damn convinced that i'll be good for take off.

it just occured to me that the period before school officially starts is the busiest of all. there're a whole lotta stuff to do and sign up for which if you don't constantly check the freshmen guide, may miss them out altogether. just when i, or every other prospective undergrad may even feel safely taken by NUS, we'd better be more alert before we miss anything. it won't take much to make ourselves realise that at this stage, a lot of things depend solely on our own initiatives.

take the example of tuition fee loans, health-screening or even the QET. especially the tuition fee loan part....the closing date is actually 15th july...which is about a few days left. thank god i checked the guide again. [think i'm just gonna read it religiously like a bible from now till august] i really can't afford to miss anything out. no joke man, if i don't get a loan, my parents have to pay more...and then it'll result in the shrinkage of my allowance..haha. and it all comes back to me and my money, really. lol. of cus there'll be people who finds it no big deal...they can just go to hell.... cus everything means a lot to me now.

to think that glyn n all can just start school...hassle-free and gradual...i kinda envy that. BUT, it also comes with a huge price...as in the PRICE, literally. i'm still kinda sour about the $52 bucks. but money buys security, that i must admit. anyhow, i hope they're tunning in well to their own varsity lives too...while i bitterly wait for mine....haha. let me just try to recall the no. events which will take place in this prep-month of july...

1) sign-up for tution fee loan

2) apply tertiary ez-link card n get a hybrid concession

3) health-screening in school

4) take the QET

5) sign up for O-week

6) maybe help-out for rag

7) *very impt* get matriculated OFFICIALLY!!!

....hmmm.....what else....

oh! a non-Nus related item...take my FINAL THEORY exam!!!

woah...what a list....and not to mention my tutoring.

let's just not go into details......

the aftermath...

the Aftermath....

5days of chaos, exhaustion, madnes...etc etc... it was like a mad-rush everywhere...hardly anytime to slow down. one moment we're at the forum playing lame games, the next we're seated before a row of guys engaging in some "speed-dating" thingy, and the next thing we know we're hurrying to the toilets to 'chope' cubicles for shower.

when was the last time i had time to actually sit down and do some deep thinking? i can hardly remember. i was close to dead by the end of the day...which, to me, was unnecessarily a bad thing. for the first time since A'levels, i felt such a great sense of belonging and utility...lol. not to say i was useless before....but more like my life's more meaningful during those 5 days i was at artscamp.

i hate cheering, and i desperately craved to disappear amongst my groupmates. that is the exact time which my insignificant frame can do charity for me, but unfortunately, as the strength of my OG shrinks, everyone became so prominent all of a sudden. but it didn't take long for us to feel comfortable around each other. before we knew it, everyone became so gung-ho and enthu [at certain points of the camp], but we were still pretty much cranky in the mornings. haha. and i bet we gave the most DUH-look when the yellow house ics started cheering away merrily... our eyes must have rolled twice in all directions. lol.

generally, artscamp is like the most entertaining and fun and exciting and whatever nice adjectives you can name kinda camp! no qualms about it...at least from me! >_<
honestly, fun is really an understatement. i've made great pals and took with me truckloads of fond memories....*smilessss*

hmmm it's kinda hard for me to narrate everything here about the entire artscamp but if you really wana know i'll tell you...haha. think most of them knew already. esp the cute councilors part...lol. ooops....nvm. anyways...you guys can visit the artscamp link on the right to have a better picture!

Og outing this thursday....yay!!!!

Gimme an A *clap* R *clap* T, S *clap clap* !!!!

One more day

Just one more day and it'll be goodbye to Accz. GREAT. i can't wait actually. and this time it's for REAL.

i'm not trying to be mean but working there hasn't been that fun these days. working should never be deemed fun anyways, you might add. but seriously, i've had my fair share of joy and pain in that place. i've said and done a lot, and i've retold the tales here over again. the ups and downs of retail...it just gets boring and frustrating after awhile. However, i won't regret it cus i realised there're people whom i've grown so fond of that i'll actually tear as we part. so sad...i'll really miss connie [my SISTERRR]. i haven't heard myself laugh that loud with anyone for quite some time. =D

on a more practical note, i think i'll start missing work as soon as my bank account shrinks.

