Episode: "Gross Dao" Fahrenheit autograph session.

Once is enough and i'll never succumb myself to such grostique circumstances ANYMORE!

lol. i almost LAUGHED OUT LOUD at myself in the damn queue. but what an experience. SO DESU NE.....this is what it's like to go gaga over idols....lol....funny funny.... you will laugh with me if you see the lunatic teens running after the van....

All you get is 0.3 secs with them after queueing for 4 hrs.....silly me. and how frustrating, i didn't get an autograph after all.....

regret...why did i betray david Tao for him...?

...the pic explains it all....[go pee also look so cute]. Damn....

at least we had fun.

Grostique Scale: **** [4 stars...in case u think it's somekind of vulgarity]5 is the max.

wishing and hoping...

i'm gonna meet my idol on Sunday and i can hardly contain my excitement...you probably won't get it, but when u know who i'm meeting you might...lol. it's a secret. i'll tell when i get the pics and stuff...

it's quite embarrassing to be only doing crazy stuff like chasing idols now, but i really wana do something mad/childish/exciting before i hit 21...haha....it doesn't matter what people say or think about this man, i'm doing stuff for myself. anyways, how many lives can i live right? i don't care if i'll have to dig a hole and hide my face when i recall this incident 10 yrs from now...

actually, idols are like every other human beings.... they can even be like the pretty boy you occassionally bump into in school....so far-fetched and out of reach cus you know you'll never be on the same level...you're from 2 different worlds...even being in the same tutorial class seems to be the most exclusive thing in the world to you...haha. can you even imagine breathing in the same air and being in the same place at the same time? how many times do you brag about it to your girlfriends? we somehow forget that they're nothing fantastic, really. they eat the same kinda food, sleep on beds and they don't have antenas sticking from their heads. they are so not out of this world if we ever think sanely.

BUT STILL, i can't help myself from ogling at them....just plain, harmeless ogling. and sometimes fantasize about how nice it would be if we're friends or even together...haha. same goes for the idols....their only speciality will be their killer-good-looks, a tinch of acting skills or maybe hitting a couple of right tunes. that's sufficient to send girls flooding their fansites. yet i'm so guilty of loving them secretly too... but not all. come to think of it, it's funny how shallow people can be unknowingly. no matter how much you hate this shallowness....you can't escape from being part of it. just how many times do you turn your head for a 2nd look at an ugly guy? no right.... or how many times have you resisted pointing out a cute guy to you friend? i bet never....see...shallowness is IN YOU...it's like an innate characteristic you can't shed. scary?

but how i hate those guys who go for looks...............

ironic?

too bad, cus i'm a not-so-pretty girl...lol.

i LOVE MUMMY!!!!

yup, i simply adore my mom!

she does housework everyday, cooks nice food for us and makes sure there's soup on the table every night....she wakes us up in the morning and of cus...how can i ever forget the shopping!!! lol...

that's not all can...she always treats us to sumptuous meals at restaurants on weekends!!! MUMMY I LOVE YOU!!!! haha.[why are u in India, dad?]

"we want a bit of EVERYTHING!"

see what happens when she's asked to take a photo?

this is how you smile, fefe....

look at the XIAOLONG BAO!

Absolutely irresistable!!!

BBUuurrRRRP!!!

feel like i could float

okay, i'm weak lah, happy?

was supposed to be a string of 'non-stop hits' [as what Cher Lau calls it] for me today....10-12, 12-2, 2-4. please tell me i'm a genius at planning.

BUT

lucky me [irony-intended] i'm down with flu again....and as usual lah, the i-can't-breathe-thru-my-nose drama....bleah......and my throat was itching so bad i can't speak properly.... i was supposed to do a presentation today....so blame it on the weather.

save all the trouble lah, an MC would be the WISEST choice. do you know? i'll probably top the list of "Friends of medipoint clinic" should there be any of this sort. all i need to do is walk in and say hi to the recep-aunty and wait. the GP is my friend man....that explains the spoil-market rates she charges me...lol.

btw, i'm finally, officially active in a CCA now...i'm a marketing exec in our fac's Arts Club...the deputy of the marketing director.... do i hear a "WAAAAHHH!!!"? no. cus whatever that means, think it's something like a secretary....all i do is 'follow-ups' with sponsors...and i tell u, some are REAl big-shot sponsors...of cus there're others like the milo-van... awww c'mon, we ALL love the milo-van don't we? lol. getting sponsors is a tough job okay...anyway, i'm gonna start calling SDU...lol my director says they'll basically support any activities involving males n females... that's ridiculously funny to me. but heck....since this is gonna earn me a nice cert and an upper-hand in my job-resume when i graduate...i'm more than happy.

for now....i'll just float away. [credits to the dose of cough drops]

I'M SAD.....

Know why? cus my secondary school f&n teacher passed away...

remember Ms Chang?

the unforgettable "sit with the pipes"...

the ridiculously dry sinks...

the pinches...

the laughter...

the joy...

the love...

...and the guidance

it's sad we never kept our promise of visiting her after graduation.

it's just damn sad...

life is short man.

70 and still a pervert!

he's so old and so obviously fragile yet he climbed up and sat on the metal railings in the bus queue just so he could stare at some sexy girl's boobs.

and he didn't even attempt to conceal his motives...indespicable!

he simply STARED right at her chest waiting for her loose top to give way and reveal some boob flesh....disgusting!

puke puke puke... and the girl ain't that pretty even.....

and i was soooo right cus he sat right behind her when he boarded the bus. needless to say, that was to gawk at her bums under that pair of ultra tiny shorts when she alights.

some old men are really PERVERTS!!!

it's me and my lil school bag and an empty stomach.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.... yay.

do i sound excited? not quite but i'm happy i finally have a proper schedule of things to do. i kinda like my plans this sem:
1) General Biology
2) Genes and Society
3) SouthEast Asian Studies
4) Social Psychology of New Media [major]
5) Theories of New Media [major]

i don't exactly know what genes n society is about but who cares if it only costs me 1 bidding point. haaaa....

though i'm not an avid new-yr-resolution follower, it just occured to me that i can't bump around like i did last sem...i MUST at least set some targets to uh-hm, feel motivated. and it's not like i write stuff like "i wana be a university scholar" or anything close.... just some down to earth and feasible goals...haha. and not to forget my long-awaited holidays and some other crap.

i was telling yy i feel totally 'Sciencified' this sem cus of the bio modules i chose...oh well....i can only say, they have nice LTs..

just an observation, the faculty is pleasant but their toilets are awfully hard to find. what, people there don't pee? lol. maybe we're just new. but the fish tanks in some bio-labs really don't smell too good. haha..

today, my genes n soc lect lasted for only 1.45hrs... like most of the lectures did. and i stayed in school for just about tt length of time too.

that's the best part of my first day, perhaps.

oh i'm so into household chores these days....i wake up at 9 every morning and slip that pair of pink gloves on [like what Dexter's mother wore everyday just that her's r yellow...omg, pls don't tell me you don't know who's Dexter. Kaoz....how can anyone NOT know Dexter?!] i'm beginning to experience my utility at home. maybe i should consider sending my maid a 'thank you' card.

