What Happened on my 22nd

The last things i wana see on my birthday message is "old". yes i know... we ALL know... even with botox you will still grow OLD. tsk... how bothersome, it even rhymes.

AND if you haven't seen... go take a look at GLYNIS LEE's blog and you will see all the fugly unglam cannot-make-it photos of me. man, she even made a video and post it on Youtube. neh neh her... that's the priviledge of being really close friends...you get the undisputed right to post fugly pics of your friends and be sure they won't hold grudges against you. hmph.. i think i should think THRICE about posting my photos in future... in case i leave any traces of my sorry faces.

My 22nd birthday was quite a smashing one. Did quite a lot of things, met quite a number of people, did quite a lot of memorable stuff. everything's just...QUITE good, 'cept for the 'still single' part. haha....

ANYways, this is part 2 to "my 22nd birthday". part 1's on my outing with my family to the S'pore flyer...

I REALLY REALLY REALLY wana thank my beloved jms who planned and did everything for me at Pasir ris park that day. SMOOCHES to all three of you. we had an absolute blast and i totally enjoyed myself... like TOTALLY. i'm so so SO happy to have you three with me!!!

Just a preview to what you're gonna see: they were supposed to "surprise" me but turned out i already knew about it just that i didn't know what to expect. lol. Jm cher was hilarious... i asked her where so she told me... how honest. hahaha...and there goes my not so surprising "surprise". But what matters is really the "programme line-up" they did for me which made the entire party damn "high" and hilarious. so that's also why my voice is still pretty bad. lol.

A toast to more twenty-somethings to come. bleah~

The "scene"

2 of my Jms....

you see, jm yy worked so hard for this she didn't even have time to comb her hair !
my favourite one and only JM CHER in her FAVOURITE dress.

Jm don just freaking looks like a giant next to me. but i'm gonna forgive him since he was so nice. lol.

i can't really rem what this face was for.

Jm why is it that you always get the bigger boob?!

They made me dig for my own present lor...and specifically told me it's buried near the boobs. lol!

..but i still cannot find

Just when i was about to give up...

"it's at the sexiest part of the body"

i was like, "where? the nipples?"

"OHH!! the CLEAVAGE!!!"

"yar yar yar!!! must be the CLEAVAGE!"

"oooooH!!! found something!"

"WOAH! i knew it was the cleavage!"

Must be yy... she's the only one besides jiayi who knows i like the A/X necklace.

luurve it!

we were supposed to watch dvd under the stars but ended up chatting randomly on the matt. sorry bjm! your hardwork wasted. teehee~

This is the funniest part lor. the 3 of them actually put on these quirky party masks and tried to do some kinda weird cheorography moves and shout "HUAT AH!" omg. i don't know what to make of that man. i could only laugh at their silly effort. but rest-assured JMS, i was TRULY entertained. HAHA.

some random kid took this pic for us..in exchange for one of our candles. bleah~ kids.........

HAPPY 18th SMELLY FLEA!

Let the pictures do the talking...

Okay friends, this post is divided into 2 parts. Part one about me (without pictures) and 2nd about my family that includes Fefe's birthday.

Anyways, for a moment i thought i'm such a genius thinking that if i post about myself first you guys will have no choice but to continue reading. haaa... me and my smartness... then i realized you may just skip it to the pictures.... bleah~~~~ DAMN YOU!

Anyhow, i'm holding on to the slightest hope that you, my good friend, is still interested in my no doubt boring, but still reasonably readable life. *smiles WIDELY*

Firstly, I lost my voice. really ultimate this time. i couldn't talk.
Think only a few heard my horribly coarse voice over the phone..correction, not just coarse but almost non-existent. even my GP said i sounded "sexy" this morning. See, that's the problem with procrastination... it only gets worse. So, if you ever wana get a kick outta hearing my sizzling voice, please dial 1800-mat is so sexy. lol....