SO, i started picking out clothes to pack for camp today. i was stunned when the clothes started piling up like a small hill. the funny thing is, the packing list looked so pleasantly short yet i'm already beginning to have difficulties deciding which items to pass. i was kinda stuck with the old idea that we can only wear sch t-shirts. that has to pass too since i'm already in uni and i will no longer need to abide by some dumb-arse rules created by dumb people. haha. suddenly i feel so liberated, so in control. see, lil' things like these make me happy. maybe it's because i keep comparing life now with the days in MI. like heaven and hell...

Anyways, i hope i can be in the same OG as either gracey or rong rong..haha or rather any familiar faces whom i'm comfortable with. and i hope i won't freak out in a single hostel room. though i have a reputation for sleeping within mins, i'm still kinda spooked by the thought that i'll have to switch the lights off and walk back to my bed on my own. i'm not absolutely terrified of the dark but i hate loneliness. besides, i have'nt been sleeping on my own since the day i was born. think i'll just try to sneak into someone's room or something. lol.

Oh, my oh my, glynis is sick AGAIN. like how weak can u be??? hai~ and everytime you're sick is not the mild kind. sad. which means i won't have a movie kaki for the time being. you have to rest and recuperate well. but it's ok man, you have a whole long week to do so. i'll be camping-away, anyway. hehe. i'll keep a look-out k? lol you should know what i mean lah..... in the meantime, you should get a pen and paper to jot down whatever nice movies are coming up which we'll wana catch. from the trailers i see these days the numbers should be quite promising. but that is also if our pockets allow.......boooboooo.....

till then,drink lotsa water and sleep well my friends. the weather isn't that friendly now adays. well, in case anyone's still confused about when my much anticipated camp is on, it's from 26th-30th june [monday-friday]. so no new entries for a week. if you miss me, leave a tag alright? aaawwww....i know you will..... wahahhahahaha!!!
lol...

it'll be back!!

great news!

season 4 of OTH will be back! that's really something worth celebrating for. besides, i hate the feeling of being left hanging mid-air with no answers.

another thing worth anticipating [to me] is the artscamp2006. i don't exactly feel excited about it but i just can't wait. it must be some kinda of pre-camp anxiety i'm experiencing cus i haven't been to any sort of camps [like this] for decades. the closest i've ever came to "fun" was the orientation camp in 2003. and i really don't want to talk about it if you know what i mean.

somehow i have this feeling that it won't disappoint me this time. besides, i'm paying 50bucks for it man! it better be worthwhile....at least leave me with some fond memories....

oh please... please, please, don't let my unversity life be that forgetable.....please don't let my memory fail me.......booo.....

i was younger....

Birthdays......do one exactly feel the overwhelming sense of maturity once the clock strucks 12?

no.

i still feel like 2 yrs ago...when my face was pimple-infested. cus at home, i'm still that childish kid to my parents and the ever-demanding elder sister to my sis.

nothing's changed. we still goof around at home, i'm still tyranous towards my sister. maturity in age doesn't and will not change that....at least for now. lol.

and i get predictable responses too. a very monotonous exclamation of "oh my god! you're 20 already..." then " can u believe it you're gonna be 30 soon?!" no i can't. and then they direct their attention back to the tv. hmmm....i just love how comfortable things are at home. we don't bear grudges even with the most biting or sarcastic remarks.

i figured that as we age, we'll slowly grow out of the blogging phase....not now but in the near future...when u find that it's such a chore, when u suspect that no one actually wants to know about you or when u have better things to do......but for now, blogging is like a kind of responsibility. because i know my friends drop by once in awhile to check out on me. because i know people care about how i'm doing while some are just curious.....though some of you don't leave tags i know you're reading.....some of my posts are ok, some i find kinda childish. i wish i could erase those immature contents but then again, it's all part and parcel of growing up.