"Have Yourself, a Merry little Christmas...."

It's probably snowing away at the other half of the hemisphere yet here we're constantly inconvenienced by torrential rain. what a dread to leave home when you know it's safe and sound at home.

Tell me about the number of times you're about to leave your flat and the rain just starts pouring away at your door step. your pretty pair of shoes are drenched like the way your mood is the moment the sky darkens...

And as if you'll feel much consolation, Christmas is on its way! i'd like to think that since it's a season of giving, then God must have wanted to bless S'pore with more water. i can't think of a better explanation than this.

Or can the incessant rain be the tropical version of a snowy christmas???
Instead of a WHITE christmas, we're having a WET one. nowonder people get kinda depressed during this period. like cracking our heads for gift ideas are not enough, we have to put up with bad weather...this also means we have one hand less to carry the shopping bags cus you'll probably have to use one to hold an umbrella.

I hate crowds. that explains why i was drinking coffee at starbucks, people-watching with glynis on christmas eve. we couldn't think of a more innovative way to celebrate christmas, and there was nothing quite merry about it. the countdown was kinda random cus who knows which clock to follow? and off went the poppers...i don't do poppers btw...it's the next closest thing to a bomb, followed by balloons. if there's a device to measure my excitement level seconds before and after the countdown, it should read "anti-climax". at best, we settled with a movie marathon. it could've been on any ordinary day but that's the best alternative to avoid the smelly crowd yet not bore ourselves at home.


Orchard Road in the morning was disgusting. On christmas day, that is. the smell of party ribbons and sticky foam on the ground was unbearable. the aftermath is really not a tourist-friendly sight, considering our clean history. the eves of special occassions is like a ticket to destroy. i can't help but wonder if s'poreans are really that oppressed on the other 363 days in the island. it's a real pity for the cleaning personnels. they must be cursing away at those people.

the only thing that was so chrismassy about this christmas was that christmas songs are ringing continuosly in my head, except for the time i fell asleep on the first train back.

"Chestnuts roasting on an open fire...Jackfrost snipping at your nose..."

MX!

@ Balcony Bar

am i tired or am i just bad at drinking? well, take me drinking someday to find out k? i'm curious too...cus i really don't think 2 glasses of vodka lime can knock me out...haha. i wasn't knocked out lah, if i am then i won't be blogging now.

Anyways, was at Balcony Bar for my volleyball senior's 21st birthday.
it kinda set me thinking how i should plan mine next year... chalet's a bit cliche but it's the most convenient....blah blah blah.... maybe it's still early to be brooding over such stuff.

Balcony Bar is at the Heeren's [f.y.i]. it costs like $2000+ for 20 to 30+ guests....what a bomb! but my lucky senior's got a rich and doting dad...
if i were to hold my birthday there i'll not invite those "SaiKang" friends for sure. don't waste my money man...but if they don't drink also a bit wasted cus it's all in the package.

Totally in our own world...haha!
...Glyn and me

***just recieved a msg from jiayi lim. it reads "i miss you. Good Night!"
realised how i've been "neglecting" her for tv....i'm such a lousy friend.

boo. i better sleep now. i can actually feel the vessels breaking out in my eyeballs....

Ai[4] Mei[3] Bu[4] Yao[4] Ming[4]

Heels are so Lovely.

They make me taller, make my legs seem longer and my esteem higher.

BUT!

They cause so much pain and discomfort. i had a hard time getting used to.

Still, i'm proud of myself. i donned this dainty pair of heels for half a day.

New Best Friends...

when i was 9, i had 5 best friends...now, i'm still friends with 4 and lost 1 [she's "MIA"].

when i was 14, i had 3 best friends....now, i've had 2 of them in my friendster contacts, and had fallen-out with 1.

when i was 16, i had 2 best friends....they're still with me now but i'm closer to 1.

when i was 18, i had 2 best friends....one of them's attached and we hardly meet, and i always hang out with the other until today.

Now that i'm 20, i have ANOTHER 2 best friends....haha.....

Meet my New Best Friends...

Heehee...my lecture mates, tutorial mates, lunch kakis, gossip providers, laughter generators and my best companions in NUS!!! my lovely Jiemeis!

my point is, everyone of us has different sets of best friends at different point of our lives and sometimes it can be tiring to maintain...especially when we get seperated. But best friends aren't just friends....they don't come and go....they're here to stay. it just takes effort.

sometimes you can't help feeling tired over who's gonna organise the next outing, who's not gonna make it for one, who's always busy with their own lives and boyfriends. you get pissed, you get frustrated mostly because you don't have a boyfriend. you flare and then ignore....and after that feel bad for it. you've known each other like forever yet you still hate their attitudes sometimes. of cus, you know they're like that, you know their character but you can't help getting mad. They say things you don't like to hear, or mean things to your face. you tick it off as they're just jealous. then you start to wonder, why are You all even best friends when you get so irritated with their flaws??

But at the end of the day when we get to meet, we laugh our hearts out, we make each other smile. that's what matters.

haha. maybe that's what friends are for.

Hapenning Holiday! - japanese students, glorious food and some other happening stuff....

Finally managed to put up the Christmas tree!!! we were a lil late this yr but who cares!!! and the presents at the foot of our tree are all real okay!!! just that i already know what are inside...

...this yr's Xmas resolution: EVRYTHING HAS TO BE CHRISMASSY!!! SO, to begin with, i sewed a brand new christmas collar for muffy!!!!! aaaawww..... just look at him.....isn't he adorable........

at the rate he's prancing around in the house everyday, i might as well grant him his christmas wish of being a reindeer!!! lol....and from the look on his face, his probably gratefu......right?

the chrismassy-mood inspired me so much i had to paint my nails according to the theme. but good things don't last man....i cleaned it off already.....the faceshop nail enamels ain't all perfect you know.....

it's a happenning holiday cus i've finally started my driving lessons!!!! yay!!!! driving's so fun!!! it's really a relevent skill, depite the cost-factor..... even if you have a chauffer, even if you like ppl driving you around, even if you don't think you need to learn....it's good to pick it up someday. despite the couple of blunders i've had in my first lesson, it's still fun!

the eve of my dad's flight to India [again], we went to have a sumptuous dinner at the MushroomPot at the Inoddor Stadium! wah... the food was indescribable man!!! a whole lot of mushroom cuisines to your likings!! lol. i never know mushrooms tasted soooo good! and the mushroom brewed steamboat.................speechless................... and i drank a tiny cup of sakae!
ummm.....it tasted like nail polish remover...the scent of it kinda burns ur nostrils....lol...... and you should finish it warm....i think it'll taste nicer with sushi though...