Before that i had a minor accident at SunPlaza's basement carpark again last saturday. yes this is the point where you go "what? AGAIN?!" and then i'll nod, and then you'll go "wah you really cannot make it leh" and then i'll nod. Like what esle you expect me to say? i wouldn't have the voice to anyways... haha. this time really, my bad. hmmm... actually most of the incidences were my bad cus of my skewed estimation, so i scatched someone's car lah. do i even need to highlight that it's unintentional? i have faith in your common-sense. =)

lemme try cutting the story short, cus you know i suck at it. SO, i was happily on my way (with my cousin and sis on borad) to buy brunch for my parents who just got back from Capetown when it happened. Sian.. so then it happened. luckily it was a family man's car i hit. and i guess he was quite surprised by how calm i was the entire time for a p-plate driver. and very luckily we agreed on a pte settlement. there's more in between but it frustrates me everytime i think about it, so please understand and stop probing me unless i voluntarily tell you about it.

Like what a wise welcome-home surprise for my parents right?
first thought that came into my mind when i heard the screech:
"why am i so knn suay"

shall not continue on this cus it only makes me wana...urrrggghhhh.....do a vulgarities recital. nvm. thank god i got BANNED from driving. Halelluyah! i really don't wana have anything to do with the car until my probation's over. i am never gonna let ME jeopardise my license.


alright now for part 2: it's FEFE's 18th birthday today!!!

she's officially..

legal.

go rob a bank or something, FEFE!

let's start from this morning...

got a weird msg from her hockey friend last night saying they wana surprise her in the morning.. and TADA!!!!!

surprised she was... but it kinda failed cus she came outta the room when they entered the house. they came at 8 for goodness' sake!!!! my beauty sleep totally robbed. i hope this only happens once in her lifetime.. HAHAHAHA so evil.

LAST night's was an ultimate SUCCESS.

it was 2 of her best friends from Nj who came at 12 and they hid in the kitchen with my stewpid sister totally oblivious to the GLARING mess of a small cake and bags lying on the dining table. she must have been too blind or should i say plain dumb.

her expression was priceless.


their's too. lol.

..and her classic stuck-up look

Oh, we dined at Vienna in united square (y'know the buffet) to celebrate both father's day and my sis and i's birthday last night. all i can say is the standard dropped big time cus the owner is more eager to earn then please it's customers. it's wayyyy to squeezy with tables lined a bit too close together. and the waiters, though effecient, scurry like blind bees. too much clinkering of cutleries and did i even mention how those customers literally behave like they starved themselves for 3 weeks for this moment?

Dining has never been this ugly. 'a hungry man is an angry man' don't apply in this case. well, a hungry man at a buffet will be too busy stuffing himself silly with food to even care what's in the way.

my dad just invented a new way to eat ice cream; a scoop of ice cream, a bite on the cone.

"when there's ice cream, all else is secondary...

including my daughter"

mommy dearest bought me a KATE SPADE wallet for my birthday!!!

forgot to snap it though....

my unglam expression when daddy tried to stick the chopsticks in my nose. very mean lor, my daddy!

mommy looked a bit too happy.... in an unnatural way..... lol.

Have a taste of my randomness.

the ultimate starer.

Class gathering @ Indochine

7th June 2008 [Saturday]- On top of the class gathering that was supposed to be at Timbre (Substation), we ended up in Indochine instead and the class celebrated Jane and I's birthday (both in June), though quite far apart. I don't know why i always have NO LUCK to be in Timbre itself. for some reason i only get to pass it by, EVERYTIME.

Big THANK-YOUs to Amy, Jan, Mich and Co. we were REALLY surprised.

It was supposed to be a birthday surprise for just Jane but they very sweetly got a slice of cake for me too.
VERY HAPPY.
Always short of one...

..Jiayi LIM, we hate you.

Mich, Dionne, Amy

Keith, Nigel, Qixiang

Randomly taken...

(Keith, Kenneth, Koon Yuan, Zhuangze, Anthony)

Group Pic!

lemme see if i can name 'em all...