Now, at 20, there're a whole lotta stuff i'd like to experience and accomplish....but i hope in my journey to achieveing them i can still look back and laugh at how dumb i was before. like reading my old posts.....they're really a great reminisence of how i once felt and what i was going through at certain points in time. it's good to have a history to fall back on....especially one which you yourself recorded......then i can always laugh it off and say "i was younger...". haha.

introducing connie & matty

introducing CONNIE & MATTY the ugly sisters!!!!!

world Cup 2006

My Game Is Fairplay...

i used to think soccer is dumb cus it's like watching 11 or so men chasing and kicking away at a pathetic lil ball. now it has changed. i mean TOTALLY changed. i'm slowly getting hooked to watching soccer thanks to the numerous sports channels my dad subscribed prior to the World Cup 2006.

i must have been outta my mind man.....cus i do remember telling people tt soccer is so stewpid n all.....urgh...and i really never expect myself to even sit through the game till half time. so how did i come to this surprising conclusion? i think it was a few days ago [ one of the days which i'm off and has nothing in particular to do ]. at first i tried to read the LeeKwanYew autobiography AGAIN, but i think i'll never get pass 5 pages. it always has this hynotising effect on me. okay, anyway, i was channel surfing and i practically browsed every channel TWICE but i still couldn't find anything interesting to watch AT ALL. i wonder how glyn survived her days with just her tv. and to think that i have more channels on SCV than she does. then i stumbled upon #24, some sports channel and it was showing the start of this Brazil and New Zealand friendly match.

i sat before the tv throughout. it was a darn amazing thing, i tell you. i don't know how but it just seemed as if i was rooted there and now i think of it, i gotta admit i was mesmerized by the game. i even sat through half time and kept watching the replays n stuff. and towards the end of it when it got real exciting i just stood up in front of the tv. it's funny but i felt this great sense of achievement after that. haha.

so it occured to me that i should participate more enthusiastically this time round. besides, i won't know if i'll be that excited about this in 4 yrs' time. at the very least, i must watch the key matches. and i did yesterday. my sister the copy cat, followed to get root beer n chips at 7-11. so me, her, my dad n uncle watched the Germany n Costa rica match in the hall. haha....we were damn raudy man....unbelievable. now i really see more than just ball-passing. at least i pay attention to skills n all....but i can't say i'm a complete fanatic since i still don't know much abt football's history, the rules or whateva. and the guilty side of me reminds myself that i didn't watch it purely outta interest in the game, but in some of the guys. Um, don't get me wrong, i don't go entirely for looks. guys with talent are real captivating too. haha.... like Ronaldhino and Ballack...u think they're cute? no, but they're just cool. Very, Very cool. [being cute is a plus plus point though]

Conclusion: i'm so proud of myself for being acquainted with this sport. haha. and one more thing, i'm rooting for Germany!!! ....and a few others

a follow up...

okay, just a continuation/ folow-up to what i blogged yesterday.

about the dream right? i said i couldn't seem to piece them together. think it all made sense now. cus the baby who's sleeping next to me must be Lucas and Brooke's child. it must BE. and why was i sleeping next to their baby? haha...cus i'm their baby sitter!!! woohooo~~~ how cool is that? it's just like Desperate Housewives where this singaporean actress gets a small role as a sidekick in the show. she was acting as the maid i think.lol. whatever man. haha....
hahahahhaaaaa......hahahaaa..ha haa. haha.

one tree hill-ed

Now i finally know the meaning of “中毒很深”.