Finally....i just completed my first hosting job! at first when i recieved the preparations list i thought it's gonna be damn sian and troublesome. but lucky me!!!! it was super fun and engaging!!! the students were easy to get along with and we had lotsa fun!!! all of them even gave the hosts gifts from Japan! so nice!!! though we had some problems with communication, it doesn't stop us from oggling over the characters in Hana Yori Dango!! hee.. the worst part was the walking....and i was super tired and even fell aslp in the train back home. i think i drooled a bit too....whahaahaa.

...and did i tell you the guys in yy's group were soooooo cute??? kawaiii!!! s'porean guys r a bit um.......you know, compared to them? lol. they don't even look like they're 16 or 17 can?! hai~~ wasted.... but luckily our 2 grps took neoprint 2gether!!!! happy happy!!!

oh!!! and i went for Keith's poolside buffet the other day... he didn't change a lot i suppose...still as decent looking as ever... and nicholas teo n gang still as crappy as ever....some things just never change...conclusion drawn: NS guys r pretty much deprived...or maybe it's just them. just realised mi lu bing is keith's churchmates... and i saw their gfs...haha

k lemme think... what other happening stuff?? ooh!!! i bought 2 pairs of shoes and my mummy bought 3!! happenning right??!?!? lol...

and i'm going cycling on wed with my jiemei-men.......yeppy!!!!

TREAT FOR ALL!!!!

These are especially for all you PERVs out there.....

Muffy: "so ur gonna trade green bonies for my bathroom shots? okay, it's a deal!"

"OooOoo....the water's sooooo cold!!!!"

"I'm getting ALLLLL soapy here...."

"I personally don't like this close-up shot...it makes me look retarded"

"Is it Over yet???? damn, i look like a squirrel!"

Old habits die hard. actually, it's not really old.

I know i should be studying......bleah..... so sian....... no entries, no tags..... haaaaa...

why like that?????

just finished my Soci paper at 9 today. this is the first time since my A levels that i'm waking up at 6 in the morning. i was the earliest. every other day after i finished my A's i'm never the one waking up first. i love it. OTOT [own time own target].

Wana have a taste of freedom? Try a dose of OTOT!

i realised....i'm never gonna touch soci again. i hate theories.......all theories are bloody flawed....critics will come up with new ones....and then they're flawed too....then someone heroic will criticise it, and then there's the birth of a new theory...and then the critics continue cricticzing it...and then....and then... and then..... it's a damn vicious-cycle. You know women are vicious, but guess what?? theories w/o functioning brains can be vicious too! luckily i'm not insane enough to exhaust my entire lifetime studying theories.......

One thing i know for sure.....i cannot agree more that Uni- exams are much less demanding than A levels. Study a bit also can pass.....study more even better, can score....consistency plus revision, don't skip tutorials and lectures and [if you're lucky enough to get good project mates] can Ace the module. haha...what a warped and superficial theory.

i coin this MATTY'S ULTRA SUPERFICIAL THEORY for survival in NUS. in short, it's a "MUST"

damn...i see theories flying around...........feminist, conflict, functionalist, control, symbolic interactionist...............

there's a social explanation to everything you do. Dial 1900-so-cio-lo-gy for the answer!

listened, appalled, enlightened...

can i even trust guys now??? hmmm, i really don't know. now i finally realised we can never model our love lives after some popular drama serial....reality's not even close.

You must expect the unexpected if not reality is gonna hit you hard at your face. cus people never seem to be who they are. Behind every pretty face you see, there's always an ugly scar hidden somewhere. beneathe that thick make-up, is an entire face of blemish concealed. and underneathe all the branded and seemingly glamourous clothes, god knows who you'll find.

Seriously, what is normal? Varsity life's all about smoking, clubbing, skipping lectures, making out with your new found friend and sex is it? this is as natural as pouring a glass of water to some. but it's really, really not the norm. does that mean my life will be dull and unhappenning without all that crap? no what.....

i find consolation to the fact that i'm not guilty of any of the above. okay, maybe the skipping lectures part. i don't have to strive to be simple. i am simple. people say i look like i always club but the truth is, i hate it. that's why you can never judge someone from their appearance.

not to say that people who indulge in those activities are evil or sinful.... they have different values in life, so whatever....

maybe cus i watch a lot of tv and dramas...that's why i tend to idealize the way my life should be like according to what i see.... but the more i know these days the more my ideals get crushed. and now all the more i'll put myself on guard. in the first place, i was never really generous in letting guys in.

i should really come back down to earth.

ha.hahaha....

what kind of a ***** calls people a ***** and names him/herself sweet ? seriously......

i almost died laughing reading it. oh well....for once, i thought people i don't know actually reads my blog. YAY. *rolls eyes* too bad i only have one pair of eyes if not i'll keep rolling them till they fall off the sockets.

anyway.... we can't stop people from tagging us cus the tagboard's precisely there for that reason. we also can't help the fact that those people can be assholes who apparently thinks that they're some kind of virtuous blog moderators who goes around calling people a ***** for saying stuff they don't like to hear....using degratory language. how righteous. if you realise, i didn't say the country's bad, or i hate it.....

flood my tagboard with all ur stewpid ***************** for all i care..... i don't really give a shit. but i do hope you find better stuff to do. =)

okay....haha. thanks for giving me inspiration to blog on something worthwhile though, whoever you are..... lol.

To Manga junkies out there....go watch 'Hana Yori Dango' [ japanese version of meteor Garden] on youtube. it's more straight to the point, not draggy and has better looking characters in there. and the best thing is. got english subtitles!!! quite worth watching...only 9 episodes though. each episode has 5 parts and the last one has 7.

Cheers!

WArning

NOW is really not a very good time to irritate me.

NOW will constitute days like TODAY, right this moment you're reading this, and the rest of the week to come.

Biologists coin this PMS. Heck it, to me it's no different from a 'DND' written on my face.

SO,

1) Do not impose yourself upon me and tell me things i don't like to hear.

2) If you have nothing nice to say, DON'T.

3) This is not the time to criticize me or my opinions alike.

4) Pardon me for my bluntness.

This is by no means a childish manifestation of my attitude, but rather my very polite version of an appeal to potential irritants.

Potential irritants can mean even a passing ant. See, the thing is, even ants are not half as irritating as humans. it's ironically those with proper-working brains that are asses.

I'm living on pain killers... the doc says it's Tension Headache. oh okay, i see....but wtf does that mean.

Goodbye Mr pain-in-the-a** tuition kid!
The one thing i've taken away with me [besides the pay] is the realisation that you can never get too comfortable with your student cus they'll eventually climb over your head like a MONKEY. not literally of cus. i'm sorry to say but his mom is paying me PEANUTS and she still wants to bargain. So you're not rich, SO AM I! and i'm not exactly interested in doing charity. even if i am, i wouldn't choose YOUR kid. bleah.

