One last one before school starts

who else can make us go "oOoOOooOO..." and "AAAAHHHHHHH!" like there's no tomorrow??? lol. sometimes i really think i shouldn't have intro-ed dbsk to Glynis Lee. you know she's constantly broke....but that's not the saddest thing. she spent like $30plus bucks for this SM mag...and she bought 2 issues OKAY! so a grand total of $60plus...all for the love of DONGBANGSHINKI. not to mention that EVERYTHING word is in Korean. man.....you could've spent only $65 bucks on a Cassiopeia membership that entitles you to a year of SM mags and dbsk concert invitations. but then again you're also the one who got the gigantic poster of my sexy micky and co....hmph!

ULTIMATE MEN's STYLE can....you tell me which 21yr-olds look so drop-dead charismatic.

catching up on our fav hobby [besides dongbang-ing] CAM-whoring that is.

but due to us not having done this for quite some time, i can only upload this only decent one.

Version 1: trademark Junsu pose

Verdict: PASS

version 2: junsu pose

Verdict: it's me leh, of cus PASS lah!

Version 3: parody version
Verdict: um...........wahahhahahaaa!!!!

the guys and Isabelle [Jacky's girl]. i was talking about the power of love just now [on how glyn would rather buy dbsk mags and go sad&broke], here's another cus she's the first person i know who goes karaoke without actually singing.

... that's all folks. the vids i can't upload cus of some probs with my lappy.

another time then....!

pissed...

some things never fail to piss me off.

like how i thought my plan was all good and gonna work out well.

but NO! things always got to screw up last minute and i'm forced to vomit a PLAN B.

much as i love my school, i hate the system.

it's like a friggin' lottery system can.

so much for 'module-allocation' huh.



PPPRRRROOBBLLLEEEMM~~~


ANYWAYS,STILL, HOWEVER, NEVERTHELESS.....

HAPPY 21st to you, BESTY JACKY SONG JUN NAN!!!!!!!

pink. how gay.

Fly to the Sky "My Angel"

ON THE RIGHT! it's auto play but it takes awhile for it to load so be patient k!

ENJOY~~~ =D

i'm SO F-R-E-E....

ENVY ME.

i'm freeeeeeeee like a bird..hehehe...

did i hear someone say "yeah, like a birdbrain" somewhere???? LOL. okay fine, i can be considered one at times. and the best thing about me is my skin is damn thick...haha. i'm so used to people calling me all sorts of weird names [the most classic has got to be what jy coined decades ago, which is damn vulgar].

SO, freedom is a catalyst to my randomness so please stay tuned. you'll get to witness how i slowly rid myself of my sanity. lol. how exciting....[if your life is equally boring that is]. ha haha. ha.

but something else is keeping me smiling....guess guess guess???

don't tell u all what is it if not some people will find me 'haolian'. not talking about anyone in particular but i just feel sometimes certain people's inference level like quite skewed. lol.....wana beat me up right? say half don't say half. wahahahhaaa.... ask me lah.... NO it's not cus of some guy!

so i was saying some people are kinda handicapped when it comes to inferring what others say and do. OR it's simply cus they have this inborn talent in assuming things. i'd like to call this illness 'Chronic inferiorism' [k wait till i find a nicer term for it]. so anyways, some people are really BO-Liao can. you say too much they say you haolian. you never say anything you are also haolian. just one example: you scored like crap for your econs exam and got an E while everyone else fails [but the paper is not hard at all] and you know it's a lousy grade and not good enough [DUH~] and also cus your dad's prolly gonna skin you so naturally you'll sulk a bit and feel sad but people call you a HAOLIAN.