(from fore-ground: Peter, Weikun [jan's bf], Jan, Jane, Me, Keith, Nigel, Qixiang, Kenneth, Koonyuan, Zhuangze, Anthony, Dionne, Mich, Amy)

I simply love class gatherings though we don't really get to talk to everyone. Anyways, we've all grown...for the better i hope. Changes, no doubt, but it's truly amusing to witness the change knowing how each of them used to be, even myself. It's still quite a nightmare to look back at how i used to look.

Tutoring makes me wana !@#$%^&*

I think i'm gonna have high blood pressure very soon and i'm loosing my voice from talking non-stop for 3.5 hrs every 2days.

Tutoring is HARD man. yeah you better believe me when i say that. it's good money no doubt but there are times where i have a screaming-urge to (not strangle my tutee) but myself.

i know the story.... it's not their fault that they learn very slowly. and trust me, i totally feel them. BUT you blame me for getting frustrated after umpteen explanations on the same damn thing right? even a SAINT will feel like jumping off the cliff can.

what's worse is when he starts starring at (not ME) but blank space in a daze and habitually nod when he clearly isn't listening. poor boy. i really wana help you but you're not helping me.

sometimes i really feel bad for raising my voice at them not just cus it hurts my throat but it also kinda kills their pride. kids also have pride one ok.... i'm not kidding.

not that i don't understand their misery... i've been tutored before and for many years. i used to loathe tuition so much i will weep quietly in my daddy-mummy's room, hating them for getting a tutor for me, while i wait for the teacher to come.

i NEVER liked the tutors except for the last econs tutor i have. even if they buy me candies and french fries i still hated them. i just wanted them to GO AWAY~~ lol, and spacing-out is my hobby cus most of the time i'll be wrestling the dreadful thoughts in my mind. so the tutor will scold me for doing that and i'll feel damn "wei qu". HAHAHAA...

kids are all the same lah....so i don't blame them. i just gotta work hard on my patience that's all. it's like a responsibility already... and plus their mom has been so nice to me =))

Anyways, mum and dad just reached Capetown today. i don't know how many times daddy repeated the word BEAUTIFUL lor... tmd. next will be my turn! but i'm still kinda in procrastination-mode. don't feel like doing any preparation yet at all.....

i'll upload the photos of the class gathering we had last sat at Indochine soon. My sweet sec school classmates gave Jane and i a birthday surprise. that was really really the first ever surprise i've had. and it just made me realise HOW MUCH I LOVE SURPRISES. *hint hint*

Breaking-up

Breaking up is like so common these days it's even comparable to putting on weight.

Like why is everyone breaking up? The whole damn world is breaking up. i just realised, a lot of people around me have broken up while some are at the verge. Don't be over-sensitive my friend, i'm not taking joy in stealing inspiration from your misery, i'm merely amazed by how fragile a relationship can be.

But who am i to judge or comment on such a private, sensitive issue, right? well i don't exactly have to be 'in-your-shoes' to know what you're going through, and neither do i wana come close to that. Just that to a certain extent, i feel the meaning of "building a relationship" is skewed.

Of cus i know being together is all about being happy and at ease with one another and there has to be the almighty "LOVE" involved. but these are mandatory. what about the other things in a relationship you don't or refuse to see?

At first it's all about spending time together..the intimacy..status change... then a few months passes-by... maybe a year or two... then what happens? the future that seemed oh-s0-grim becomes apparent to you inch by inch. what happens next may be something neither you nor your partner want to explore.

All these time arguments start to surface inevitably, each other's flaws become way too glaring to the extent of the slightest annoyance. but these are all natural. taking turns to give-in works, but how long exactly can this last? What's most tiring is when the same person gives in all the time and it becomes a habit.

SO, here's my two-cent's worth coined "conditions of love":
*i will substitute him/her with "ai ren". LOL.

