have you ever had the feeling of being sucked into something which you obviously had nothing to do with?

things used to be very simple, and then the complication.

so i called jiayi. it's been some time since i made confessions to her. i miss talking to her. cus most of the time we were merely producing unproductive crap, but still.... I'm so glad she understood. and i'm so glad i can be completely honest with her. felt so much better after saying those things i never imagine myself will say. you know some things, you won't even bring yourself to come to terms with, what more if you're letting someone else in? thank god she's not just someone else.

this friendship came a LONG way. i hope some of you understand. i could just say everything and anything i have in mind to anyone, but because like everyone else, i have secrets. and if there's anyone i'll wana share with, jiayi will be the first...the next will be glynis. at least for those i consider unsharable. when i say this, it really means the issue is not so simple.

much as i like to consider myself mature, i think i truly did let myself down this time. by now maybe you all may think i'm down or what, or maybe i'm emo and sad over something. honestly, i'm not. i'm just a bit confused.

So please don't make me sound like i need help or genuine concern. the very reason i vaguely blogged about this is because i feel like it.

just in case anyone probes, i hope you all understand that i have my reservations. and please for the "LASTEST" time:

I AM SO OKAY