Daddy's flying off to India today...Goodbye, we'll miss him. but why doesn't he wana bring the two cup noodles i bought for him?!?!? ungrateful. very unglam meh? i'd reckon eating curry at an street stall unglam, and ultra unhygenic. C'mon daddy, pack up your ego, AND the cup noodles...i'm only saying this for your own good.

Jolyn's gonna post abstracts of her AS essay in her blog soon. 1st, read the Qn. 2nd, read that paragraph. 3rd, you'll feel your eyebrows twitching. 4th, you'll break into uncontrollable laughter. if you don't find it funny, fret not. this requires some extent of intellectual humour. So, if you don't laugh, it just means you have low EQ.

COld war is B-O-R-I-N-G. if i stayed for the entire lecture, i might DIE. so Jolyn and i left dring break. Pathetic. i have nothing against you and your deliverance, Dr Quek, Cold war simply puts me to sleep.

JUST my personal opinion. i think Xiaxue is really a cool blogger. you should read her blog and then your own. i know we all have our own styles but you gotta applaud professional bloggers like her. really impressive, and entertaining.

yet another boring post right. in case you all still don't get my tone, i'm kinda moodless and irritable. it's a good thing s'pore bans pte ownership of weapons. if not i'm so damn sure ppl will attempt to gun me down. the thing is, i've read many blogs. and i'm darn sure i won't be the first to die.

Meet XIAO HEI!!!

HI ALL!!! meet my new lappy XIAO HEI!!!! lol it's the coolest, sleekest, classiest and most effecient laptop you'll ever see[assuming all other laptops do not exist.] hahahhahahaaa....

Please bear with me okay, as you know, there are very lil things for me to hao lian or even blog about these days.....i can feel myself tearing at the corner of my eye from reading my previous posts.....they're pathetically BORING. lol. hard to find interesting stuff to blog when you're living a seemingly DULL life [for now since exams are coming ].


i like its shiny black surface! there're silver wavelines on the
entire black surface if you see carefully


















nice!!!! n it's MINE!

heh heh..not bad right... it's the new HP entertainment notebook. the reason i love it so much is cus its exclusively MINE!!! absolutely no sharing. there's a point for this ok...in case anything goes wrong at least i know it's my own problem....so i won't have to blame anyone. i'm cultivating responsibility okay....lol.

AND you must be wondering my daddy must love and pamper me soooo much he keeps showering me with extravagence...NO!!!! you're so wrong!!! reason being i spoilt my sis' chic-and-very-expensive-BenQ-limited-edition laptop. oops....i honestly felt bad [mainly because my JS essay was saved inside and there's no back up]. buthen i cannot possibly admit that i dropped the laptop in the toilet [which did happen]....but it was with the cover so i didn't think it would matter. but guess what..something DID happen and it's on repair now....poorthing. my family must have guessed it lah...they know all my 'patterns' already so they probably knew i was denying. so they keep reminding me what a lousy and careless person i am. lol. my sis was worst lor. she kpkb-ed all the way like she never crash her laptop before. accidents do happen you know....that's why i'm going to implement the 'no-sharing' rule. hmph.

so daddy bought this and in case anything happens, i'll have to be responsible...hohoho...sounds like a good deal to me. anyways, i'll probably need one for school. thanks to nus' VERY EFFECIENT online learning environment that makes it almost a neccessity to go online EVERYDAY. sian. "i totally love to download my own lecture slides on the IVLE everyday to print and not worry about paper jam and wasting my ink and papers."

my foot.

and it must be KARMA...like cherine Lau always says....she can go on about KARMA all day. cus i spoilt fefe's lappy tt's why i have to rewrite the damn essay. and that kuku headache must be part of the KARMA too. dammit!!! one week already still pain. sian bo.......

the bottom line is....i have a cool new lappy!!!

Sis' Not Home....

HA HA HA. Felicia lau Wan Lin's not home....WHY?? oh, cus she's having fun at a chalet.....hoho.
bet she's gonna miss her bed. talking about her bed. it's totally disgusting.

FYI, she forbids me to post her pictures in the blog, friendster...practically wherever she thinks will threaten the circulation of her photos. well i won't blame her since she's undergoing this ultra image conscious period where she's so convinced that everything looks ugly on her. okay, if she says so....

She's the most messy and unhygenic person i've ever known [in my family]. though i'm not exactly very clean, but at least i attaempt to make myself seem so. lemme show you an example of her gross-bed. and for goodness' sake. BEDS ARE SUPPOSED TO LOOK COSY AND CLEAN AND NEEDLESS TO SAY IT HAS TO SMELL GOOD.

A Fine example of what a bed should look like. JUST LOOK AT HER'S!!!!





















Still got more gross one.... can u see the piece of used tissue paper in her bed??? eeeewww!!!! i wonder if it's mucus or booger....

jUST look at her 'bao bao'.
urh.....horrible right. just let u in on a lil secret. she ever slept with muffy's shit stains in her bed before. she's just to lazy to be bothered and her bed's not too different from a toilet bowl anyways. LOL!

I'm such a nice sister...i dedicated this entire entry to her. she must be so touched...i'm gonna prepare tt used piece of tissue for her to wipe her tears. wahahahahaaaa.....

Pain Like Hell!!!!!!!!!!!

I so want to drill a hole in my head can?!?!??? the kuku headache is killing me!!!!!
and HAO TONG BU TONG ZAI WO write essay tt time TONG!!!!!

Whoever u are, STOP WACKING my HEAD!!! it's drving me crazy man!!!!!!!!!!! *growls*

Bloody Hell....can you even imagine trying to write a history essay and tt asshole headache keeps cutting off your thoughts?!??! then u need to re think, and re write, and re edit a zillion times?! WTF. if this goes on i can might as well knock the daylight outta myself. POS.....

Anyways, my dad was telling us he heard someone kicking at our gate the other night. what, AGAIN?!?!?!?!? This is not really a good time to piss me off, neighbour. and he better stop it while i'm still politely calling him my neighbour. if i ever catch him doing that again i'll confirm break his bloody leg!!!! so what now? he's so poor he cannot afford medication anymore??!?!? did my maid tried to seduce him? WTF. i hope his leg get trapped in the gate the next time he kicks it and helpful me will be MORE THAN GLAD to relief him from entrapment. i'll make sure i chop off his damn leg and tie a ribbon around it to return him!!!!

Let's just see who's more insane. dammit.

people around me in school are like damn stressed out. only me and yy seem to be cruising like we're on a holiday...is it a bad thing? partially i guess. some are totally, extremely, absolutely stressing over everything! and it's contagious man!!! i'm trying hard not to be affected. and thankfully i'm sane... though i'm not exactly coping well but no use complaining now already..... it's just sem 1, we need time to adjust. whatever.