- If you think you can tolerate and embrace your ai ren's bad habits
- If you think your love for your ai ren far outweighs your ai ren's social status
- If you can BARE YOUR heart to your ai ren
- If you are willing to talk and listen and make your ai ren do the same
- If you the 'future' in question between the two of you heads to the same direction
- If you are not afraid to think of a 'future' with your ai ren in the picture
- If you are very sure your ai ren can become your 'habit'

..that's about all.

i know most guys are quite turned off by the burden of a future. Like "what the hell? we just got together!" and all you might care about is what IS now. but before you think it's very modern of you to think so, just think a bit more about your other half. what are you doing wasting his or her time? if you can't solve existing problems together now, what makes you think that you can in the future? no matter how much you wana dodge it you'll still have to face it right?

unless the both of you are saddists... i don't think this is what you're looking for.

i think a lot of people are undermining the meaning of being in a relationship. why don't they take some time to think about what it is that they're looking for, or who they themselves really are.

before you jump on the bandwagon like everyone else does, you should really think about who you are and what you need, not who you want. Of cus sometimes it's easier to hop-on and test it out, but truthfully, whatever makes you happy may mean misery to others. like what if the guy truly loves you while you're just taking a ride? is it fair?

don't go breaking hearts man.... we're not kids anymore. even if it takes forever to find a matching one, well, if that's what it takes.....so be it.

I realised something, for those who are mending their broken hearts, i think it's quite saddistic of me but listening to those really saddening love songs works wonders. LOL. like you should just force out every inch of your sadness and pour out the very depths of your sorrows once and for all. get what i mean? but if you feel worse don't come find me okay. =X

Anyways, One truth that jiayi and i swore by is that time will not change a person's life, only a change attitude will. it is the SAME when it comes to relationships. So you better make your heart die faster when your partner's heart change if not you might just die from the heartbreak. so if you're a guy, deal with it like a real man...though i know that a guy's heart can be far more fragile then a woman's. The thing is, Men are stronger on the outside; women are stronger on the inside.

In any case, i believe i'm getting out of point... haha. anyways, it really doesn't matter if two persons are vastly different, just so long as the things that they're looking for in a relationship is the same, all else is secondary.

Pictures Galore! ( and my ISSUES)

***pictures arranged from most recent onwards***

First and FOREMOST, i wana announce to the whole world that I, Mathilda Lau Shu yi, completed a completely dreadful, unenjoyable, painful course called MICROSOFT OFFICE SPECIALIST - EXCEL.

I know...a million question-marks must be popping in your mind by now, like why EXCEL of all programmes? why am i even enrolled in such a course and whatever....if you don't know then you really don't know me well enough. OR if you're guessing i've suddenly woke up one fine day, no, afternoon to my senses that self-improvement should be my motto-for-life then i can only say, that has never been in my agenda.

Because i like to be frank, because i don't feel like painting a merry-lil-picture of myself to you, HA HA HA, i took it cus i was told to. NO, more like i was forced to... cus even if i ever came close to a com-course it has gotta be Photoshop or the like... like EXCEL?! Come ON leh.... the last thing i can imagine myself doing is starring at the lifeless pc for the rest of my adult life, or data cells for that matter. EEEEW.

the other reason - i get paid for getting the cert =) okay i know smirking is a bit rotten of me... like i do things for money and stuff but the truth is, who wouldn't buy it right? got money don't wana earn meh? you must be siao. actually my sis and i have sort of reconciled to the fact that the course is inevitable and it can be indeed quite beneficial, but dear mommy wanted to "motivate" us into it so... yeah... but anyways, we agreed unanimously that it was a form of "compensation" for waking up at inhumanly early hours when we're supposed to be sleeping. like my sis said "you know there's a reason why school holidays are called SCHOOL HOLIDAYS. kids should just stay home and do nothing"

yeah fefe, you're a kid..i don't think i feel remotely like one, but anyways, it's so over. As we left on the train after the test we just stood in a daze, partly Sickened by the fact that we actually did nothing but excel functions for the past 3 days, and partly congratulating ourselves (in disbelief) that we're finally liberated.

it's a complicated feeling, really.

Nevertheless, it was quite 'enriching'... like whoever i told about this course kept consoling me that it's something useful...well yeah, to a certain extent...and it better be. I don't wana waste my parents' money man...so yes i did learn something; in fact quite a lot of things. you know, i bet you never knew some of the functions existed! like wtf were those geeks thinking?! i think they're really brilliant, no doubt, but STILL!

