Goodbye volleyballies

Can you all spot me?? wahaha...the pic is so tiny.

Anyways, have to say that we're really a crazy bunch. esp during trainings....
One common thing we share despite all the differences and conflicts we have as a team is that we truly miss the trainings we had together..[to the ppl in blue only] not to forget KOK LEONG!!! our coach...
we've experienced joy and pain....frustrations and injuries....but one thing we'll keep deep within us: the Volleyball Spirit!!! May the juniors keep this spirit of volleyball burning for as long as the sch survives [lol].

Some juniors may have misunderstood us for being a bit 'dao' or whatever....wait till you're in yr 3 and figure out you have sooooo many juniors whom you cannot possibly recognise....so don't be surprised we don't smile at you...besides, we don't even smile at our friends all the time...so pls don't always think we're unfriendly...cos u all really don't know us well....maybe Karin they all will understand us more..we can get so lunatic you won't believe it---tt is if we want to....
Plus, for all that 3 yrs of hardwork and 'sufferings' we do deserve some 'prestige' or respect ok.... we've had our fair share of problems in the team too.....but it doesn't matter already...

On a personal note, it's never easy to be a captain....and it's not as nice a label as ppl may think....i have to succumb to great shit for that extra CCA points on the leaving cert. Not that i'm complaining...but i do fell honourable to be one....i'm truly glad that some of my mates think i have the potential...whether or not they changed their minds after that i don't know...but as i've said earlier...it really doesn't matter already....at least, i thought i've accomplished a good half of what a captain should do....and if given a chance, i'll be better than i was....

Moving on, i'm sure we'll find our greener pastures in the future...be it in Volleyball or our studies....i'm looking forward to life after this...[i know we all are]. Take lotsa care and strive hard for now! Like the way we used to for the game.....[steady Ace!]

GMR-2004-2005

Dedicated to GMR. [please don't ask me what it stands for.....]

Thanks for all the great times....

*Tennis @ safra

*Pepper lunch

*Neo-prints

*The incessant bitchings....

-Love you all!-

the war is on

.........and the WAR is on!

after weeks of struggles, we've finally reached a conclusion. the extent of superficiality is utterly unbearable..... what's with the segregation? we're like playing some kinda game which we couldn't even tell what. it's become ever clearer to me that it's 'every man for himself'.

BUT, at least GMR is still intact and going strong [i hope]....yes we are....*coughz* i'm kinda tired of all that competition shit already....even if i really want to compete, what's the bloody point? the entire cohort's not just 24 ppl anyways....

the most ridiculous thing is that ppl have this spastic mindset like doing well='hao lian'. it's like 'what the fcuk?' a simple example will explain it all: highest score 15/30, all else fails except for one..... and you know what? this person has the line "I'M SO HAOLIAN" written all over his sick face...for goodness' sake, it's just a pathetic pass................get a life leh, as if he/she did it to piss all of us off.....if one scores well then good for him/her lah....what's with having this condescending attitude towards him/her???? if you can, do the same lor. you know, since when is it a crime to do well?? since you change the education system is it?

these ppl.....not that i wana say, their values are like one in a million. so full of themselves and filled with contempt....only evokes utter disgust in me....i'm so full now i don't need another reason to puke....

One very important thing i've learnt is that, should i EVER do well, i better keep all the joy and exhileration in my guts.....in case they label me as being PROUD. but honestly, who don't feel proud for doing well? i mean after putting in that extra effort and sacrificing hours of sleep, can't you just rightfully express your sentiments??? tt'll probably amount to murder in their very sickenning laws-if they were to impose any....maybe they disapproves of such actions because they've never tasted success in their lives...but whatever it is......to me they're nothing....the real threat tt i should be concerned with shouldn't be confined to just within the walls of the school. it's never that....

i may sound like i'm down-right mean....but seriously, i can't help it. i can't help if i offend anyone....i can't bloody help it if ppl treat me with disdain after reading this....you know, there's a lot of things in this world that cannot be helped. so if anyone don't like the way i am....whatever, i'm not accountable to you and your equally distorted world....you'll probably not see or hear of me again in your lifetime anyways.......so just read this and be VERY pissed...then you can quietly piss off too....=)

ps: this is NOT directed at GMR......whoever else who feels like i'm talking about you. MAYBE.

PRIDE & some other nitty witty stuff

CAN ANYONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY THE BLOGGER SITE IS IN CHINESE???

though i don't doubt my abilities in understanding or even reading chinese language, i do have a huge problem in trying to decipher the un-simplified chinese forms...as in "fan ti" words....

For one, it took me like 10+ mins to figure out the word "save"...it's like i feel so Cheena all of a sudden....well anyways, that's just crap and i still managed to blog so i'm not really gonna bother about it for now.

today's 'REST-DAY' for me so that explains the fact that i'm not gonna touch my notes... No, not that i'm not touching them- i still gotta re'arrange and file them over again. so you can actually imagine how much i loathe the period after exams....cos it's not exactly OVER for me yet....... and to my absolute horror, my physical geog notes alone was like more than 6 inch thick....excluding my human geog part which makes up a whole GEOGRAPHY subject in case it didn'toccur to you. so was wondering, 53 days left so how the hell am i supposed to conquer all that??????

now that i have time to do some reflection on how sinful i was for the past weeks, watching DVDs and stuff....[ i simply could not resist television ]...this huge sense of guilt was undeniably OVERWHELMING. sad to say, i wasn't as prepared as i thought i was for my prelims....and as if it wasn't bad enough....i suffered from a brain block during the econs essay paper.....

nevermind, no one should sympathize with me or offer any form of consolation....it's just like i'm plotting my very own downfall....too bad, i'm only human, i'm not infallible....i've got to put up with so much temptations [specifically tV] in life and sometimes i do fumble, i do succumb to all those negative influences. ------this is essentially MY form of self-consolation. lol.

Luckily, i do have a network of supportive friends around to give me the encouragement and advices i ought to heed but very seldom does so. BUT, i do appreciate those efforts. especially with the pte-ltd family...considering the fact that we're in IT TOGETHER....we MUST make it to UNI!!!!!! we're not gonna make promises now, we're gonna MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!!!!!

oh, to my beloved JIAYI....though u may not see this but i 'll still say it here....
HAPPY BE-LATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! my dearest, grooviest sista ever!
[we're gonna take lotsa pics tml! and i can't wait!]

Again

Last night, i dreamt of him again....

we were back in school.
he looked me up.
held my hand.
and we never parted.
he told me he finally realised who he cherished most.
the answer i guessed but never ask.
maybe.
it maybe me.

i got lost in the crowd.
amidst the familiar faces.
they saw right through me.
i was lost not only from him.
i lost my heart. i cannot be calm.

then i searched around.
pushing through almost everyone in my way.
just when i was about to break down
just as i thought the moment of bliss was surreal
he stood before me. smiled. and took my hand again.
my heart sank. but was full.

we walked together.
hand in hand.
we never spoke.
the familiar scent i missed became everlasting.
the walk took forever.

what are we now.
together?
i cannot imagine it was true.
it never was.
dreams are never true to me.

why again?
when i'm busy and burdened with work.
he did not cross my mind.
not for a week.
why then the dream?

i vowed to move on.
yet i'm tied down to you.