haha. maybe you all should know better. i dream the weirdest dreams.
like yesterday night, i dreamt that i was one of the casts in One Tree Hill.
what's new right? i've always been this queer. even if i don't think about some people or something all day, i still get amazing dreams at night. and if i think real hard about something, i get better ones. =)
it's like a gift of some kind. isn't it great to dream of cute guys and all? haha.... but like they always say, dreams are more than often the opposite of reality. true true.....
maybe that's why i still don't have a boyfriend. i can only dream about it.
okay, fair enough. but the greatest pity of all is that i can't seem to piece the dream together. sianz. so goes the saying "you can't keep everything you want. especially what you want to."
i can only recall vividly that we were all sleeping in a dorm and i have a baby girl beside me. lol. and then Chad michael Murray came into the room....and all's history. not exactly what i'd expect cus i'll rather james lafferty. hahaha.....anyways, like i said, dreams can only be dreams.
i welcome more of these sort though.
even if they won't come true, it doesn't matter really. so long as i get to be happy at least for that moment.
everytime i watch a show i like, i'll totally allow myself to immerse into the plot. i'm so imaginative you won't believe it. haha. i'm sure some of ur are like this to some extent right? we all have our own sick-lil-minds which we won't expose to others so easily...
subconsciously, i think i'm beginning to crave for that kinda life. but i gotta emphasize again on the point that: i don't mean the f.w.b part. haha!!!

***i've been watching superband these days. my general motive was to laugh at those weirdos. but i gotta say that i'm kinda impressed with some of the bands now. like 迷路兵 and Soul... different style but their perfomances were really good. the rest are kinda duh...... and i'm also sick of the rapping n screaming or roaring....whatever u call it.

birthday prezzies 2006

*smiles WIDELY*

guess what? my first birthday preszzie i got this yr was from my lovely sista! as in my REAL sister....lol....she bought this one tree hill soundtrack for which i love dearly...wahahha...and a mirror from The Face Shop which i requested too...

oh well, picking and choosing birthday presents isn't really a chore of the people buying them anymore you know. since don't know when---- it has CHANGED.
i can actually recollect the number of times i literally squeeze every drop of by brain juices to think of a plaudible present for someone....even people like my close friends. i simply just can't think. but if you ask me what i'd like to have for a present, well, the list will probably be longer than that of the North-south mrt line. haha.

of cus i don't go saying " oh i want this, this this and this..." to everyone. sometimes i'd rather they choose.... especially those not-so-close friends. though i know my heart's crying "please get me that FOSSIL watch...!!" lol....doesn't it sound familiar to you? deep in your greedy little minds you probably have this wishlist which you long for but sadly, and always, you can only attain them yourself. hai~

though it defeats the purpose of a present wrapped under fancy gift wrappers [which also doesn't come cheap], you'll prefer to get something you like instead of a photo frame with small diamante hearts on its borders right. talking about bad experiences with gifts...YES, even your bestest friend of many donkey years can be lousy to some extent when it comes buying something you like for your birthday. [unless they totally...and i do mean TOTALLY hangs out with you like forever]. if not, the best presents should be found under your friend's "BY REQUEST" list.... cus personally, i'm guilty of such a petty crime too. when THE day draws near and you just couldn't gather enough inspiration. it can be disastrous...

and the worse of all is probably the delusion that you know what he/she likes. so you wana get a pair of shoes for her [but what size?]. i don't see him for half a yr so has he grown out of an M-size for Ts?? Oh you know so and so loves puppies, so you get a bag with puppy-prints on it...[an obviously WRONG choice cus puppy prints on bags is a huge mistake] but you still get it anyway cus you're meeting her in half an hour. and the most common tag-line you hear almost all the time "oh you can change the size if it doesn't fit" and some ingenious souls even offer the reciept out of convenience. how sad is that?!

why?!?!??! because it seems that "it's the thought that counts" pet-phrase became a convenient excuse to the world of friends these days.