..honestly, what is your definition of a haolian? THAT? aiigggooo~~ i'll weep for you.....when i have the time. see what i mean by chronic inferiorism?? some people just have so many 'jia Xiang Di' [imaginary enemies]. my condolences.

alright, i better not go on ranting about something so wu liao. Tmr's mummy's bdae and we're gonna cut the cake with her in awhile~~~ i feel rotten cus as usual, I FORGOT all about it till fefe called and asked if she should buy a cake. i remember the date of her bdae itself of cus but it's just that you don't exactly time-keep or date-track when you're slacking full-time you see. and even if i weren't slacking, i'm like one of the few 21 year olds who are suffering from the early signs of alzheimer's disease....so, yeah....

and i came across a piece of apalling news from the papers just now. MAN! can you beeeeliieeevveeee it?! HALFPRICE IN GEYLANG AFTER MIDNIGHT! AIGOOOOO~~~~ 20 BUCKS?!?!?! life is hard man. *shakes head*

ain't no secrets...

hai~ not like you all don't know me at all. when it comes to poking my nose into other people's business i can proudly stand out of the crowd. ha. not that i take pride in it but it's like a lil harmless interest of mine. haha...HARMLESS. i'll only share if they are share-able. anyways, there's a fine line between being a K-po and someone who can keep secrets [if you get my point].

so why am i suddenly talking about being a k-po??? cus i just found out a piece of shocking news from my friend's blog. ummmm.......should i comment on it? hmmm.....maybe not. cus i value friendship. haha. hhhmmmm...... oh well, i really don't know what to say about that but as a friend, i'd wish for the best for him. actually no matter what the news or gossip is about doesn't really matter cus the geist of it all is the THRILL i get for knowing something i'm not supposed to or what a lot of people don't.

just admit it lah. deep down, the evil lil you want to know all sorts of secrets under the sun but like all humans, this ego of yours [guys and girls alike] just refuse to admit it. i was one of them but for now, i gotta be frank...PLEASE TELL ME ALL YOUR SECRETS!!!! hahahaaa.... remember me saying i'm gonna be honest to myself as of now?? it's working pretty well cus i haven't got beaten up yet. LOL. and you know why you should let me in on all your secrets??? cus for one, keeping your own secrets are selfish. wahahaha, k bad explanation. OR, you'll kinda suffer from withdrawal symptoms if you hold on to someone else's secrets for too long. LOL [an equally bad attempt].

BUT, the greatest reason of all is that i'll normally forget all about what you told me unless if there's some sort of a sequel to it. heehehee....good right? but you know what i cannot stand?! i simply cannot take it if i have to find out things for myself. bloody helllll...... sianz....i hate the suspense, or the lateness.... haha.
i wana be the FIRST! >(

k enough of my randomness...school better start soon before i lose my sanity. i say weird stuff when i'm bored....that's my recent discovery.

oh, and i just realised if you don't use something for too long, you'll eventually forget what the thing is called. Like my dad just asked me for a 'scotch-tape'. "to tape what?" a very DUH-question i asked. then he say "my hand here got abrasion". AIGOOOOO...... i nearly fainted. "SO YOU WANT A PLASTER LAH?? DADDY, PLASTER!!!!"....not SCOTCHTAPE for crying out loud........

OMO OMO OMO~~~

From now on, i'm gonna start my very own "OmO-list" everyweek.

don't go asking me what 'Omo' stands for cus your eyes is gonna go rooollliinngg like there's no tomorrow. if you know you'll know. jiayi Lim will definitely know. haha.

so it's gonna be a list of CANNOT MAKE-ITs for the week. as in, the things, people or stuff i come across, which i think i won't be caught dead doing or whatever i deem intoleratble. lol. if you beg to differ then by all means cus everyone has different threshold for tolerance...apparently. haha. but i doubt so lah. cus some stuff are really...you know........ CANNOT MAKE IT!!!!

so after a a couple of rounds of crapping and goofing around with my all-time-favourite-besty [JIAYI LIM] yesterday, i became so inspired to start this list cus i reeeeaaaalllllyyy wana share with you all how CMI some people can be. wahahahahaa.... ok here goes...

