i can't bloody believe it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"i can't bloody believe it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I tell you......i'm so mad, so frustrated, so freakin' moodless now cos i missed Friday's Smallville episode!!!!! ARGHHHH...u noe i was so damn lookin forward to it cos i wanted to watch Lex Luthor on TV (yes i'm immature for now).... so i happily grabbed my Ruffles chips and sat on the sofa comfortably....and guess what's on tv????? EXTREME MAKEOVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (can you imagine the horror??!!)

So i screwed up the timing again and it's supposed to be at 8.30....FINE.....after a whole weeks' wait....extreme make over?!?!??!?! *PUI* my eyeballs nearly sprung out of their sockets..... no Lex Luthor nevermind....not even ONE cute guy or what....for record, there aren't even any decent looking fellas shown on tv.....so much for a stressed week....i see ugly and distorted ppl waiting to get their faces cut, which i think, didn't make much of an impression after all...ok sorry, not that i have anything against them or plastic surgery...i'm just tryna vent my frustrations on the stewpid programme..... oh c'mon, AT LEAST one tree hill????? nono, i won't even mind malcom in the middle.............

But i can see where this is getting....i have this real huge problem with time and dates since the june holidays...and i've been screwing up the sequence of events since then...very disorganised, very dysfunctional...yes, i'm Acutely disorientated....for one, i didn't even know what time was my first mid yr paper and i actually woke up at 5.45 in the morning and got changed for school...then i took out the timetable to double confirm....i was in total dismay, yet was quite relieved too...cos it says 12pm......then i called my friends to ask....and sure enuf, most of them were either sleeping or didn't even turn on their phones...ok great....i simply laughed it off and went back to sleep..am i THAT blurr? or am i just plain jaded............

AND that was not the end of it. A couple of more screwed-up things happened and i'm seriously concerned if i was that driven by stress....i get ppl reminding me about dates and timing these days and i actually feel kinda sorry for myself...if i can't even get the simplest of all things right...how am i supposed to achieve greater things??? and NO, i don't wana mess-up my A's....i'd rather be shot...

i just hope that in future i can safely adhere to my plans...at least until after my A's???

Anyways, maybe i should just forget about watching tV altogether to save myself from contemplating suicide everytime i missed my fav programmes...is it THAT serious? yes.(at least to me)

By right, i was supposed to abstain myself from tV already!!!! so maybe that was a hint that i shouldn't be watching tV anymore.....ok, i'll try hard.....but there're still a couple of MUST-SEEs like the CSI Finale, Project superstar (i have so much criticisms for it but i don't know why i'm still hooked...i'm just plain k-po.) and blah blah blah....hehehe...so much for my will power lor...

oh well, i'm trying so hard now and am still surviving (surprisingly)...the thing is, i don't just wana hover at the brink of success....i wana savour every part of it....So, if anyone ever find that i'm rather apathetic towards anything.....i'm so sorry...but i assure you it will only take 3 months... =)