now adays, who gives a damn man.....change, change lah....i don't mind.. no one really abides by such 'traditions' where you "surprise" people with gifts which half the time they don't exactly like them. who knows which pathetic corner your presents are sitting in your friend's home. not that i'm trying to demean the whole idea of giving birthday presents but sometimes it's just funny how it works. sometimes i feel sorry for the plush toys my friends gave me [long ago]. there's this thing called 'spring cleaning' every year so imagine my mom bugging me to throw old stuffies away and the thing is i actually feel bad and sorry for them. they're my birthday presents!! for some sentimental reasons i do keep some of them, no matter how much dust they collect. =)

the bottom line is----now i get to choose *smiles WIDELY again*
here's a few on the list...

1) a pair of birkies [don't worry, this is taken]
2) OTH soundtrack [did i just mentioned my sis already got this?...]
3) The Face Shop mirror [...this too]
4) Anna Sui Dolly girl...on the beach [ jiayi's take, sorry.]
5) a set of tarot cards [ jane n jan's already..]
6) an FCUK t shirt...light color...
7) gavin degraw's chariot EP
8) 3 pairs of earings from far east...of my choice ;P
9) an accessorize belt
10) buy me a good birthday meal. lol

okee...i reckon a lot of you will pretend you've never read this entry...*sobs*
and you'll probably be rolling your eyes in all directions......but don't everyone get to feel SPECIAL once every year??? at least i do.........*pouts*

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....now you even wana forget you've ever known me...oops.

it's all over

it's all over

It's amazing after so long
i still do think of you
i've been breaking the rules
promised to let you go
but i just can't do
So i cry, so i lay awake
everynight
and picture your face
but it's too late, far too long
i can't help it
somethings just won't go away

it's over for you
just as it was for me
but each time i tried i just fall deeper
do you remember what we were?
cus someday, if i could
i'll never cause you pain
till then
it's all over

It's cold and lonely out there
i'm yearning for your touch
it feels like yesterday
but in a flash 4 years' gone away
So i cry, so i lay awake
everynight
and picture your face
now it's too late, far too long
listen to me
i'm missing you so bad

i'm sorry i let you down
there's no way to turn it around
i don't need someone else
but all i hear is this
"it's all over"

carnival day @ MI

this is kinda overdue but i gotta blog something abt CARNIVAL DAY @ MI since my fellow counterparts did the same. haha.

3 things i found amusing and entertaining:

....the haunted house. it was hilarious. they really need to try harder lah. the three of us [grace, rong n me] luffed so hard inside it almost sounded creepy to the people outside. lol. darknest doesn't scare people if they know what i mean. it's soooo dark in there we can't even see the faces of the "GHOSTS". n i gotta apologise on behalf of the 3 of us for stamping on one of their...whatever...we couldn't make out what 'it' was anyways. and did i mention that we needed assistance to show us the door? very funny.....i even disturbed the dead by answering a phone call inside. we were like "i can't see i can't see i can't see" through out...hahahhahaa.

....the band jams wer, uh, alright lah but if they're serious abt jamming in the school hall, the lousy pa system HAS TO GO. jacky did a great job saving himself from the not-very-impressive rock performance by singing some chinese songs after that...besty: stick to ur niche. =P

....the people i see in school....like the clothes they're wearing, aaawwwwww.....some really freak the hell outta me. think ur should know what i mean. eeeeeewww....and then i saw people i didn't like and didn't want to see, EVER. glyn n lirong knew i was running away....a real bad history which i hate to even recall.

i just bought $5 worth of coupon and i still have $2 left. all i gotta say is, my purpose there wasn't to spend at the carnival. i'm already done with what i was there for....lol. grace n lili will know. hee~ till then....i'll miss them!

went party world with jac n glyn later n we sang in the hall.... felt bad for dragging glyn to sing cus she didn't! she was sick n was busy making "wantans" with tissue paper while me n jac were singing. i'm ssssoooooo sorrrryyyyyy!!!!!!! i promise the next time we'll do what u like k? n get well soon pleassseeee!!!!