MATTY's OMO-List of The Week:

#3

Steven Lim's HILARIOUS attempt in lashing-out at Xiaxue for dissing him on his wet-patches all over his clothes cus of his warped sweat-glands and how UGLY he is. he's like relentlessly trying to make WanBao sue Xx. the details please go find from youtube. funny like there's no tommorrow can. very typical of him. it's like he's so convinced of his "killer-looks" and popularity like how stupid people believe that mice only eat CHEESE. if you think he can make it right, then i think you really CANNOT MAKE IT.

#2

Over zealous parents who always make their equally over-zealous kids join singing competitions. ummm....not a good idea to name the variety show. but you know, i really cannot stand children trying so hard....our eyebrows slowly become distorted as we watch them sing. like what are their parents thinking?!! are they like itching for stardom or something? maybe cus they themselves are too old to make it that's why they force their children to look like clowns [literally] on stage. OMO, the songs are the greatest IRK-factors. do you think a 4 year old will ask something like "mummy i wana be popular, please make me a super star." okay, maybe they're really BORN-performers but.......it just irks me cus i still think young children should just read enid blyton at home or maybe roll around the floor at kids-sports.

#1

Edison Chen's new song is !@#$%. [before you wana rebut on this, go listen to it first.] it's like i didn't think it was THAT corny until i heard it for myself today. luckily i was at home cus i was laughing uncontrollably as he "rapped" away. OMO OMO OMO~~~~~~~ at first my eyes were mismatched then after that my eyebrows started twitching....then WAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAAA.!!!!!!!! i'm appealing to you all, just please go listen to it. you'll be like "what the hell?!?!??!" cus the whole damn song is nothing but a failed attempt of narcisism. OMG. it's like i assure you, no matter what drop-dead good looks he has is still not gonna make up for this. at first he tried to sing, then he failed quite miserably but he still has his looks to fall back on. now he tries to rap...i wonder what his godbro Jay chou has to say about that sickening song. *shakes head* honestly, try harder lah....try harder... but it's best he keeps clear of music. cus he's only gonna make people remember him for all the wrong reasons.

DBSK fever: forced my mom and dad to watch cuts of the Rising Sun concert. this is to vindicate myself from being a boyband freak. ha ha ha. but this is already on its own a freaky thing thing to do-----like forcing your parents to understand something as alien as a group of boys half their age. but boy, were they impressed. lol. surprised? not really. who in their right frame of mind would disregard the boys' talents. absolutely no one.

WORK: this friday, YAY, my last day of work. please stop asking me annoying questions like "did you actually work?" "you get paid for nothing right?". it's annoying because they make me feel damn guilty. you may think i'm so darn lucky for getting paid for doing pretty much nothing but i ASURE you, i didn't dig the idea AT ALL. if i could i'd rather opt for a lower pay and at least find myself engaging in more productive work. but apparently my dad wanted me to be his "protege" and learn the ropes of what he's doing.....i hate to admit this but, *sigh* i didn't learn much. and after shadowing him for a month i only came to hate the businessmen kinda job more. oh how i hate it.....truly, madly deeply. hahahahahahaa......

Newfound addiction: not dbsk lah! i figured if i continuosly mention them in a single post i may drive you all away. wahahahaa....neh........ so my newfound addiction is MOS burger's Ice milk tea. very "CHEY~~~" right? i also think so. LOL. there's one more! YA-KUN's Ice Coffee! very "WAH LAU EH~~~~" right?? wahahahahaaa......but isn't it amazing?? most people will only like either of them more, but i love BOTH! man, am i special. tsk. i used to like a certain american coffee chain's caramel-frap. but it's become so traumatizingly pricey i'm beginning to have premonitions that i'll go to hell for drinking too much. haha. see, i didn't actually know what coffee genuinely tastes like until i tried the coffee at yk. nice thick coffee. love it!