K, back to tt sucker who has this thing about kicking our gate. not that i wana say but he's really a nuisance to society and is potentially endangering the lives of other people, especially us. Either we strike it big in 4D or TOTO and shift the bloody-hell outta here, or he can please do us all a favour by smuggling drugs and be caught and hanged soon.....i'm sorry.....i'm being a tat too mean but I WON'T be if you perish from the face of the earth.

Do us all a fovour man, Die DIe DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bacardi is alcohol....right?

haha. im not an alcoholic, don't get me wrong. i was just curious about my limits. and no, i didn't down it sitting at a bar or some cool club....i was in my own kitchen. i chanced upon this big bottle of Bacardi and it reads "40% alcohol". WAH! cool man....so i took out a small glass and poured half full of bacardi inside. then i added 2 ice....and then i tried a sip...it burns ur throat man! but i can't possibly waste it so i was darn determined to finish the whole thing. smart me, i added a bit of 7up and drank it all in one shot.

they always say you'll become drunk faster if you drink quickly but i think i'm just good at it. haha. i'm not drunk and i can still walk straight...just that i feel damn sleepy. oh well, it's inherited from my dad maybe. i told him i drank a small glass of his Bacardi and he was like "wwwHHATT?!?!!?" haha... alcohol doesn't seem to have an effect on me apparently. and it tastes bad. lol. my dad says Bacardi's suppose to go with coke. oh heck it, if i could i'd just drink it without anything. i'll be really ineterested to know what i'll be like when i'm drunk.

Btw, does anyone of you know who Emmet Till is? or rather, who he was? his story will make your heart sink so deep you'll wana cry. it really makes me wonder why the world is so cruel to some and why must innocent people be made an example before a society is willing to make a change. Racial conflict is a horrible, horrible thing. it's hard to imagine how a superpower like the US had so much underlying bad-blood and unglamorous past which constituted to what it has become today. 'learn from mistakes', but inevitably, innocent souls will be lost along the way.
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Ultra cool blogskin, Jiayi.

Makes me wonder why mine looks so shitty...

Headaches are coming back...literally. there's a reason for this. i remember a certain evening when i was still schooling in MI, i was on my way home from volley training...then i got striked on the back of my head on the bus by a secondary school girl's elbow, ACCIDENTALLY. then the headache started 2 days after.... the pain is like someone striking on your head. it's just like a visit from an old friend which i don't particularly like.

Guess what man, my lappy's dead. the hard disk got corrupted....and the best part was my JS essay project is inside...luckily i was mentally prepared for the worst. the typical me will start crushing papers and kicking chairs.....

my dad says i have a bad temper: i agree. my mum says i'm acutely impatient: very true. my sister thinks i'm a tyrant: to a large extent, yes. my cousin thinks i'm bossy: nothing new.
it pretty much concludes the fact that i'm an ass at home..........so the real me is like that.

this is my most horribible flaw...which you will never see.

At Long Bloody LAST!

heh heh... finally we're wrapping up our New Media Project!!!

so the final meeting's at the library's media room...and as usual, we made a lot of noise. well, it's not suprising with me and yy around. lol! Apple-Girls are happening, what to do?? lol.

we're currently recruiting new members. Irene's our target! cus she's super comical...always don't know what's going on and stuff... her expressions are classic man! haha. but she's really sweet.

Anyways, so cus we were making lotsa noise then this disgusting guy made a big fuss abt it. oh well, other people are also laughing out loudly while watching their videos what. totally don't know what's on his mind. and to think that he's using headphones.

my lappy died on me.....WHY?! WHY why WHY Why?! hai~ it's just simply sucky. so sucky that it's hard to comprehend. but thanks to apple girl no. 1, i managed to control my frustrations. haha...and while the rest were editing the project, we made ourselves useful by not interupting.... instead we entertained ourselves with my handphone. lol!!!

Apple-girl no.1 : Ong yee Yuan Apple girl no. 2: Mat Lau

wahahahhaaaa...totally "ai YEn" [as in Love to act]. lol.

interested individuals please make sure you fulfill the following requirements:

1) you love to eat applechips

2) you love to make lotsa noise

3) you are ultra-gifted in facial expressions [espacially ugly ones]

4) you watch 'yu le bai fen bai'

5) you still eat a lot on diet

6) you must be as animated as possible

7) you're not a boring person

....well, more regulations will be published after our closed-door meeting.

Do you feel cold???? cus i'm freezing after typing all that.

totally 'leng'.

This is really the LAST TIME.

Okay, i'm never gonna do it again. this is the very last chance i'm giving myself.

what did i do? hmmm....i'll tell you all when i see the outcome.

now all i can do is hope, pray and wish for it to happen. i really need an answer to this if not i'll never ever be able to sleep peacefully. and hopefully, it'll just put a stop to everything. whatever happens, i'm gonna stay positive. i still have my life to live.....oh wells....

wish me all the best everyone!!!! i desperately need it!!!

'Por Por's' Birthday Chalet!!!!

yeah! it's our family's once a yr chalet cum gathering cum the celebration of my granny's birthday!!! guess what? she's already like 85? lol....and she's still so healthy and cheery...

oh well, that's cus she has lotsa of kids and grankids and grand-grand kids to take good care of her.

the chalet was damn fun..apart from the glorious variety of food, my cousins were damn funny lah.... especially when the play mah jong! and i just watched them play from 12 to 6 in the morning....yes, i was just watching. i can see their eyes red yet they still refuse to leave their seats. lol finally around 6am i cannot take it anymore so i slept on the sofa. and despite the two-story huge aloha resort chalet i didn't have any place to sleep cus of my m'sian cousins who came...so desperate that i ended up sleeping of a sofa in between two mah jong tables....and they were still playing merrily away....

i only got some peaceful sleep at 8 in the morning when some of my relatives woke up to let us get some sleep in the room. so me, my mom and my other cousin was sleeping on 2 mattresses on the ground and my just married cousin slept on the bed with her husband.......just when i thought i could find peace in the room...i felt so sorry for merely thinking about it man. my cousin's husband snored like mad the moment his head touched the pillow lor. wah lau eh!!!!! and yet my cousin can continue sleeping like a dead log..... i really salute her. can u imagine she's gonna sleep with him for the rest of her life??!! and his snoring have different tones and variations. very zai.it came to a point that i had to hypnotise myself to get sleep. in the end, i slept for only 3 hrs.......this is definitely the down-side of chalets........

i love bacon! i love pork chop!

i really hate myself sometimes....