one tree hill

"i don't wana be anything other than what i've been tryna be lately..."

i was just wondering, if an American life is really like what it seems on tv. like what i'm watching now, those people live outrageous lives. they pregnate themselves in high school, raise their own children while schooling, sleep around like FWB [friends with benefits], cheat on their best friends then make-up, marry when in love [and believe me, at a far too young age], dating a college professor, commiting adultary when their marriage are on the rocks [or even before], fathering 2 sons...just to name a few. is it real or is it just drama?

i'd like to believe they're overrated but a part of me feels that lives like that aren't really a bad thing. not that i'm supporting the sleeping around part but it's definitely more interesting than anticipating sales and queueing at zouk.

though we do have small estates and towns here, it's far from what it's like in western countries. people know you by name even when you stay three streets down. here, i don't even know who's staying around the corner of my flat. it can be a bad thing though if too many people know you, especially when you don't wana get busted for screwing things up. to be straight, life here is safe, comfortable, routine.....mundane. anything else on the list above is pure taboo.

now why does it seem like i'm taking my life for granted? am i wrong to want something more than just being comfortable? i wish i had problems like the characters do, but i'd safely rule out adultary or anything that has to do with sexuality. what the hell....i'm still conservative in the right way.

hmmm...just so you know, it's actually a 'food for thought' after a whole day of OTH marathon.

A div Volleyball 2006

TJC LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aaawwww.........man......... how can that be?! the scores were bloody close though, and i personally think that they definitely put up a good fight. great game, the spirit was unbreakable. i'm sure all the volleyball fanatics who were present yesterday felt the same thrill of adrenaline rush with every spike and drop shot made. volleyball is THE game man. the coolest, full of poise and style....lol. i don't know about other sports but i'm standing by my fave...=)

i hope the Tj guys aren't that sad. [great pity]..because they did play well. and for the benefit of doubt to those who don't know why they lost, 3/4 of Anderson's team were repeat students. not that i have anything against them...but it's kinda like a handicapped game for TJ. a bit of unfairness as well, but still, a 5-setter game is darn impressive. *three cheers*

of cus, genius ol' me took video clips of the games here and there...they can well serve as a reminder of my passion in the sport. haha. anyways, HCI and NYJC's ladies' game was good as well... HCI's power spikes saved the day!!! beautiful....... that explains why most of us were at the edge of our seats!

besides the excitement n all, there are always jokers who try to be funny during the matches. let me just let you all in to a few classical ones...

1: the HCI guys were right above our heads and aparently they got sooo carried away cheering that they didn't realise their saliva are accumulating on our skin. so much for tryna put up with these over-zealous smarties... and when the court suddenly became silent, this HCI supporter blurted " do that sexy serve!" when his school team was serving the ball. he didn't expect the spectators to go quiet all of a sudden and everyone turned to look n laughed so hard....it was totally hilarious....and i was still wondering what intelligent stuff can come from bright students...

2: the MC of our school [ MI is the official A div vball conveyner EVERY year] said something like "please refrain from using any musical instruments during the game. musical instruments include plastic pails." how original...... our eyes couldn't roll further...

3: this is the most annoying part of all. this sickenning girl from MI who was a "mopper" as in the one who mops the court during time-out, tried to flirt umpteen times with one of the tj players. unbelievable. not once, or twice.....but EVERYTIME she was out to mop the court she tries damn hard to smile at him. we can't be more embarrassed with what she was doing. ultimate loser. i feel sorry to say that she's in my school. what's on her mind?! she's the undefeated champion for the biggest joker on court, in the game, during the entire match.

thanks for blessing MI with a new-found name "school of desperados". seriously, i think her self-esteem is sky-high. oh please don't tell me that's what my school's girls these days are made of: as shallow as a puddle of water.

alright enough of that, let's just look at some lovely pictures...