Today, i have a realisation.

In bad times, true friends come around. But it is also times like this people take you for a ride.

I don't need sympathy and i'm tired of telling people how it is now. It's not good. I'm not fine. I'm very affected.

Everytime i see my dad i wana cry. Now as i'm typing...i am crying. I don't know how much more tears is enough to get over this but somehow i don't want to get over.

I will forever remember what i learnt today -

"Trust" is just a word. It means nothing. It can might as well mean fuck to me now.

"Relatives" are relative. unimportant whatsoever.

Everyone is SELFISH. fucking selfish.

LAST OF IT

you how they always say in Tv shows that Jealousy and power can kill a person. And you and me, in all naiveness, think that these are only drama. Now i'm telling you, we have finally become a TV show, thanks to someone's impulsive STUPIDITY, which i'm very certain, will not keep him satifsfied for too long..because this time it's not just jealousy and power, it is STUPIDITY.



So he tries to force my family into a sorry state, i'd like to see him eat his words back one day.

"WHAT I GAVE YOU I CAN TAKE BACK" he said in the meeting on Monday 13/04/09.



I'd like to know what he gave my dad, or us. I can name very specifically and truthfully, we do not owe him ANYTHING. On the contrary, Without my dad, he wouldn't be living in his over-priced terrace house, Zenged his Merc with AMG and Drive a flashy Maserati. YES I SAID THIS. I don't need to have balls to own up to my words unlike someone who's entire marriage is built on LIES. So much for my dad standing on his side constantly, speaking up against people who badmouths him, even going to the extent of helping him hide facts from his wife, which my mum obliged unwillingly. So much for reminding my dad to be grateful and save his dignity in front of others... you see how people repay us?



Unlike his damn sad life, my parents tell us everything. We share our problems, have long talks and stay united. I don't know how much LIES he told my relatives or refuse to clarify truths about my dad as his business partner rather than "worker". But alot of facts are twisted and circulated throughout the entire extended family. They just don't know how useless this person is, thinking that he is the BIG BOSS of the company and my family OWES him a living.



I don't blame them for having NO FUCKING BRAINS. But i do detest the fact that their mouths are so BIG that everything that comes out becomes balloonized.





Get this straight okay, the only reason the company is earning millions now, truthfully, (put ur filthy hand over ur heart, if u even know where it is) is BECAUSE OF MY DAD. Not his wife, not himself, not even anyone so great as to be mentioned here. and guess what??? YES I SAID THIS AGAIN. I actually don't intend to expose him but i just want people to have a better understanding of what he actually does at work. let's see, Which hell of a 'boss' comes into the office and only talks about toilet cleanlines? the only things he said in a formal meeting is telling people to switch off toilet lights after use?? Or even ask for the birth dates of his employees to see if they're compatible to the company's fortunes??? Oh, and even go to the extent of installing numerous CCTVs in the office, even tried to put one in my dad's (who's the MD) room to feed his voyeurism. yes, let's say it out loud together "WHAT THE FUCK?!"

Guess what?? even my sister has spoken.

flea(: says:
i fucking hate "SHIBAL HO" (a korean vulgarity plus his surname)

Call me Audrey says:
who likes a fucker seriously
SHIBAL man
let's not be rude. he's dying earlier than us
flea(: says:
i so want to tell my dear relatives wad shit their uncle is doing
losers
i just get angrier and angrier u know
maybe i will accumulate my anger like shibal did
n unleash one of the days when he is the happiest
just now they were in daniel's room
shibal baldy n banana
then there was like alot of laughter
Call me Audrey says:
really
flea(: says:
and can hear shibal's voice alot
one day
i will make sure he cannot laugh again
n i wont be sorry
i dont care if other ppl think i'm evil or selfish
because i will return wad he did man
wif interest
Call me Audrey says:
wah u finally unleased ur anger lor
very good
u should just say all the vulgarities u can think of.
it helps
flea(: says:
i believe i have much more abilities than those 3 shits combined
maybe i can finally put it to gd use
perhaps i shd thank
shibal n co
nv had such a burning ambition to make it out there bef
give me a reason to mock them wif my success

By the way friends, this is just part of the story. By writing this it's not that i'm asking anyone to side me. I just feel like i can't sleep well if some truths are not told. I've said this to my family and i will say it again. if i ever get to meet my twin cousins, who i won't be surprised will side their auntie and "uncle" (if they still even respect him for i duno what reasons), I WILL TELL THEM THE TRUTH. THEY NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH AND THE METHODS USED AGAINTS MY FATHER, and the KIND OF PEOPLE WHOM HE "PLANNED" THIS CONSPIRACY WITH.

I mean, i won't say my dad is totally faultless in this entire episode, he might have offended people but let's ask ourselves this question: DO THEY HAVE TO GO TO THE EXTENT OF NOT EVEN LEAVING A ROAD FOR PEOPLE TO GO??????

I see them as SMART, logical INDIVIDUALS. I honestly hope their many years of education don't fail them in their judgement. And even if they want to choose to believe whatever i said as LIES to manipulate them, so be it. The whole point of this was never for them to go against their family anyways.

removing my dad from the company is NEVER the issue. DEPRIVING HIM OF WHAT HE DESERVES AS A SHAREHOLDER OF THE COMPANY IS PLAIN UNETHICAL.

I really hate to say this my because i am young and impulsive, i'd like to for once take advantage of this excuse. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS AT THE END OF THE DAY, MY DAD WILL GO HOME TO A FAMILY WHO SUPPORTS HIM AND STICK WITH HIM THROUGHOUT. HE HAS DAUGHTERS WHO WILL STAND BY HIM UNLIKE THE VICIOUS SOMEONE WHO WILL NEVER EVER HAVE THAT UNTIL THE DAY HE DIES.

This is the LAST AND FINAL TIME gonna mention this in my blog. Let's leave the rest to KARMA.

New adjectives for the Bona-fide bastard (aka BB):

DISGRACEFUL, IRKSOME, BALL-LESS.


I have such a burning desire to write an entire entry dedicated to EXPOSE him but


I WON'T STOOP SO LOW. (for now)

This world is full of CRAZY BASTARDS.

And unfortunately, one of them is in my family.

No, screw the family.

This fucking ungrateful, PETTY, GREEDY, INSANE, SPITEFUL hell of a BASTARD will get karma because if he even has a conscience, he won't be happy for too long.

I'm not gonna feel sorry for saying this because this bastard i'm talking about deserves every single word above or even more. i'm not so proficient in hokkien vulgarities cus if i am, i'm not gonna hold back. I WILL SPELL OUT EVERY SINGLE WORD if i am able to.

Just a note.

I SURVIVED!!!!!!!