Do you ever feel like you've actually said something you didn't want to until it's already been said??? it seems to be happening to me more often these days. it's totally frustrating.
they occur in all forms and situations.................and after saying it you feel like slapping yourself.

then sometimes you become over dramatic over small things. you make a fool outta yourself but when all's said and done, you feel stupid and lame. because you know it's not you...because you know you're taking after someone you've seen on tv or the person you always hangout with. your instincts tell you to do some soul-searching but what if no matter how hard you try you can't find it?

if there is anyone with an ambiguous character, i have to be one of them. sometimes i want myself to be funny, sometimes i crave to be different...but most of the time i just wana know who i really am.

My Fridays are like Mondays....

think it's the other way round...cus Mondays for me are always light and easy...i just need to go through everything in 45mins. haha. Fridays are a dread. how ironic right? i have tutorial at 10 in the morning then a 5 hr interval till my American Studies lecture at 4. plain Sian. Sian like hell... SIan like there's no tomorrow...all my fault cus never choose my modules properly....

guess what? i'm now using Jolyn's lappy to blog while she's happily feasting at the deck with our AS friends....don't feel like joining cus i think we got 'dai gou' or age gap if u wana know... haha. not that they're much older than me but i feel that i can't really relate to their topics. so now i'm sitting in the multimedia room together with a dozen of other people who're mostly watching movies....the only good thing about this is we MIND our OWN BUSINESSES...lol.

Jiayi and Janice are busy mugging....GOOD GOOD!!! so i shan't disturb them. jiayou my friends!!!

JS project meeting just now didn't take long....[at this point, i'm pausing for quite a few secs to listen to this lousy rendition of 'high high high' by kelly phoon and Shi Xing Huey.....] rather, i'm quite horrified by it.....it sounds damn random...damn weird....cus Xin Huey's voice was clearly better than Kelly's..yet they sounded like they're in a KTV...think this is from the concert they had....oh well...this is not my lappy...so the songs are kinda funny to me...a bit ancient...but amongst those novel ones i manage to sieve out some good ol' tunes which used to play over and over again on my discman...like Jay's 'Kai Bu Liao Kou' and Utada Hikaru's 'First Love'.... classics man.

Oh and she has Kiss Goodbye too....woooo.....love it. oh talking about AS....remember the shit test i took the other time? we finally got it back at tutorial today. i thought i was gonna be super screwed for not studying enough and not having a single idea what i was writing then...but it seems the lecturer either likes me or is super lenient. according to Jolyn, who got a B-[after whining like hell with me after the test], she's not lenient. okay, so i thought maybe she just simply likes us then...i got a C. i really honestly felt i was going to FAIL. BTW, the lecturer really know our names man...as in the 2 of us.... she can practically take our attendence without raising her head to check....and when she asked us to collect our papers, mine was on top so she keep saying 'this is mathilda's, pass to her..' and my poor paper was passed from one to another and so forth......lucky the grade wasn't on the cover....it's not that she has good memory but she remembers people selectively...she even knows if we change tutorial classes......maybe we're both short and cute that's why she remembers us so well........ haha......

Thanks uncle, but i'm not pregnant.

....this is exactly what i wanted to tell this nice uncle who offered me a seat on the train. just when you thought all kind hearted considerate souls are dead, there's still a handful of pleasant people around.

but the problem is this:

1) I'M NOT PREGNANT AND I CERTAINLY DON'T LOOK LIKE IT (i was wearing this sleeveless top which is kinda tight, shorts and my tummy was FLAT.)

2) I'M NOT OLD AND I DON'T LOOK SICKLY.

3) I HAVEN'T BROKE ANY BONES ON MY BODY. (and even if i did, it's not like anyone can figure out)


i can only think that the uncle is being gentlemenly...for offering me a seat. of cus i didn't take it considering i'm alighting the next stop. so i just smiled slightly at him and refused.

of cus there're probably tonnes of inconsiderate people around not only in trains but in buses and other public places as well.....you can only thank god that you're not one of them. posting pictures online isn't very heroic either. if it really bothers you so much or maybe your instincts are really crying out loud for you to do the right thing, why don't you call the police or tell the people off right away? i'm sure all of us did commit in inconsiderate behaviour consciously or subconsciously but it's not so severe as to be humiliated for it right? maybe they'll feel a great sense of achievement for doing it or maybe they thought they've done society a huge favour but if you look at it in a different way, the method is a bit unethical.

i've also dissed people whom i think are horrible but now when i think back, i should just feel lucky that i don't behave like them. thank god i have a good mind, my parents teach me well. though i can't gaurantee that i won't be irritated by these people again, at least i won't go into drastic methods like naming people, posting their pictures or use degratory terms on them. seriously, how much can a picture tell? in case you all are wondering, i'm refering to the new paper headlines today. my dad always tell me that manners are taught, no one's born with it. so what if people are born innocent? innocence is a form of ignorance and ignorance causes inconvenience to others. that's why you can only feel sorry for them........

Sleepy but can't sleep. Tired but must still work.

i'm like so sleepy now... i've not been getting good rest since the start of that damn soci mid term examination. after all the late nights and hair-loss i still turned in a lousy paper [in my opinion] let's just see the results.

i've been religiously watching 'Yu Le Bai Fen Bai' which surprises me considering i've never really stick to doing something for very long yet i make it such an important ritual now. this is also why i lack sleep cus i always stay up late at night to watch the repeat. it's dumb but at least it gives me excuse to study a bit while waiting.

i've still got to go for New Media project meeting later!!!! lucky it's at khatib if not i'd just kill myself. MORE work's piling up yet there're so many projects to rush.

Glyn msged and asked me abt going to Rain's concert. i vowed to go before i knew how insanely inflated the ticket prices were. NOW, i really don't know.....like not worth it leh. $188 can me a really good seat at David Tao's concert but Rain will be as good as a tiny spec of dust since tt's the lowest ticket price. should i just save for my Taiwan trip next yr or spend it on this once in a lifetime concert?? hmmmm.....tt's something for me to consider when i feel more awake....

for now, i wana get some sleep. at least a quick nap b4 i go for the meeting.

the quote for the day [and for many days to come]: I HATE PROJECTS!

I see troubles coming....

Why the sudden surge of enthusiasm in blogging? well, as you can see, i changed my blogskin and i'm more than satisfied with it. it just pleases me silly each time i see it...heh heh.... i had to change the skin again and again thanks to some 'Valued-critic' of mine...for now, this will be it!

JIAYI LIM ur tag is BORING ok B-O-R-I-N-G!!!! as in it makes me wana ZzZzZzZz....
please be more creative....you can do better. other than that, make sure u keep ur promise. ;)

OKAY, the troubles.... i have so much unfinished projects at hand which i need to rush. it probably didn't occur to me that i'm still blissfully enjoying myself slipping in and out of school like i'm so FREE and this HAS to change. of cus i've started muggin but at a creeping rate. Soci mid term test starts tmr and i hope i can at least squeeze something credible outta the 3 days i have to complete it. i dread essays! anyway, that's not all, American Studies also has essay assignments......damn........ who says Uni's easier???? i can see this rising tide coming from far and it's pretty soon gonna consume the whole of me....maybe at least my head....