BREAK-OUTS: i'm suffering from damning break-outs. sucks. you know this time when i say 'sucks' i mean it from the heart.....like the shitty kinda 'sucks', not the kind where you say already you also don't realise that kind. it's so sucky that i have to go skin centre. sucks. but it's not THAT horrifying lah. it's just that i cannot stand breakouts. the verdict---cannot put make-up for 8 weeks. 8 WEEKS!!!! but my complexion isn't all-flattering you know. in fact, i'm FAR FAR FAR from flawless. so if you guys see me and find me ugly please do me a big favour can? you don't have to lie, just don't say anything..haha. but my skin is quite thick lah, you wana annoy me then by all means....i'll remember your kindness...but make sure you don't let me catch you in your embarrassing moments cus i'm good at returning favours. HA HA HA. no, this is not a threat. =)

Muffy: oh i haven't been talking about Mr Muffy for ages. before you recall on that shit-eating episode, [it's really passe, so just forget about it ALREADY] now his new hobby is puking. he's not suffering from any chronic illness in case you're wondering. dogs do puke once in awhile cus of indigestion. and he really knows how to pick strategic spots for this. this lil ill-mannered boy puked right next to my pillow! you know what's gross? the fact that i continued sleeping next to it unknowingly for 2 hours until i wake up to this horrifying sight. i must be SO dead to not notice the mess. luckily my precious lil bolster didn't get any of it if not i'll make him eat back his own puke....which i think he will even without me prompting. lol. that's my innocent lil puppy-dog for you. HA.

those dreams are back

in any case if you think the dreams i'm refering too are aspirations, then you're seriously mistaken. if i'm gonna have one to begin with, it'll be "please let me have my peaceful sleep"

if you remember, or have been concerned enough about me and my dull life [ha ha ha], then you'll probably know what i'm talking about.

those haunting dreams are back. it's bad cus the dreams are too perfect to be true. it's worse when they instigate false hopes.

i'm half happy, half reluctant...... cus i honestly have no idea what to anticipate when school starts. i'd be happy to find out what i've always wanted to and put my mind at ease, but i don't wana know about the cold hard facts.

i have this strong feeling that something's gonna happen.
then again i somehow feel that nothing will. say if it really will, how am i suppose to face it? the closest thing i can think of is run-and-hide. and what if it doesn't? am i gonna be dreaming about it, FOREVER?

tsk.

These "evil" dreams... they happen in sequence, in continuation....like they really happened before cus they're so damn real.

but however lovely they are. i hope there'll be an end to these. people have to move on you know. and i WANT to move on. yet they are like robbing me of my time to genuinely rest.

sometimes i'd try absurd means to fight them like trying to think more about dbsk or whoever else and start imagining some other more unrealistic stuff to keep myself occupied before i fall asleep...just so i'd see them in my dreams instead of you-know-who.

cus of this i'm beginning to have sleepless nights. i'm already not sleeping early FYI. yet i will toss and turn and stay wide-eyed for at least an hour in bed. then when i really sleep, it all starts again.
where's my Micky? Junsu?? no?? all don't have.......maybe i'm not trying hard enough.

tsk

So everyone has their own weakness inside. maybe i'm far too weak to resist it, or maybe my subconcious half doesn't want to.

Sleeping is a Luxury: but it's damn irony to me for now.

An nyeong!

i've been hardworking.

1) in trying to convert boyband skeptics into appreciating talented and all-rounded BOYBANDS like DongBangShinKi and FlytoTheSky. seriously, it's not just cus i'm crazy over them that i'm doing this. it's always good to share good stuff, and they're really BIG time good stuff. don't just look at their posters and comment. you really have to listen. you'll get my point.

2) In improving my Korean. haaa....you must think that i'm really in too deep. but it's no different from those jap-aholics what....just that i'm going the opposite direction. Someday, i'll be able to speak a whole string of korean with ease while you watch in awe...haha...someday...... of cus there'll be people who'll give me the no big deal face lah. but who cares...they're probably irritated cus they can't understand. hahahaa....i know a lot about self-consolation if you ask me. =)))

anyways, i went for the CitiBank HarryPotter premier with Glyn yesterday.
to be honest, i really have no freaking idea what the whole story is about cus i'm not a fan of the series. actually, i'm not even a great fan of reading. READING you know, not singing. so it's like, i kept wanting to ask her what's going on but i didn't wana be irritating so i kinda restrained myself. haha. i said really bimbotic stuff like "oh i really like the music..." and started humming away...ahahahahaha...overall, the movie was quite nice lah....

but i went back to bombard my sis with a million questions like "who the hell is cedric"? "so the prophecy is just a bloody lame prediction lah?" "why the voldermot die so many times still haven't die yet?"....and you can imagine the number of times she rolled her eyes and the tsk tsk tsk that followed...hahaha...i simply love annoying her.

