I'm not a likeable person

With that said, i don't know why anyone should like me. I grow spikes and i wear skepticism on my sleeves.

Don't get me wrong, i'm still positively attracted to guys but i just can't imagine myself seeming desirable to them at all.

Like how Jiayi Dearest always puts it, i'm too anal to be likeable. If someone is to like me or even come close to the vicinity of trying, i think he's inviting unnecessary heartache. His heart has to be SO big and accepting, that even if it was me, i don't think i can handle.

I'm not a horrible person, i'm not evil nor ill-mannered, i don't have notorious habits... in fact i can be so acutely boring a person....

by the way, this is my skepticism talking again ):

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kicking the pessimism aside, from now on i will seriously keep my heart and mind open.

i think all these years, my past regrets, resentment and reminiscence has always been directed at one. And with that one person it made me believe that a lot of things, not just in relationships, there'll never be 2nd chances because things will never be the same again, and also because it is just simply not possible to go back to where it was. i suppose in my coming to terms with such a truth, i've been unfair to some.

My point is, a story can never be re-written, unless it is incomplete.

Like i said, i'm keeping my heart and mind open.

Remember the "big event" i was raving about? Well, it happened albeit the fact that it wasn't as fantastic after all. At least MR HU (our subject) laughed so bloody darn hard i think we made up for the 2 birthdays we owed him.

Turned out hialrious (as expected), esp the video part.... (ah leow & posi cheorographed a sickening dance sequence from Jolin Tsai's Mr Q JUST FOR JIATAO) the rest was uh, a bit off cus of unforseen circumstances...like my last min hold-up at work so we didn't get to cook for him. We ate at CHILI'S instead, need me reiterate its awesomeness again? you should really really really try it for yourself.

the big preparation.. step one: Shopping for the props

Step two: Pose with the purchase

 Step three: make it seem like you're enjoying the process

 We were CRANKY

 TIRED

 and STRESSED

 but we managed to pull ourselves together for BUSINESS:

The Scheming WIVES

 On the actual day:

@ TCC Terminal 3

 Photos taken in Chili's not available cus MR HU PROMISED to send them to me but NEVER.

March is TRULY the biggest birthday bomb month. My apologies to Ms ONG YY for not throwing in much effort this year (but that doesn't mean i don't love you already). So here's a big one for you, on my blog......

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY, YY <3

(i'll never forget your's cus it falls on the same day as .........)

and then there's Peter's - screwed-up surprise. Not a big one but we sat through the night at the airport though Qiqi looked SO TIRED and drained...almost too soon to be worn-out for his age. haha. The bottom line is WE ALL ENJOYED ourselves.

That's that for all the March-babies.

Yesterday was GOURMET SATURDAY. Fe and I was in one of our rare cooking mode so we decided to cookup something nice and healthy for dinner. Mom and Dad were in KL so we have the weekend to ourselves....with NO FOOD.

Random Musing:
I have a vision: Within the next 2 years, i'm gonna be able to walk into Mulberry/Balenciaga/Chanel/MarcJacobs/MiuMiu/Prada/Fendi/Dior/Bottega Veneta/Bally/Gucci/Ferragamo/HERMES. etc, and actually afford them. If i stick to what i believe and plough through all the adversities i'm gonna face... it's not too farfetched. It's not a dream, it's a VISION because it will happen (:

Saying it will conviction - YES!