Now i wana whine about something which happened today. my 1st day back in school after recovery. so excited, so looking forward to CT tutorial cus of the discussion topic "erotic fiction in historical China" yy and i thought this one sure, confirm plus CHOP won't bore us to death this time...so we met early in the morning and reached school by 10. normally we'll be late, at least we won't wana be caught dead for being the earliest. but guess what huh? it's simply 'marvelous' . no ones in class and the lights were off...... ok lor. so stupid. didn't know this week have no tutorial.....shit man. wasted. high-spirits totally dampened. our only source of consolation is that the topic will be discussed on the next tutorial. btw, we're not perverts. it just explains how dry the module is....lol. so we had to eat breakfast at the deck.....and there's nothing i can eat cus of my huge ulcer.....sucks!

Japanese Studies was kinda lame today. film appreciation and sadly, both were cartoons. very 'duh' lor. one is like cutsey cutsey kind the other super violent. gosh. and we had to watch the 2nd one in the library after soci tutorial. i didn't understand that film AT ALL. one moment i see a gang ripping off the shirt of a girl the other moment some weird looking kid-mutants are blasting each other into pieces...what's on their minds man. and someone's feet stinks lor........ what's worst, i already don't quite get the film and this 'Ang moh' lecturer barged in and asked us to stop watching cus it's already 6 [his turn to use the theatrette]. wah lau eh.... it's just like another 10 mins more also cannot wait?! what's his problem?!?!?!?!??!?!?!!!

whatever lah, the point is, i have to start managing my time wisely. it's WISELY, not properly, considering my current so-called proper time-management is a disaster. tmr have to skip abit of AS lecture for ARTsClub Marketing meeting. so excited..... wonder what kinda people i'll meet.

DOWN WITH FEVER

The good thing was, i did managed to pull-through the entire ROM procedure and the high tea....bad thing was, duh....i felt miserable as soon as i got home...

Something funny happened at the ROM though, my cousin and my in law had to attend to some admin stuff in the building so we had to wait outside for awhile and she asked me to hold her bouquet of flowers for her. so i was sitting next to my aunty and she next to my mom then my uncle then my 'biao ge' as in my male cousin who's 3 yrs older than me. people who walked past kept starring at me and i wondered why. then i noticed only the brides were holding the bouquets so i asked my aunty if the people will think that i'm a bride. my goodness...they started laughing and joking about it and even suggested that people may think that me and my 'biao ge' were going to get married but we're sitting far away from each other cus we just had a fight. bleah....... bad joke. it's damn embarrassing so i quickly pushed it to my aunty.

After the whole event ended my family: dad, mom, me and kelly [my biao jie] drove to Vivo City.......my dad has been bugging us for the past few days about bringing us there cus he wanted to show-off the creations of he and my uncle's company. apparently the ribbon structures in the shopping centre and the huge "Vivo City" sign outside the building was constructed by their company. i wasn't much impressed until we reached the place. then i finally understood why he was so proud of it. the structures were pretty amazing. we didn't shop but merely toured the place with my dad navigating us around [like as if he owned the place] haha, but i can understand since he spends most of the time in that place. the outdoors was damn cool and we actually felt like we're in Sydney or something....but, it's only halfway complete and the shopping Centre will only officially open in Dec.

I figured something sadistic too....that if i'm sick or if i had fever, i'll get lotsa attention and care...haha...suddenly i felt so loved by my family and muffy. Like if i whine a bit and ask for water, it'll just come to me. haha. muffy stuck with me all day today like as if he knew he had to look after me. what a good boy. i didn't have to go to school today obviously....thanks to the haze. it's weird man, i used to have to worry about getting an MC for skipping school but not anymore. the doc asked if i needed an MC and i was like "umm.....no need lah". this will never happen in my sch-Uniform days.

Right this moment, i'm doing a lot of things all at once. i'm wrapping up my soci essay [due tomorrow], listening to a lecture Webcast [on gender and sexuality], downloading season 4 of One tree Hill [on youtube], eating my minced pork porrige, chatting on Msn and blogging. tell me about the wonders of multi-tasking. Now you see why older generations can never understand us? cus they can't keep up with what we're so used to. ;)

Mathilda, the auto-flush girl....

the part about the auto-flush is in the last para:

the Haze is getting the better of me. think i'm falling sick cus my throat has been like damn painful the past few days. somemore i don't usually get ulcers, the fact that i'm having one in my mouth n0w only reiterates my point.

i wasn't supposed [as in i didn't plan] to wake up that early today cus i'm skipping lecture and tutorial for my cousin's ROM. but i was feeling damn uneasy man. my throat got worse and i have a slight fever. bad weather bad health. yet there's nothing anyone can do to stop the haze except to pay their medical bills.

k that's not so interesting. whatever, i haven't been an interesting blogger anyways. bleah. but i find this damn funny lah... me and yy have this CT groupmate who's kinda queer. he tells us he's a very complicated person. so we were at Spinelli in our school....OH! yy is so dumb! haha...she saw this Spinelli poster at the deck which says $2.10 per cup of Original Spin and got so excited so we decided to go there for our project meeting since we have free shuttle to the University Hall. i didn't really pay attn to the poster but apparently it looked kinda out-dated to my other friend. so we went to order the Spins but they were all 3plus [though still cheaper than the outlets outside school]....we gave a 'sianz' look. so much for being cheapos...haha.

Our project groupmate got lost and ended up quite late. actually i'm partly to blame cus as you know, my sense of direction is warped so i told him it's opp the tennis courts. too bad, it's actually opp the tracks. oops! we started the discussion and we kinda drifted cus we asked him about his family and stuff... and it came to the part where he told us he's a very complicated person and we were like 'ooooooo...' but how?! ' like u've been to jail before?' and he was like 'almost' my god! me and yy stared at each other for awhile but quickly laughed it off. then he also told us he worked at construction sites before with the bangladeshi workers and he always disppear without telling anyone where he goes. die, what if he disappears with our project? lol. that won't happen, but it's quite obvious he's a smart guys. lol. he got like A- for his Soci tutorial...impressive huh....

the part where he suggested our creation of an online-genealogy should be called 'Gene-ster' made us stare at each other AGAIN before breaking into uncontrallable laughter. it's damn lame can. then yy said something like 'hao xia orh..' as in lame in Taiwanese lingo. he was actually serious about it.