One thing i must say... Harry Potter is really an ugly character. in fact, almost all the male characters inside have unflattering images. haha. ooops...

..back to my korean lessons. HUAITING!

LIFE: A bed of Roses?

A few days back my sister asked me a weird Question.

"Do You think Your Life so far has been 'a bed of roses'?"

i was dumbstrucked. not cus of the depth of the Question, but because it came from her.

still, that question led me into a deep serious thought. a bed of roses. like what's the definition of a bed of roses?? is it in terms of material wealth? or my own achievements? or does it mean education???

whatever that means...but if you ask me, i'd tell you maybe it's half a bed of roses for now. life is never ever perfect or complete no matter how rich you are or how much love you get. because there will always be times where you'll hate yourself or dread the choices you make. and please just remind yourself of the countless occassions you swore over the most puny things.

In fact, roses have thorns you know...and the thorns are like the little hiccups in your life. so you see, roses and thorns come together. and if that's the case then yes, my life's a bed of roses cus i've picked myself up along the way. anyways, what's a rose without thorns right? it's like gaining enlightenment from a mistake you make cus the enlightenment will come in the form of a rose and the mistake is like the thorn lah...

man, how DEEP can i be. aren't you impressed.

But honestly, If you can learn to appreciate the things and people around you and cherish the good things that come around, then you'll be planting your way to a huge garden of roses, not just a bed. -----<@

...then again, what's life without swearing and cursing. haha.

Dedication....

Was kinda wondering what i am doing wasting my holidays away without taking up a single read. with all the allowance coming in and all, maybe it will be much more appropriate if i use it for books.

so when i was browsing in MPH a few days back. i found a book.

by nature, i hate sci fi and self-improvement whatevers so naturally you won't catch me tormenting myself with either. so it's left with novels. and after 3 whole years of reading the good ol' kinda victorian novels and etc only leaves me weary of more. so my take: new age novels.

the book's titled "Dedication"

it's not a flashy title yet it says a lot. it's not the kinda sappy love novels but rather one that's more realistic and one which i can relate to. somehow i found it familiar...cus some parts of it really reflects what i feel sometimes. so what if i'm emo? everyone's got their emo sides okay. it's just like how you pour before a sappy korean drama.

Proudly, i gotta say i already read half. it's such an achievement you know. FYI, i took like 2 years to finish Jude the Obscure. lol. and in the end i think i didn't even finish reading it cus i dread it so much i'd rather read its plot summary from PinkMonkey. hahaha...

Anyways, i already got started with my Korean Classes. so FUN! and i can actually read and write basic korean already. not as tough as i thought but it's tough if you don't appreciate korean culture. most importantly, i LOVE IT! that's where learning takes place. if you don't like it, you won't learn it well. and cus i SO love DBSK and their music, i'm more conscientious than anyone. haha. the teacher actually asked each of us why we wana take up the language. Guess what i said? i went "CUS I LIKE DONGBANGSHINKI" and everyone just broke into laughter.

...what's wrong with being honest? from now on, i think honesty is the key. i'm gonna be super honest. what i like i will say, what i don't i will also say. wether people will roll their eyes or not i will STILL SAY. but of cus not the asshole kinda honesty lah...i'm not the clueless bimbotic kind who hurts people with words of cus...what i mean is i won't give a care lah ....i'm old enough to know what's right and wrong. even if that's just a passing phase or craze i won't regret it...anyways...what is so mindless or impulsive if you get to learn an extra language??