But horrors of all horrors~! i couldn't recall what i learnt right after the test. this must forever be kept a sercret from my parents. haha. and chances are, if i don't use it often, it'll just drain away...all my knowledge and what not. bleah~~~~~~

okay okay, WOW, very typical of me...8 paragraphs on one topic. hahaha.

Day 3 of course:

Look at how obscenely "tzenged" FeFe's DS is...... my eyeballs nearly popped outta their sockets okay. i should say the final product is very satisfactory. it's just uh....crazily BLINGED. i think whoever sits opposite my sis in the train will have to wear shades to block the shine. OH! or maybe it can be a great distraction from a bad-hair-day or mismatched outfit. LOL!

Very random... Day 2 of course: Fefe and i decided to pamper ourselves at Coffee Club during the course break to compensate for an unbearable lesson. strawberries and chocolate are the best perk-me-up combination. what's most desirable is they're blended together with little strawberry chunks!

sluurrrp sluurp slurp..... Oh and one discovery i made about myself. i'm a messy-eater. really.

Met Jiayi Louise Lim after lesson to make the collage for Janey. Hey darling your name hor, i just realised like J.Lo leh... damn gross.... but funny to use on you cus it's such an irony!!! HAHAHA. ended up shopping for our own stuff... but can you believe it?! i didn't buy a single thing!!!! and i discovered another thing, which J.Lo agreeingly pointed out: i have this annoyingly disinterested expression when i'm hungry. LOL.

Camwhoring in the train. you see, got flash and no flash have big difference lor. and omg.... i just fell into the category of "unpretty without make-up". tsk. Not pretty nevermind lor.... Never-flawless complexion and FLAT-chested. shouldn't i be compensated with a boyfriend? no?? tsk....then what? okay lah just lemme me be disgustingly rich and i can forgo the boyfriend part. =X

THIS, is taken when i just dyed my hair. cus of the flash it looks a bit too copper but in reality it's more blondish... not the dumb-blonde kinda blonde but the brownish kinda blonde. no highlights this time though... REDS is really good at hair-coloring man! Oh and please ignore my fefe's bizarre expression. she's merely a bit disoriented. haha.

see it looks better without flash. But you must be wondering why it looks highlighted right? cus my hair was highlighted before so some strands are prone to look darker. otherwise it's quite acceptable to me. need me illustrate more on the pictures above? literal translation: Muffy is in deep struggle while i forcefully plant kisses on him. Oh you don't need the rhetorical translation cus it'll just appear to be bag of bull to you. you don't know how much he loves me lor. haha. Bull Sh**!


Family outing @ Suntec with daddy mommy and fefe. Don't my daddy look too handsome for his age? *gulps* young is a more appropriate word lah... look at the way he eats ice cream you'll totally think he's possessed by a kid.

After that we went to the "singapore Flyer" to take-a-look. look only hor, never take the ride cus we don't have time. i gotta agree for once, the place made me feel like a tourist...in a good way. for some reason it's suspiciously similar to Odaiba Park in Tokyo. quite an awesome place, really... those cabins looked a bit too much like cargo lifts though...

...totally like tourists...


K-outing with my K-mates once again but this time, a new location. China town really have 10bucks ktv man! got free "sharks fin soup" somemore. fake one lah of cus! Eh don't go and think my face is damn big hor, it's actually the angle of the cam.

k why did i even bother explaining.....

Hey glynis.... not that i purposely wana put your ugly pictures you know. it's just that i've got too many people telling me how pretty you look and stuff, and also cus we've already seen too much of your prettyface... lol. you tell me lah! i zoomx10 also cannot see your pores lor. tsk...

this always happens when they're together. the classic "we cannot stand each other" candid shot. JMs always have this love-hate r/p with one another.

...but i'm just simply Peace-loving. =)

JM! your worst nightmare!!!

woops

Anyways, here comes the F.Y.I. part:

Details of my flight:

Departure Date: 25th June

Departure Time: 11.30pm

Terminal : 3

Airline: SQ

Destination: Seoul (Sparkling~ ahahahahhahaha)

Yonsei University