after that yy and i went for our New Media tutorial. i think the tutor realised i've been quite inactive during class participation so she picked me to ans one. the thing is i wasn't really prepared so i have to think of something in school which has a bad interface, impromtu. i totally ran outta ideas so i suggested something which is super CMI. i told the class that the auto-flush systems in our school are redundant and it scares the users cus it flushes on it's own even before you finish using it. so if there's a manual button to flush, why fix an auto one? you mean people at our age still forgets to flush after use? i don't know if the tutor acknowleged my point but after saying it i felt pairs of eyes staring we down in a 'what were you thinking' manner. that's when i realised how shitty my example was. even my groupmates shook their heads and hid the faces. they'll forever see me as the 'auto-flush' girl and joke about me over meals......bleah. what a GREAT way to make people remember me.

it's so fun to have them around!!!!! collin, glyn and jacky are probably the best people you'll ever have around to sing with! but sadly, jacky's not in the picture....people have chalet ok..................
Nevermind, we had tonnes of fun anyways... we were role playing, acting like we're having some kinda concert and starring in some mtv... they're all recorded in my phone. i don't know how to attach them here so i can't show u all... lol. they were super duper corny! collin suggested uploading them in U-tube but well.. i dont wana be famous for the wrong reasons leh. haha.

and YES, photo whoring is like glyn and i's favourite pastime now man! looking retarded is no problem for her since she's naturally a good-looker. of cus i'll play along lah, but when i see my pics uploaded in the com, i really wana cry. what's worst when u're already not looking good and u still try so hard to look spastic? haha. but it's the fun that matters!! i figured since we're both single and have so much time to spare [when it seems like the whole damn world is attached], we'd get to spend more time together and have fun like singing, watching movies, bowling, pooling, swimming, beaching and BITCHING, blah blah blah. i know it's sweet hanging out with ur better halves but girlfriends are like indispensable in your life too? that's just what i think. at the end of the day, not all relationships [much as i'd beg to differ] lasts, but friendship does. it's bad to fallout with your bfs but it's worst to fallout with your friends.

i've lost that ability and interest to chat with my friends over the phone since don't know when. but if they're really down and out or need some entertainment, i'll gladly oblige! really! i still believe that many strong relationships are forged via the telephone. it's old school YES. it's time-consuming YES. but the purpose is always there...spend some quality time to catch up with someone with no distractions what so ever. it's good to meet up too but very often when u're out, u'll be too engrossed with ur surroundings etc. when was the last time u wanted to tell ur friend something and then the sight of this hot dress stole u away? see........

of cus, the wonders of technology always win over such a necessity. why should i waste my time calling my friend when i can just msg her an sms? i bet we're all excellent expression-interpretors of sms-es by now... like u can tell if the person's tone is happy, sad or angry. but it never kills to ring them up once in awhile to say hi right?

i just feel that as we age, the amount of workload and commitment increases.....less time for family, less time for friends. while we're still schooling at the moment, isn't it wise to spare time for each other. can u imagine when we're 30, and slogging our lives away for food sand shelter, do u even think we'll have the time to meet up and hang out? well if u're lucky, u marry a rich husband, maybe u'll have all that time in the world. but i'll not be that lucky.

That funny, awkward feeling

what kind of a guy makes me dream of him so often that it frustrates me?

the better the dream the worst i'll feel when i wake up. it's just plain irritating.
sometimes i feel like i'm running in circles.... after running for so long, i'll still return to the same ol' starting point. and it frustrates me when i know that he's always there.

bumping into someone responsible for my awkward past didn't help at all. she's like digging on my old wound. to think that we're not even friends now angers me more than ever. why did i even listen to her? my alter ego reminds me that i should blame myself. but what if the only means of consolation for me is to push it to others?

after all, no one likes to admit their mistakes. that i can say, i'm truly ironic. in hope of gaining acceptance and acknowledgement, i'll go around telling people it was my fault. to make people feel that i'm responsible enough to admit my mistakes and discredits. BUT, i can never say it to him myself. what matters anyway? it's already been so many years and he probably forgot all about it. maybe it's just me talking all these while. maybe. i think i'm thinking too much.

here's the deal, the answer to all my incessant speculations can be as easy as a phonecall or a message away. i can only wish that i've had greater courage. for now, i'll just continue to be haunted by those dreams. at least i can be happy in them.

what aunty?!

What Aunty?!

mirror mirror on the wall...please tell me i don't look old. please give me at least a single ray of hope and affirmation that i don't look like i've had 2 kids.......

which idiot with the right frame of mind would call me an aunty?! as in, genuinely feels that i look like one. my sister's friend did!!!! sucker....i feel freaking insulted can!!!
Mr NJC cum IP student cum potential scholar can't even tell apart a young lady from a 40 yr old aunty?! i'm not saying my mom look old lah but hello???? are his eyeballs diconnected from their circuits or something???? what's on his mind huh?????

what's wrong with dressing down and comfortable at home?! do i really look that auntified?!
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PISS OFF!







i'm so fed-up.







and i have tests next week...........AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

busy busy busy

a LONG LONG post!

it's been a busy week. i don't think anyone wana hear me rant and whine about it. what else man??? it's just sch.... no one's interested in me and my dull life i presume. lol. anyways, i feel weird for not blogging. it seems like a long over-due assignment of some sort which i kept postponing....bleah~~~

shall talk more abt interesting stuff now cus i realised tt i'm driving away readers with my boring to the bones kinda content.

ok, lemme see, let's start with the dinner with coach last week. it was damn damn damn fun lah....took lotsa pics which i still didnt have time to upload [ and u were wondering why i have the time to blog this] lol. lazy lah... but we had a good time trying to embarrass him in New York New York. wahahhaaaa... i'll really miss such gatherings man! lotsa laughter and dinner for free....

before that glyn n i went Holland V to visit Jolyn's flee market stall... those ppl must have thot we were mad for dressing up to go there....the scorching heat nearly killed us man. they were selling nice stuff but the heat really got the better of us so we HAD to run... n guess what, we wore heels... mine wasn't as high as glyn's 2 n a 1/2 inch. in fact it was puny compared to her's. damn funny.... we ended up paying for a new pair of novo flops each. they were so comfy tt we shopped around MS for hours...haha....

that was last week...this week was a busy week, like what i said earlier.... lol. think i can only blog once a week from now...boo...
just this evening, i was feasting, yes FEASTING at long beach in Eastcoast. my relative's treat of course.....the seafood was super duper 'zai' haha!!! i ate fresh jodak n lobster....FRESH ok. like sashimi.... OoOoOo....marvelous.

and i realised how 'out' i am...both my cousins [who r 18 btw], have boyfriends......aaahhhh....how i miss that feeling.... hmph. i can only watch. lol. not that i crave for one... it just makes me wonder, what's wrong with me???

the best thing was, there's this reknown fortune teller in our sch last week and he happend to briefly read my palm. his really 'zhun' as in accurate... he said something like i'm a very imaptient and short tempered person and i'm prone to seperation in relationships. which means if i don't like tt person anymore i'll just leave him....it's so scary cus it's kinda true.......

of cus, tt's something i'll never wana let my future bf know.... haha.